Day 6 
Sooooo today was a good day, I ummm had no urges today buttttt I had fantasies which made me mad but I hot control over them so I’m good today. Uesterday I wanted to cum soooooooooooo bad but I didn’t thank God!
But Idk why , I am unable to stand the whiners here… I mean , sure , if they want to vent , they can but if they start to act like a scared little bitch, that is so fucking emasculating for them… I mean that’s fine that you relapsed and it’s fine that you’re feeling down, everyone does but if you’re gonna act like a little girl , more importantly, a cissy girl, then you know you have a problem and you need to be serious about it…I just don’t see some people doing what they claim to do … They just seem fake, like they told themselves they are serious but as soon as one urge comes, they come…IYKWIM. it seems to me these guys just don’t have the balls to see this journey through… I mean they should get off their asses and strive to be the best version of themselves , and not just keep posting quote after quote after quote about some person who once said something having no relation to nofap. 
Anyways, these are just my thoughts, just don’t take them personally and it seems offensive , I know! But sometimes people need tough love and I needed to do a little venting. Ok, alright , I think I better go now, enough anger I have left here 
Day 7 
Sooo today was a little bit of a tough day… I had so many urges , I woke up at 6:00am rather than my usually time which is 7 am… I hated that but I had a plan, I watched a movie for the amount of time left before my wake up time and then I got out of bed and went for my studies.
During my course for studies I had even more urges 
, I couldn’t control them so I had to watch a tv series in order to distract myself and it worked! I didn’t fap at all 
. I am on my way to a 186 days streak and 179 days are left now 
wish me luck dear journey!
I guess that is it for today… I will be back tomorrow with more 
Day 0 
Welll today was a sad day, tbh , it was a sad sad day
But honestly? I forgave myself for relapsing today. I now know that going 186 days as a whole was a foolish choice as the goal was too big for me. So I’ve resolved to go for 52 days instead, divide the 179 (formaly 186 ) days goal into parts. 52 days is the begining of the first part. I umm I don’t know how I’ll do it, I mean I have exams and I can’t find time to work on my triggers and dram up an effective plan . The last trigger / different behaviours in place of PMO plan failed because the list became too long for me to read everyday… I had exams and I couldn’t afford to waste time … I may not be successful in these 52 days , I know that , I have to be realistic. But once I finish my exams I have to make sure to discuss a plan in which I can make a list of triggers and how I combat them and actually be able to read that list everyday and not get tired of reading it.
I guess that is all for me today. I must go now for studies, I’ll be back tomorrow!
Day 1 
Well today I don’t have much time to type , nor will I have tomorrow , because of exams so I will only say this… I had no urges today and no fantasies either. I might not have it all but I have started of strong once again I and I hope I make even better !
Bye bye now
Day 2
Well today is a hella stressed! I hate today and the fact that I have to give viva and have to study again even when I don’t want to, it makes me soooooooooo mad ! I hate it ! I just feel something in my body, I feel tired 
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I got no urges today but I did get some fantasies , and U handled them with ease
I guess I have nothing new to say, bye bye now see you tomorrow 
Day 3 
So today is the third day. I don’t have much to repirt, just that I did not feel any urges today nor any fantasies… I just hope it goes smoothly for the next 3 days!
Bye bye now , see you tomorrow!
Day 4 
Soo today was good, I had an allergic reaction buttt I am feeling alot better now . I had no urges today, nor any fantasies, and I hope that remains true in the future
I felt quite different yesterday , like I want to be with friends , sadly though , I don’t have any friends at tge moment , and I don’t know what I will do but I will try to make new ones as I go through life 
. Sometimes I wonder about my love life , about how I might be fated to live alone but now I push those thoughts aside and try to focus on what’s important in my life and right now those are my exams . I’ve also known that the higher I went on my streak, the more I loved myself and the more I could see myself with a future different than what I tell myself and I would like to get there again … Anyways I think this is what I can say right now , I’ll be back if I have anythibg more to say, farewell for now !
Day 5
Well I am busy today sooo i’m going to be short here. I did not feel any urges , nor any fantasies. I am slightly ill though, I hope I be well in the future , Ameen
That is it for today, see you guys tomorrow!
Day 6
Well today can be said to be a good day. I’m really happy today , because I had a good practical exam and I’m pretty sure I aced it. I have had no urhes today , nor any fantasies. There is however the feeling of pride. I’ve not yet started to float into the sorroundings , didn’t get that feeling these days but I know if I ever go on a long streak I’ll eventually reach it .
I guess that’s it for today, it seems I have nothing more to share … I will be back tomorrow!
Day 7 
Sooooo today was a good day, might I say, an ecxellent day… I met my friend in my medical college , who wanted to become a doctor , like me and now he has joined our ranks:partying_face:. I’m so happy for that guy , may he get the best time , and get the best blessings , Ameen. I have had no urges , that I need to report and I might say that urges were never going to come , mostly because I had to give an exam viva today and it went great , Thank God. Further more… I had no fantasies but I do get the urge here and there to talk to girls , but I don’t act on it , mainly because as a muslim I’m forbidden to talk to them without any proper reason (no vain talk). I guess that’s it for today… I umm have nothing further to say today. I believe I’ll be back tomorrow for more bye bye!!
Day 8 
Sooo today is a bad day. I’ve never felt more weird in my life as I have today and Idk why though… I just don’t know what went wrong today. It just felt so lonely you know?
In regards to my urges , no , I didn’t feel any urges today nor did I feel any fantasies associated with the urges or any fantasies at all . The bottom line is that I felt terrible today and Idk how to get out of it… maybe I’ll be better tomorrow , let’s hope so!
Day 9 
Welll today was an okay day, considerong i had no heartbreak and no urges whatsoever today. I had no fantasies and I didn’t care about what I was doing , which was mostly studying. I find that the urge to talk to girls is gone now. I believe that it will come back but for the moment it is gone. 
I find that I have no need whatsoever these days for porn and when I do, I tell myself that I don’t need it and that it is not a thing that I can act out on … I believe that I will get better from this addiction, but that belief changes daily and I have no way of controlling those aspect of my thoughts 
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I also want to take the time to state that I cannot believ I have made it to 9 days , it feels so unreal and I cannit stop myself from pleasure seeking activities such as eating delicious food. The urge to do that is so strong !.
Anyways , I guess I had that to say today and I hope I can continue to type here , I hope for the best! Goodbye and see you tomorrow
Day 10
Welll today , this is going to be a short version … I had no urges today , nor did I experience any fantasies. I am on a site , where we can listen to other people. And one of the members there was really happy with my support and the way that they thanked me , makes me so happy! . I also experienced something spiritual like a spiritual event lol but Idk.
Anyways, that is what I came here to say and my time is up! I’ll be back tomorrow , so everyone take care!
Day 11
Sooo today was a good day. I had vivas that meant I had to study , so most of the day was spent studying. I had no time for urges or fantasies. Truth be told , I had no urges untill right this moment, I just had a fantasy about a girl that I know , she’s in my class and I am disgusted . Anyways , it’s outta my mind now . The viva waa good, the teacher asked me 4 questions and I answered them all , although I was not prepared well enough for the last question , buttttt I was able to do well . Yayyyyyyyy! 
. I’ve had no morning wood , these days and right now I’m thinking why?? Butt it’s I think the flatlining that I experience everytime I go for nofap this long lol .
Andddd I guess that is it for today, if I have anything else , I will come back tomorrow! Bye ! 
Day 12
Sooooo today was a good day. I felt good today, mainly because I enjoyed today and also because I felt that today was productive , atleast to a certain extent, an extent I am willing to live by…
In another news I have had no urges today nor any fantasies but I will admit that I thought about relapsing today just because I was free and I knew I could have a relapse and recover from it just in time to get by for my exam butttt I did not relapse and do you know why? Cause I thought to myself that I am living a life and this life is going to have it’s ups and downs , now I can’t watch porn everytime I’m down or when I’m up , it’s just such a stupid decision. I can’t waste my life like that , it’s too precious , these moments are too precious to waste them on PMO. I find that I think there cannot be a more foolish thing than to watching those videos .
I wish everyone realizes that , and works on themselves to keep themselves from this foolish practice… I think that is all I came in here to say today , I hope you guys have a great day , I’ll be back , bye bye!
Day 13 
Soooooo today has been a good day , I watched so many seasons today I lost count lol 
. I mist say I enjoyed watching them and I lost track of time 
. My mom however is not feeling well and this worries me , maybe the stress of our exams finally got to her, and I hope she gets better by tomorrow 
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In the other story , I umm had no urges today and I had no fantasy thiugh one wierd thing did happen. As I sat down on the toilet today to pee , I noticed some white drops at the end of urination , they were so thick OMG , I thought I had a bacterial infection but I found out I was leaking semen… lol that made me happy . I really don’t have anything else that I can add right now , I wish I could but I can’t because there is nothing new to add… anyways , I have to say that I know this is going to get tougher on the road ahead but I’m ecxited! Bye bye!! 
Day 14 
Sooooo today was a good day , I think… My mom’s feeling better and I am feeling alot better than I was yesterday. I had major urges in the morning , it was so difficult to resist 
… butttt I stopped myself from doing it and I triumphed over the urges , watched an episode of Riverdale and it really really helped! I had no fantasies today though, it was a good day I guess.
I’m feeling ashamed today , about the impulses I had yesterday about messaging girls two days ago on a site that should only be used to listen to others and help them by hearing what they have to say. Thank God none if them replied , I sounded like a creep. I’ve since deleted the messages and I’m focusing on my exam, that is in the morning , wish me luck!
I guess I better go study , and also that I donot have anything more to add today , so adios! Hombrés
Day 16 
Well today was a good day , I had no fantasies and no urges , butttt it will be short today , I’ll try to update every day from today but at night. Bye bye! See you tomorrow!!
Day 17
Sooo today was intense… I had so many classes , damn!!! I had no urges though, I didn’t have any fantasies either. I find that , the girls in my college are becoming increadingly attractive , even some of those who I thought would never attract me …
I have no other thing that I wanna talk about now , I guess this is it , I’ll be back tomorrow! Have a great day!
Day 18
Soo today was soooo relaxing lol … I had a great day today … . As regards to the urges I think I had none, also I had no fantasies. I found out that I was attracted to so many girls , it was mind blowing! I thought I wasn’t going to like anyone but it looks like I will , even if I can’t go and talk to them 
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I do feel like I don’t need PMO today , although on most days if a day like today came when I don’t have college for two days I would fap like crazy but thank God I’m okay today . Let’s see what happens in two days time … okay , I better go , see you tomorrow !