I hope you wouldn’t mind but I’m not comfortable sharing this sort of information, it’s part of the past and i wouldn’t want to dig all of that up.
I try not to focus so much on the addiction itself, the reason I share my story is to tell people how God saved me and showed me compassion. I really want others to know they aren’t alone in their struggle and I want them to experience the love, grace and freedom I have experienced in Christ.
I struggled with this for almost 16 years and within those years, there were different phases, there was a time I couldn’t sleep without it but overtime I began the four days cycle and this cycle started because I was trying so hard to stop on my own.
I think I was really addicted, when life got tough or I feel rejected or I’m bored or exhausted ■■■■ was what I ran to. It was supposed to be a sort of silver lining in my life so I depended heavily on it to get through life.
I guess I can say I was interested in some specific categories.
I think it’s equally difficult for anyone to stop regardless of whether you have special categories you’re interested in or not.
It wasn’t easy for me to stop, especially when I tried on my own, it was Jesus who helped me stop finally and He has been the one sustaining me, because up till now I still get the urge to give in but He has given me the strength to say no
Can you believe that after a thousand days, I still get the urge to give in?
Some minutes ago, I was feeling nostalgic and decided to listen to some old songs and I came a cross a song I was fine listening to when I was younger but listening to it now, I realized how overly sexualized the lyrics and video was anyways after I saw the video for a few seconds, those images got stuck in my head and I had the urge to give in but thankfully God gave me the strength to say no but I was reminded of this verse
"Above all else, guard your heart, for it is the wellspring of life” (Proverbs 4:23).
Today I learned no matter how far I’ve come, I should never let my guard down, yes Jesus has set me free from this addiction but I need to be extremely cautious of what I feed my heart and that covers what I watch, read, and listen to because Luke 6:45 “Out of the abundance of the heart, the mouth speaks (and our actions too!)”.
so I encourage you brothers and sisters as you fight this addiction, know that only Jesus saves us but we have to also protect our hearts. God bless you.
Great message.
As long as we are on this earth, the flesh is still alive. Conquered and overcome by the Spirit but yet the dying remnant persists and ever so often it flares up and tries to overcome us.
Which is why Peter warns us to be alert and sober-minded.
Okay so recently I came across two women who had faced different awful experiences and they overcame them. One of them wrote a book about how she found healing after her experience while the other wrote about her experience in detail to educate people on not making the same mistakes that she did.
While looking at both of their stories, I realized these women put aside their hurt and shame and decided to share their stories in order to help others and it made me wonder if I should attempt and write a book too, I know my experience isn’t traumatic as theirs but I wondered if my story could help anyone out there. As much as I have shared my journey here, I haven’t been able to tell it all.
So I would like to find out what you think. Do you think it would be helpful to write a book about my struggle with ■■■■ over the years, a detailed version of how I found freedom, withdrawals and facing urges even months after my freedom?
U can definitely write a book if u have enough content to fill multiple pages like 50 or something. Try to represent ur thoughts in a creative and engaging way so that people find it interesting. Good luck
What do you mean safe spot for women you mean we bully you or something. I mean after so many days spend here I have never once seen anyone say anything bad about women here. So don’t put disgusting names here change the title please.
@Awaken_one i am not attacking anyone. I have the right to express my opinion.The way @ejuile has given the title has made men look like the aggressors by feminizing the title. And I want to tell you that I have the right to point out that fact.
@robinbe_friend I think girls who are new on this app may get little shy or awkward to share their problems to men. They could leave the platform as well assuming there are only men here, which is somewhere true. Female population is negligible as compared to male here. In that case , this title will assure them that there are female as well and they are not alone. Hope u understand now
@Awaken_one ur points are totally valid but he can ask doubts. We can’t stop him. So it’s better to clear the doubts rather than scolding. Be Lil humble
It seems you have misinterpreted the meaning of what this space is.
I created this topic so that girls/women within this community could have a space where we could talk about our struggles, see and share relatable experiences ( like the time I thought I was the only woman who was addicted to ■■■■).
And what I meant by a safe spot is a judgement free zone, where women can feel free to share their thoughts and experiences and feel attacked or made of.
I do hope you see the topic in a different light but if you don’t, it’s totally fine, thank you.