Have always failed in most of the things tried in life like relationships ,exams, nofap, and journalling as well so why not give it another chance!
Day 0
Some nice lines that i find helpful
āIt will pass, recovery is not about controlā¦itās about submission ā¦just let it pass ā¦you donāt have to do anything, just donāt give inā
day 1
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] Meditation
[
] Yoga
[] Book Reading
[] Study Target
[] Less screen time (used for 5 hours)
Urges - None
Very wasted day with no/less work done except for 15 minutes meditation
will be trying to be more and more consistent for me to achieve my goal
my sleep schedule also sucks very much right now I sleep at around 4-5 am daily and wake up at 10am -12 pmā¦itās almost 12:30 am right now so will try to sleep right after this check in with meditation since it makes me sleep like a baby lol will try to get around 7 hours of sleep
2:30 am didnāt slept now getting medium level urges
I donāt want to go back to day 0 again so did 20 push ups and sit ups
Iāll just sleep now
wasnāt able to sleep till 5 am last night
day 2 ā> day 0
[] Meditation
[ ] Yoga
[ ] Book Reading
[] Study Target
[ ] Less screen time (used for 1 hours)
Relapsed in evening (twice)
was studying according to schedule till evening then boredom and boom had blocked my phone so was able to control phone usage
always happens due to loneliness or boredom since I live alone away from parents in my room all day in pg
in around half year one of the most important exam of my life is coming up and I am stressing over it over and over again and making my life miserable so first of all I want to accept that even if I fail in any aspect of life I wonāt regret it (still remember the last time I did regret the failures I went through in school) and accept that and would try my best to overcome it again and again
The last time I felt some kind of achievement was when I gave my 10th boards which gave me fruitful results and then in 5th semester of my graduation where I studied day and night for semester which resulted in my best ever cgpa/sem
I want to feel that againā¦ I dont even remember the last time I smiled from within must be 5-6 years agoā¦ I have communication issues with people even in my own mother tongue all due to these bad habits of ā ā ā ā addiction , binge eating addiction, dirty bulking when I was going to gym , procrastinating affected my mental health a lot
going to get a shower now before I sleep now Iāve made a rule that the lights would be out by 10:30 pm
Brother you are totally in the wrong direction.
First change your name . Your name is your attitude and it defines you . Donāt give negative thoughts to your subconscious mind .
Bro we are human ,we are not perfect,so donāt use cross word in your work if itās unfulfilled. Just leave them. Put green mark and get the full satisfaction of the green. Think how to achieve more green.
Red or cross Mark will give you stress and it doesnāt good for you in long run.
Thank you for reply brother
I donāt even know if Iām in any direction Iāve lost all sense of directions
My intention wasnāt negative name as there is also 404 at the end that means lazy guy not found but yeah it could be negative on the first lookā¦ Will change it if I could think of something else (Im weak in coming up with names)
Thatās a great way to look at it thanks for the tip bhaiya
day 1
Meditation
[ ] Yoga
[ ] Book Reading
Study Target
[ ] Less screen time (used for half an hour)
Mindful day with lots of sleeping slight exercise and controlled emotions and no urges
Spent most of the time in reading book
Thatās crazy brother 
You can ask @debellator to change your name, you donāt deserve this name tbh . All the best for your journey!
Changed username but seems like canāt change the permanent name without mod
Thanks
@debellator please change my name to āAttainThePeakā
Hope that itās not bad XD
All the best 
day 2
[ ] Meditation
[ ] Yoga
[ ] Book Reading
[ ] shower
Study Target
Less screen time (used for 3 hour)
Whether was great today after rain so spent half an hour just sitting in watching the rain and meditating there made me very happy
Studies are picking up the pace and nicely as well
No urges today
day 3
[ ] Meditation
[ ] Yoga
Book Reading
[ ] shower
Study Target
Less screen time (used for 4 hour)
Cheking in late due to an outing with bros just got back home
Otherwise average day with no urges but diet was bad
day 4
[ ] Meditation
[ ] Yoga
[ ] Book Reading
[ ] shower
Study Target
Less screen time (used for 5 hour)
Didnāt even realised my phone usage was so high after checking at the screen time app
Otherwise had medium urges when i woke up in the morning to fap but controlled it by taking a cold shower then the urge was still there so i started to listen music
Was having an urge just 10 min ago as well then i remembered i am late for checking in so here i am and after being careful till now i will sleep peacefully while meditating
This channel is a gem helps me during nights when i cant bring myself to sleep
day 5
[ ] Meditation
Yoga
[ ] Book Reading
shower
Study Target
Less screen time (used for 4 hour)
high urges day controlled all by willpower today but was not able to do any tasks and was in digital detox till 8 pm and broke that by using phone again by removing the blocker for the blocked apps
gotta be more careful from now on almost had urges to peek at one moment
day 6
[ ] Meditation
[ ] Yoga
Book Reading
[ ] shower
Study Target
Less screen time (used for 2 hour)
so funny thing happened today after waking up at 7 I meditated a little and then started preparing breakfast after which my classes were from 8:30 till 11:30 then after I was feeling sleepy as I had got only 5 hours of sleep so I took a nap in noon now then I had the most erotic dream of my life lolā¦Then after that had a nightfall dayfall ā¦ first time dayfall happened to me I searched up about it but wasnāt able to find much so Iāll consider itās a normal nightfall after lack of sleep
The reason for all the nightfall that I think is whenever i sleep on my stomachā¦ It never happened to me when I was sleeping over my side or on back always on my stomach
so after some post fall clarity I went and took a shower right after and didnāt help the urges that followed
relapsed from early morning urges
didnāt completed the process as I lost interest in between due to guilt and peeked for half an hour and maybe edged for 10-15 minutes
checking in early and then will edit the details such that I wont relapse further than this today
[ ] Meditation
Yoga
[ ]Book Reading
[ ] shower
Study Target
Less screen time (used for 2 hour)
Get up and rise brother! You gotta Attain the peak !
relapsed again in morning
chaser sucks hard
day 0
[] Meditation
Yoga
Book Reading
shower
Study Target
Less screen time (used for 5 hour)
complete wasted day didnt did shit
really bad start of the month i dont want to make this a habit
read this line in search of motivation today which changed my view a lot
āIt will pass, recovery is not about controlā¦itās about submission ā¦just let it pass ā¦you donāt have to do anything, just donāt give inā
which also made me remember that whenever i submit to my urges i am not in the correct environment and mindset completely
this addiction has controlled me for the last 8 years i am so much tired of all this i keep blocking it and the other me keep unblocking it
made a promise to myself that whenever i am not following my schedule i would just listen to this or such videos that makes me realize and remember the ground reality of where i stand in this world i am nobody right now but want to achieve some things which i wont be able to if i keep going like this
i realized that i never had discipline at any moment in my life i read up about a lot of peopleās journey on rewire and reddit where people were toppers in school and college ā¦i realized that i was always a distracted student and just barely able to comprehend the things that were taught either in class or coachings
been crying up for half an hour over these thoughs after i talked then over with a friend
iāve been getting used to the these distractions but m and p are still one of my worst enemies
well enough of the crying now back to work from tomorrow
and yes i gotta āāattain the peakāā @Sholt_Tenkerrot 
day 1
[] Meditation
[ ] Yoga
[ ] Book Reading
[ ] shower
Study Target
Less screen time (used for 3hour)
Congratulations brother you became āNew user of the monthā September 
. Be consistent like this !
