28 days ago, I relapsed. And I should have shared it with you then—but I didn’t. I’ve carried the weight of that silence, and I’m here now because today’s verse struck me deeply: 2 Corinthians 8:21 (KJV) — “Providing for honest things, not only in the sight of the Lord, but also in the sight of men.”
Reading that was like a mirror to my soul. I realized I wasn’t being fully honest—not just before God, but before this community that has given me so much. If this changes how you see me, I understand. But I couldn’t go on hiding. Honesty has to come first if we’re going to grow and heal.
Because of this, I’ve decided to step away from some of the challenges I was part of. I’ll no longer be continuing with the Last Man Standing Challenge or the 365 Day Companion Challenge. However, I’m still committed to the 21 Day Mayhem Challenge, and I’ll give it my all.
I’m truly sorry for not being transparent earlier. I hope you can forgive me. And if you’re reading this and you’re struggling too—know that you’re not alone. Please don’t give up. This journey isn’t about perfection. It’s about persistence, honesty, and grace.
Our Redeemer lives. He hasn’t given up on us—and neither should we give up on ourselves or each other.
Thank you for sharing this, it was really brave of you and I’m proud of you. I pray God continues to give you all the grace and strength you need in your journey. God bless you.
@Svami-MahaGanja it was M because the day before my relapse I overworked myself and I couldn’t sleep until I made myself tired. That is the gist of it.
Okay I will continue but beginning with my 28 day streak and I will also post a picture to keep me accountable.
@FaithfulWalker
I can totally understand you, as i suspect many people here can. I have hidden things and have only just spoken about them after 5 years, and it is one of the hardest parts of the battle to tell somebody.
As it says and i will find the scriptures for it, we should bring out our struggles into the light, and confess our sins to one and other
@FaithfulWalker “…but whoso confesseth and forsaketh them shall have mercy.” Proverbs 28:13b
Brother, I’m very proud of you for your confession, and I know that God is pleased as well. That took a lot of courage. I know you’ll come back stronger than ever! God bless you, Brother, in your fight!
@FaithfulWalker
You are so innocent and brave. You are staying truthful to yourself.These are all part of the journey. You confessed even after 28 days. This shows that you are very serious regarding honesty and purity. You are a pure soul. You just have to don’t let the world snatch the innocence and child from within you. You are on right path, just keep walking ignoring the mirage like distractions which are just illusions of fulfillment. In reality, they just pull you in pit of endless emptiness, darkness. Life is in always walking towards the light, positivity. Keep going friend. You are a faithful Walker. Just keep walking.
Yes Brother I somehow had this courage but I also remembered Joshua 1:9.
Yes I do have one distraction that I have been struggling with and I am trying my best to remove myself from AGPP. Truly I walk more by faith, not by sight.
It’s common to fear the fall we had despite of it being from the 100th step or 10th step or 1st step. We have the insecurity of confessing a negative thing abt us when the world perceive us as the positive person. But when we confess and reveal our imperfections the world may laugh but your inner world and the world you made with your people understands and respect you more for being transparent.
Your confession is really creating a new way here so that confessions would become more frequent and less feared to be made among people here and the weight they carry inside will also be brought down.
@FaithfulWalker bro, it is just a fall not the end as you know. Let’s all keep fighting together as always.
You don’t need to hide anything about your relapses there’s nothing like shame exists here , All of us are here to improve ourselves and get out of this addiction of PMO , So staying honest is the best thing one can do to himself there’s nothing like identity barrier exist in between us we can share our thoughts our feelings freely without worrying about our image we can give support to each other, Here we are brothers who support and uplift each other from depth of hell.
We are all human brother. Nobody can blame you for anything, for we are all here for the exact reason; therefore, there is no reason for us to criticize one another for our minor failures. You’ve obtained a streak not many are able to achieve. U are the footprint I strive to follow. No need to apologize, keep pressing onward.
