Tuesday 29th March 
Right now it feels hard to say,
Current stress, heavy worry motivated me to pmo - pmo seems least of my worries, Iām sorry to say 
But I realise, its not the first time and maybe not the last, but we canāt let our addiction keep us down as it always has been, in one way or another.
I think itās better to clean ourselves up, donāt hang your shame for everyone to see, but stand tall, wash, put on clean clothes and a nice smell, know that we are sinners with confidence,ā¦ Not with reverence to sin, but with acceptance and confidence that God is perfect, and knows us through and through, all our sin, all our troubles and worry, our stupid errors and things we do, the things we wish we didnāt, and the true desire for simple peace, simple grace, simple trust and simple tears to be in His Home - which means understanding loving and forgiving our brothers and sisters.
We got to live and walk in His Presence, become attentive that life is living all around us. Life is vibrating, and if only we could dive in, and let Godās stream help us flow through life
Wed 30th March 
It was a good day 
@Rohitash the times I felt closer to God and unoccupied by the world were when I was getting early nights, and taking every opportunity to be at Mass - going every morning, and having confession at weekends. Itās always been a nice routine, early nights, Mass before work and that time for admitting my faults with the desire for a cleaner, purer heart.
Life can be hard, competitive and very uncertain, but giving it all up and just wanting God and His Peace removes what seems fixed.
Itās too easy to make God into an idea, which Iām guilty of, but to recognise God as The Father, -as a real person, not of skin and bone but of spirit, personality and humour- is secure.
To have a mind fixed on God, we let go of the world - fails/achievements. Our fails become our experiences, and achievements dependant on Him to be good and faithful,ā¦ actually both failure and success become dependent on Him, itās ultimately from Him we want forgiveness and wisdom as humans can and will make mistakes.
But I feel God is like The Good Dad at His sonās Saturday football game cheering him on
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Yes bro, completely agree with youā¦He is our real and eternal Father and he is always there with us in every circumstancesā¦we just need to believe that and keep counting on meā¦all the e, everytimeā¦He is the greatest of all Great onesā¦Amenā¦ Glory to Godā¦God bless you bro
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Thurs 31st March
I had choir practice this evening which felt wonderful and good. Theyāre great people, weāre singing great music, and itās truly pleasing to be part singing again from score. My tenor buddy is a legend and we make great sounds together blending with the choir. Things like this remind me I donāt need much more in life and life opens up