Ali's Diary ( Sharing About my Streak and Changes Coming)

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Hey Friends…
I’m Ali 24 years…

Highest Streak was 78 days…
Then some ups and downs… And then i reached 59 days streak and then i went towards loop of relapses more than 10 relapse may be in just 2 weeks…!!!

After that, i made a final decision to leave this bad habit of P.M

And AlHamDuLillah … I have passed 31 days without PMO…

Thought of writing a Diary so I do not waste my time on social media…
I have left Fb, not using twitter, insta, tiktok etc and other time wasting apps…
Just using whatsapp for communication and youtube for learning and entertainment ( not vulgar one)…

I will try to be a part of this Good Community…
And it will also show me…
How’s All Going

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Day 32 Completed…

In first 29 days…
There were just 2 nightfalls

But in last 2 nights…
2 nightfalls in 2 nights…

Although there was no such thing going in my mind…
May be it is due to No PMO and Semen is coming out naturally + as a Muslim, i’m fasting so when we eat extra so we feel energetic whole day… May be that is the reason…

Whatsoever…
One Good thing is that i am not feeling any type of weakness etc…

After almost 14 hours of Fasting…
I still feel energetic like before…!!!

Best of Luck to All of u

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1 issue i’m facing is that i am not able to empty my urine bladder

Means i leak after urination…
I feel that some urine is left…
And after that…
I also feel that some drops are still coming out of my peni*

If anyone has gone through that…
Plz share your experience…

By the way, i am going to doctor and have started treatment…

Hope so it will also get better

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Day 33 Completed…
Hardmode going on…

1 thing which i am doing is…
I read someone’s msg to follow people with bigger streak so you will take a challenge and it will also look as something possible

Now i am following people of higher streaks…
And i will follow 100 such people…

Afterwards…
My challenge is going with them…

If any one lose… I will unfollow them…
So i have to be No 1 among those 100 precious people

1 negative thing is that we are daily reading about relapses and relapses…
And it seems impossible to complete challenge

And u relapse too…
That yes everybody is relapsing

But when u will be following people with higher streaks…
Now its real challenge that people are so ahead…
Why m i losing?

And u will get motivation and Real challenge both at once…

Hope so u like this way…

Note : Real key to success is No Social media or Limited Social media

I have left Fb, twitter , tiktok , no insta etc
Best of Luck partners…
Thanks for Reading

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Day 36 Completed…

Badge Changed : Army Commander Now :muscle:t2:

AlHamDuLillah…
No Extra kind of Urges because there is nothing which can trigger me…

I am not focusing on girls around me…
Not using Fb/insta/Twitter/tiktok etc

There is no thought of watching por* or fappin*

Thanks to this platform…

And Its blessing of Almighty Allah…
That we are in month of Ramadan…
So fasting also helps…!!!

OverAll… Going Good against this por* industry…!!!

Best wishes for all of u…
Remember me in your prayers too…!!!

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Completed day 40
Badge Changed and now I M A Champion…!!!

i think so its just 3rd or 4th time after addiction that i’ve Gone so far…
So its a big acheivement from that prospectus
but this time its different
It is very minor streak because i am gonna complete 1,000 days or Marriage … Whichever comes first…!!
And If we go in detail…
So Halal Sex with girl does not break challenge…
It means that 1,000 days completion is real challenge…and after that no one can think of going back to hell… Means its a lifetime challenge…
So 40 days is not a much bigger deal…
I’m not being extra confident so i may not break my challenge assuming that i’ve done some extra ordinary job…
By the way…
i’m away from all triggers so it is not like any difficult thing…
it seems easy after quitting social media…

i pray for all of u to win this challenge …
1 more thing…

Feeling good… ■■■■ free mind is some peace…!!!

I wrote one more thing that i m following people with greater streaks like 100+ 200+ or atleast 20 days plus…
It is giving me some power…

I do not want any bro to lose challenge…
But till now…
4 people i was following have lost the challenge and i have unfollowed them…

I m praying that no one breaks his challenge …
But if anyone is going to do that… He will not be me In Shaa Allah…

This challenge in a challenge is some boosting power for me…
People above 20 30 days should start this way too…!!

Thanks for reading brothers…
U.can share your views too…
Reply if u want to share some thing…!!

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I occasionally had that problem bro, started doing kegel exercises and it helped.
It was usually precipitated by long hours of PMO.

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@CoffeeMan
Thanks bro… For replying here…

I was finding a man who faced this problem…
Can u share some details about the problem…
Beacuse it varies too…
E.g urine drops after urination or sometimes white drops too like semen etc

And which kegel exercise u did?
How?

Because i tried some exercises but i mostly stop my breath… Could not only focus stopping and releasing muscles

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I had problem of incomplete voiding only after crazy PMO sessions. I no longer have that problem.

I did Kegel exercises. You can watch YouTube if you wanna learn how to do it.

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Brother, one thing I noticed in your journal is that you are too preoccupied with your streak. It is a recipe for disaster in my opinion. I’m on day 40 too, but racking up days isn’t something I look forward to. I have a very different metric to measure my success. I have goals & aspirations and a big streak is just a byproduct of pursuing those aspirations. I’ll admit, in times of adversity, a streak is a great reminder of how far you’ve come and why you can’t afford to lose.

NoFap shouldn’t be the focus of your life.
It should be a byproduct of a fundamental change within you as a human being.

Anyways, that’s what worked for me.

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You are right bro…
And thats also a beautiful way to think…!!!

Thanks for showing me that way to look at things…!!!

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Day 45 Completed

I wanna share some changes which shooked me…

I want to tell you people that i do not have bad habit of staring girls and their figures while i’m out…

I always took my eyes away from them even if they are in some se*y type dress…!!

When i was a por* addict…
I still was a good person outside …
Not staring at girls etc

Means my only problem was…
I could not save myself from watching po*n and hot stuff on smart phone…

I did many challenges…
And lost many times …

But this time… I felt something unbelieveable

This time i’m on hardmode…
Not looking at any that type of stuff online or offline

I’ve limited my use of social media

So all was going good…
Just 3 nightfalls in 40+ days

And no much thinking about s*x etc

But from 2 to 3 days…

( When going from one place to another on bike … Females passing by are catching my attraction)

I’m feeling some extra ordinary attraction towards females…
Specially young ones of my age

And its is not kind of some sexual attraction that gives me some bad thoughts…

But it is some thing like i’m just admiring their beauty…
I’m not gazing at their boobs or booties etc

But i was loving their feets, hands and faces…

I was taking my eyes away from them but the next moment i’m looking at them again…

I am surprised that i was a person who never looked at females … Even in those days when i was an addict…

But why and how am i getting so much attraction towards them…

One thing which came into my mind is that might be its some good sign of nofap that my mind is no more searching for fake screen beauty but now wants some real girl and is getting attracted towards nature not artificial things…

Plzz share your experiences if any of u have gone through such kind of feeling…

This is kind of feeling i’ve never got before in my life…
Really amazing…!!!

Would appreciate your comments and answers…!!!

What do u think…

Is this some good sign or something alarming i should be careful of?

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It is a very good sign. It means that your body is healing and your natural masculine sexuality is returning. I remember when I experienced it in the past, it is a wonderful feeling.

Congratulations on day 45 brother. Keep going strong :fire::muscle:

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Hey Ali.
Just work on your triggers. If you’re good but unable to stop the actions it means there is a wiring issue. There’s a wire in the brain which starts off once it sees a trigger. Identify all those triggers and replace them with something else. Practice it everyday.

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Also, stop counting the days for once. It’s like dragging yourself through days. As coffeeman said, days and streaks are just a by product. Main thing is the how you’re thinking at each scene.

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@Forerunner
Thnx bro…
I also think that it is some real healing and some very positive change…
Now i have left fake screens pleasures and some real beauty is capturing my attention…!!!

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@Prateek.12

You and @CoffeeMan are right…

I am not counting those days in that sense…
But as this app shows it and for many people who are not completing even a week…

For them, big numbers are some big motivations…

So i post number day too…

I am also trying to figure out some real changes so my life gets out of this hell completely…

Like i mentioned the recent change…
That i do not need any fake online pleasure anymore…
Getting some real masculine feelings with love and respect for other genders…!!!

Hope so this go on and i will get all real benefits of nofap

M avoinding all triggers…
No fb or social media except whatsapp for communication and youtube for education and entertainment ( not vulgar one)

Loving this challenge this time…!!!

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Tomorrow, i am making a fifty of Nofap Hardmode challenge

I want to make it my life style so days doesn’t matter a lot…
Still for some people… It is something that matters specially who are even not making into double figures so my 50 days are coming after few hours tomorrow…

Some Changes i Felt… I m trying to share

1- My mind is not asking me to go on a p()rn site and watch someone doing sex

2- I am looking at girls like a human being not like an object… A sexual object

3- Real women attraction increased much ( Details already written above in same diary)

4- One big change ( a Sexual one ) is that i am feeling some physical change in my penis…
When i was fapping more … It was always shrinked, looking small and soft… Only when i become sexuallh aroused it changes its position and become big and hard…
But from few days like a week or so…
I m not erected, i am not thinking sexually…
I just go to washroom for urine and when i look at my male part…
It is not shrinked, not a small one, not very soft although not very hard because its non erected state but in a decent shape… I think so this is some good change too…

I am not much touching it to see hardness level or size etc after erection as it can become a trigger and can take me to relapse so i m not giving any extra attention… But what i m watching daily is being shared… Maybe some men find it useful

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One thing ,i want your opinions…
As i m away from all triggers…
Nothing is triggering me…
Feeling some pure soul…

But one issue…

I am here on this nofap community…
Similarly, on some whatsapp groups etc

When somebody posts their story type something…
Like i was A 12 year old…i watched this and that with friends etc or got addicted to p()rn or masturbation etc etc…

They r asking questions and telling how badly are they stucked…
But that story type reading makes me sexually aroused…
I feel some movement in male part and also i checked today and it was precumming…

Is this a problem too…
Should i leave such posts or groups ?

Or may i take this as a normal male thing?

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When people are sharing stories like this, don’t allow fantasies and past memories or flashbacks of pornography to linger in your mind. When those images come, say “Audhubillahi mina shaitanir rajim bismillah ir rahman ir rahim” and let those images be released from your mind. The stories are okay if you don’t let them affect you.

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