Agantuk's New Beginning [20 M]

Diary
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I decided to make a new diary as before this I was in a totally different situation of limiting myself, using Blockers. I used them for 2.5 years. All in vain! Now am beginning with just nothing from a new point.
I pledge to journalise daily and complete my goals. If I don’t, I will give myself punishments and if I complete, Rewards will wait for me.
I want to see a better me at the end.

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Tomorrow’s Plan:

1.Waking up
2.Jogging and Spotify (8-9 am)
3.Breakfast within 9:30 am
4.Give download to Mahabharat eps
5.Have Tuition Class (9:30 -10:30am)
6.Indian working class + NP (10:30-1:00pm)
7.Bathing in between
8. Lunch
9. Few good videos on Upsc ( news reading,answer writing etc)
10. Afternoon nap
11. Stretching (suryanamaskar 5 times)
12. Gurdwara reform
13. Mahabharat watch
14. Journal and planning for next day
15. Sleep within 11

Reward: For completion of whole routine - Get 50 rupees and a movie on Sunday.
Punishment: No Series the day after

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Same here !! Blockers are just useless for me bcz I always find a way to adult content.
Anyway, I m also starting my new journey maybe from tomorrow onwards.
All the Best :boom:

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@yashnofap01 all the best to you too. May you also get free from this addiction.

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Day 1

1.Waking up 8 am
2.Jogging and Spotify (8-9 am) :white_check_mark:
3.Breakfast within 9:30 am :white_check_mark:
4.Give download to Mahabharat eps :white_check_mark:
5.Have Tuition Class (9:30 -10:30am) :white_check_mark:
6.Indian working class + NP (10:30-1:00pm) :white_check_mark:
7.Bathing in between :white_check_mark:
8. Lunch :white_check_mark:
9. Few good videos on Upsc ( news reading,answer writing etc) :white_check_mark:
10. Afternoon nap :white_check_mark:
11. Stretching (suryanamaskar 5 times) :white_check_mark:
12. Gurdwara reform :white_check_mark:
13. Mahabharat watch :white_check_mark:
14. Journal and planning for next day :white_check_mark:
15. Sleep within 11 :white_check_mark:

Reward: For completion of whole routine - Get 50 rupees and a movie on Sunday :white_check_mark:
Punishment: No Series the day after

I completed finally. Yay!!!
Good night.

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Tomorrow’s Plan

1.Waking up
2. Full body workout (8:00-9:00 am)
3. Download 3 eps of Mahabharat
4.Breakfast within 9:00- 9:30 am
5.Tution class 9:30 10:00 am
6. Newspaper (10:00-:10:30 am)
7. Years of Stagnation (10:30 to 1 pm)
8. Bath in between
9. Mahabharat (1:00 to 2:30 pm)
10. Lunch in between
11.Afternoon Nap (2:30 to 5:00 pm)
12. Yoga and Sirsasana (5:00 to 6:00 pm)
13. Years of Stagnation and Bhagat Singh (6:00 -9:00 pm)
14. Dinner (9:00 - 9:30 pm)
15. Internet to be used by downloads or updating apps till this time
16. Mahabharat or Sherlock Holmes (9:30 to 10:30)
17. Journal
18. Sleep before 11

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Could you please suggest me some good materials to study for UPSC. UPSC has always been my long term goal

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Bro @anon87955785 there is no single good materials for UPSC and that’s where the problem starts. Everything is good. Though as a beginner you can start with Modern India by Bipan Chandra which goes by the name India’s Struggle for Independence.
I am currently studying that.
You can get a detailed and perspectival view of Modern India from it.

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Day 2

1.Waking up 8 am
2. Full body workout (8:00-9:00 am):white_check_mark:
3. Download 3 eps of Mahabharat✅
4.Breakfast within 9:00- 9:30 am✅
5.Tution class 9:30 10:00 am✅
6. Newspaper (10:00-:10:30 am):white_check_mark:
7. Years of Stagnation (10:30 to 1 pm):white_check_mark:
8. Bath in between✅
9. Mahabharat (1:00 to 2:30 pm):white_check_mark:
10. Lunch in between✅
11.Afternoon Nap (2:30 to 5:00 pm):white_check_mark::x:
12. Yoga and Sirsasana (5:00 to 6:00 pm):x:
13. Years of Stagnation and Bhagat Singh (6:00 -9:00 pm):x:
14. Dinner (9:00 - 9:30 pm):white_check_mark:
15. Internet to be used by downloads or updating apps till this time✅
16. Mahabharat or Sherlock Holmes (9:30 to 10:30):white_check_mark:
17. Journal✅
18. Sleep before 11✅

I really messed up the evening routine. Will try to improve tomorrow.

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Damn that relapse! Starting again.

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Day 1 and Day 2 Check In :white_check_mark:

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Day 3

  1. Waking up at 7:00 am :white_check_mark:

  2. Abs workout (7:00-8:00 am) :white_check_mark:

  3. Visualization and bath (8:00-9:00 am) :white_check_mark:

  4. Give Download to Mahabharat (5 eps) :white_check_mark:

  5. Breakfast with newspaper (9:00- 9:30 am) :white_check_mark:

  6. Tution class ( 9:45-10:15 am) :white_check_mark:

  7. Swarajista ( 10:15 - 1:00 pm) :white_check_mark:

  8. Lunch (1:00-1:20 pm) :white_check_mark:

  9. Mahabharat (1:20-2:30 pm) :white_check_mark:

  10. Afternoon nap (2:30-5:00 pm) 1.6 GB of net to be exhausted :white_check_mark:

11.Stretching+Milk (5:00-5:30 pm) :white_check_mark:
12. Pratik Nayak Videos( 5:30-6:30 pm) :white_check_mark:
13. Bhagat Singh( 6:30-9:00 pm) :white_check_mark:

14.Dinner(9:00-9:15 pm) :white_check_mark:
15.Tuition Class( 9:15 - 9:40 pm):white_check_mark:
16.Mosquito net :white_check_mark:

17.Mahabharat ( 9:45 - 10:15 pm) :white_check_mark:
18.Riders to the Sea (10:15-11:15 pm) :white_check_mark:
19.Journal (11:15 - 11:30 pm) :white_check_mark:
20. Plan for next day ( 11:30 - 12:00 am) :white_check_mark:

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Day 4

  1. Waking up at 7:00 am :white_check_mark:

  2. Abs workout (7:00-8:00 am) :white_check_mark:

  3. Visualization and bath (8:00-9:00 am) :white_check_mark:

  4. Give Download to Mahabharat (5 eps) :white_check_mark:

5.Breakfast with newspaper (9:00- 9:30 am) :white_check_mark:

6.Tution class ( 9:45-10:15 am) :white_check_mark:

  1. Bhagat Singh( 10:15 - 1:00 pm) :white_check_mark:

  2. Lunch (1:00-1:20 pm) :white_check_mark:

  3. Mahabharat (1:20-2:30 pm) :white_check_mark:

10.Afternoon nap (2:30-5:00 pm) 1.6 GB of net to be exhausted :white_check_mark:

11.Stretching+Milk (5:00-5:30 pm) :white_check_mark:

12.Mahipal Sir Videos( 5:30-6:30 pm) :x:

  1. Simon Commission ( 6:30-9:00 pm) :x:

14.Dinner(9:00-9:15 pm) :white_check_mark:

15.Tuition Class/ Match ( 9:15 - 9:45 pm) :white_check_mark:

16.Mosquito net :white_check_mark:

17.Mahabharat ( 9:45 - 10:15 pm) :white_check_mark:

18.Simon Commission (10:15-11:15 pm) :x:

  1. Journal and Plan for next day (within 11:30 pm) :white_check_mark:

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Ahh!!! I was this :pinching_hand: close to make 6 days and without a peek. But then the devil inside me got up. I was not following my routine and that’s it. It became the reason for my relapse.

I need to be more careful and discard my phone during afternoon.

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Day 0

Again after 19 days. I have begin again. In between a lot of relapses and experimentation that went on with failures and bit of success. I got to understand about my self control and weaknesses out there. Will definitely rectify. Beginning again.

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2022-10-14T16:50:00Z

Day 1

After a long time, I guess. I was really hesitating to start my journalising. But I should adopt it as a part of my routine. It not only gives me a clarity of thoughts and place to jot them but also an accountability to my own actions. So, today I completed Day 1.
It was tiresome for my eyes and physical well being. The whole day I remained glued to my phone (watching a series named Chernobyl). The lunatic thing is that even after doing nothing, I feel tired.

Anyways…made up a routine. I will try my best to follow.

  1. Study (minimum 4 hours)
  2. Wake up before 7
  3. Healthy Concoction or Plain Warm Water
  4. Sirsasana
  5. Exercise (Jogging is not be included)
  6. Visualization
  7. Breakfast
  8. Conversation
  9. Study Slot 1
  10. Lunch
  11. Book Read
  12. Nap
  13. Stretching and Excercise
  14. Health Drinks
  15. Study Slot 2
  16. Dinner
  17. Conversation
  18. Series (till completion of recent one)/ Studies
  19. Journal
  20. Sleep
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That’s a great routine, hope you stick to it, and yes journaling it a great way to get clarity and pin pointing the problems and rectifying them. Best of luck for the rest of the journey. Be Proud of yourself and Love yourself.

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That’s what I am struggling with.

Best wishes to you too my friend. May we both fight this evil ■■■■ addiction together.
I will keep updating my diary today onwards.

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2022-10-15T16:50:00Z

Day 2

The only productive thing today was staying without a relapse :sweat_smile:. I messed up the very first day after making up my routine.

[7-9am] I woke up early but didn’t exercise. I haven’t followed my routine for long and waking up early is also very difficult for me. So I escaped.

[9-12 am] I was really busy in completing the series Chernobyl and forgot about my study routine. When I realised the passing of time, I procrastinated again.

[12-2 pm] Finally, I decided to study after having my lunch. With a huge gush of oxygen into my chest, I opened my book. But tadaaa…another problem. The transformer which connects our home has faced some issues. If technicians would visit it will be fixed till evening. If not, the whole night we have to stay without electricity. We do have an Inverter but that is quite old and won’t be able to support us the whole night. We started switching off all the appliances and just kept a fan or light on simulataneoulsy.

[2-7 pm] I switched my phone off. Then I spent the whole time with my parents. Discussed a lot of things. I really felt better after that. We dont have much conversations like this.

[7-9 pm] We got back the electricity at 7:45. Again when I went back to open my book…tadaa…my cousins paid a visit :lying_face:. I really wasn’t in the mood to entertain their dumb talks. But had to do a lot of fake laugh (family…rishte).

Now am thinking on what series to start next. And how to make my routine more on the practical part rather than just being theoritical.

URGES: Specifically talking of them. I had them. And I noted a thing. My urges towatch porn were less overall but I felt a tinge inside my nerves whenever I was less busy or purposeless. There was this weird urge to find something…get something. Something which isn’t porn but can make me remember it. Confusing :face_with_monocle:

I wrote a lot today😁Good night folks!

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Ahh!! I relapsed again. The was a power cut in early hours. Some 3 in the morning. I got a disturbed sleep and again had to stay without current for nearly the whole day.
It was all perfect till afternoon. I even tried to pause my relapses after one round. But again it went to nearabout 10. I hate myself man :pensive::pensive:I just hate myself.
Beginning again. I will make sure to make up a routine fast.

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