I am not fantasizing or imagining… But it seems like some sex story and it effects mind
@Forerunner
Btw thanks…
I’ll try to recite that in Shaa Allah
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How does it affect you if you aren’t imagining anything while reading it brother?
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@Forerunner
It is happening in my mind somewhere…
I m not thinking or trying to imagine it…
This happens in back of my mind automatically…
One reason may be that once i was addicted of reading sex stories… So maybe my mind directly take lust like that
Ahhh that makes sense.
I would say perhaps it’s safer for you to stay away from those stories then. It’s up to you brother. You’re doing fantastically, Alhamdulillah. You don’t want to sabotage your growth.
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Yes… I am now trying to be normal…
So for a long time i should get away from these type of things too…
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Today i’m thinking to write something except nofap
Friends… Its 3rd day of Eid…
We friends are planning to do some outing… Going towards sea side
Yesterday was boring whole day…
Couldn’t enjoy at all…
We made a plan but at the last moment…
Due to one friend… It was cancelled…
We gathered at night in one’s house and were just chilling… Suddenly a phone came and we all were ready to go with him
It was about visiting mazar shareef Of Syed Abdullah Shah Ghazi baba…
We went there around 1 at night… And it was closed after 12 … So we couldn’t get in…
Did Salam from outside…
And then went to some near park…
There were many rides and we all sat on ship …
Enjoyed a bit… Visited all sides but due to rush couldn’t take many rides…
Planned to eat something so went to nearby KFC and ate Zinger burger and came back…
Night made our day otherwise it was all boring…
One good thing was
Although there were many girls and women…
But i was not looking at them…
Aesy men Ham Sakht Londy hen
As i wrote in diary too that i have this good habit of not gazing at girls…
But my attraction was developing much after 30+ days of nofap
And i know that i have to.control myself
And yes i was successful…
I was not staring them but giving space sometimes due to rush so it was all with respect…
Once again feeling proud…!!!
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Friends… I’m sorry…
I am confused but i did relapse
Tonight, i had a nightfall… But during that i woke up…
This is not first time it happens…
Many times man wake up during that and some times still your semen gets out fully… And sometimes it stops as you woke up…
Tonight same happened , i wake up when it was in half process and now my mind was trying that my dick should release all that stuff…
But due to awakening…
I lost that in half…
I remained laid down trying that it gets out on its own but it didn’t happened…
And then i don’t know what happened to me…
I was feeling that i have much load in my male part and releasing it is necessary…
My hand went in pants…
I started touching it…moving it…
And finally it was hard like never before…
One of strongest erections my hands were feeling and after few strokes of lust it was all over…
I was not in my senses that i did that needlessly…
I am now feeling ashamed , why did i even touched that??
My one mind says that u were not 100% awake…
So u went with some horny feeling of nightfall and couldn’t resist…
But other mind saying that u were awake…
Its your fault…
That was not first time it happened
And you lost out of nowhere…
I think so i should count it as a relapse… But am confused due to my sleepy condition…
What do u people say?
This type of thing happened to u when you relapsed like that?
Some positives of this 50 days Streaks are :
1- No ■■■■
2- Looking at females like a human being not a sexual object
3- Attraction towards females increased
4- Not feeling always tired like before
5- penis size and shape , even when not erected is something i was wishing for long time
6- when i was addicted…
After masturbation or watching p()rn etc… Dick was like bent towards left side and also it shrinks…
But today when i wake up after all that…
1 nightfall + 1 masturbation…
It still is straight, not shrinked not bent to its side
I think so i got these benefits because i was on hardmode… No PMO
NO SOFT ■■■■ NO REAL ■■■■ NO MORE SOCIAL MEDIA TRIGGERING POSTS…
SO I WAS A PURE SOUL THESE DAYS AND WAS FEELING MARVELLOUS
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One more thing to share…
As i m not hiding anything
Tonight… Before all this happened in morning time…
I was having some sexual thoughts out of nowhere…
I was feeling erected and was having different thoughts…
Like now its time , i should have a girl to have sex with etc etc
And one more thought was coming that get naked … Throw your pants away… And let it be free and just chill…
I don’t know why i was feeling so horny tonight…
I didn’t watched anything but was having these feelings …
Maybe it was due to my hardmode resistance…
Or someother thing…
Is it some thing due to nofap challenge…
Some mind game of it??
I got 3 nightfalls during these 50 days…
And tonight was 4th one…
Before, last nightfall was around 20-25 days before…
Seniors plzz guide…!!!
Friends , i need some real help…
I am now having some feelings of chaser effects…
Please motivate me and guide me seniors…
Now my mind is just asking to re enjoy that moment…
Just touch my dick… Go on… Etc
But i am controlling myself …
I remember last time when i broke my 58,59 days streak , i relapsed 10 times in 2 weeks…
I do not want it back…
But my mind is going towards that
I want some real guide + motivation
@Forerunner
@CoffeeMan
@Prateek.12
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If you’ve got the power and will to come here and write about your concerns , then you have the power to not give into them. Just remember every time you relapse you are taking one step back from where you want to be.
Ask yourself these question:
- How many times are you going to repeat your downfall before you get it?
- What/How am i going to feel after i relapse again?
- Do i want to feel like shit all my life? If you do go ahead and pmo
- Am i that much of a pussy i can’t say no ? Thought you where a man who controls his own actions ?
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Thanks bro @RenegadeAu
I’ll try that…
By the way , i watched some entertaining videos at youtube and urges are gone now…!!!
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If you are facing chaser effect, best way is to change your surroundings. Either you go and change things around you. Change the way/timings of things you do. Also, please throw your phone under the bed or something. This will blow the cloud in your mind.
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Thanks bro… I agree…
I’ll try my best…
I am getting away from my mobile too …
Lets see what happens…
But i m hopeful…
I’ll defeat this chaser effect this time
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It’s sad to see that you relapsed brother, you were doing so well.
Always remember that a relapse is a choice. Even if you are going through the chaser effect, you don’t lose your free will. If you want to stay clean, you will stay clean. If you want to do PMO, you will do PMO. It doesn’t matter how many urges you get. You can overcome all of them.
Time to get back on track and reclaim that marvellous feeling of freedom.
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Yes bro… I’m feeling shit at the moment…
Why i’ve done this…
I’m feeling very bad
I think so these words are very precious…
At morning… It was my choice although i was in a sleepy mode… Still i did what i wanted…
And now i will do what i will want to…
Agree with you…
And now my answer to PMO is a Big No…
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I wish I had something to tell you bro. But I’m tired of giving advice. I am also dealing with chaser effect. One thing I am doing is staying away from my phone as much as I can and doing household chores. It’s working great for me.
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I can understand bro…
I have been through that condition…
Keeping myself busy is best option…
From tomorrow onwards, my holidays are off so i think so i’ll be doing good
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