Because I really want a wonderful life,
Because I want to quit depression,
Because I need good energy to build my future,
Because I must recover my self-esteem,
Because Life is too short,
Because I’m and I know that I can…
I’m not a english native speaker. Through this diary, I’ll do my best to write in an english that you could understand… Without too much effort.
I’m an european guy. Which country? Who cares!
I’m 30 years old. I just finished my long academic studies… So I’m currently a job seeker.
I discovered mastrubation and porn at 12. Can you imagine how long I have been practicing this stupid activity? 1 to 3 times each 2-3 days.
I’m arrived at a point where I don’t feel anymore my sexual energy. My erections are so soft… I mastrubated only to get a quick cumshot. It was just about frantic movements and hot movies to speed up the process. There was no real pleasure anymore for a long time!
This is a nonsense! Today, I want get my life, my energy and my will back! I know that I can create great things in my life for all the people I love and for me. It’s my responsibility to be mature enough to manage my sexual energy.
My aim is to feel again my vitality! I want feel how powerful is my sexual energy, my will energy and the holy fire inside me. I want be on fire again! I want express my enthusiasm and a new joy of life!
In this diary, I’ll share with you my tracking and progress. Step by step, I’m going to conquer myself!
Show your best , we are all here warriors even in our weakness times … we believe that no end for the pain and we are stronger than the pain
I hope from my deep heart thatbyou will be brilliant your days like you see this image in you bound .
By using this forum ,
In the past , I feel very bored in the begging , I had trouble expressing on this forum, and I was not voting that I could express something, but to practice everything facilitates , so don’t worry .
Stay_positive
Control your dopamine .
It’s was really easy not to think about PMO. I started to feel a new energy… With some frustration and feelings of depression in the same time. I’m aware that my thoughts and my daily attitudes contribute to my depression. I have to change the way I see the world, people and myself. To move to a new state, I’ll put in my life more discipline and will adopt a stronger attitude in the face of life’s challenges.
FOR A NEW LIFE - NEW HABITS
SLEEP ISSUE: I’ve a huge problem for months. I wake up at 13:00pm. It’s a shame. I don’t sleep the night and my sleep cycle is out of phase. I have to correct it to implement new habits with success.
NEW HABIT CHALLENGE WAKE UP AT 7:00am during 30 days.
If I wake up earlier, I could go to a strong and effective morning routine.
Waking up at 7:00am
Drinking a glass of water
Brushing my teeth and cleaning my face
10 minutes of meditation
5 minutes of affirmations
15 minutes of visualisation
1 hour of self-improvement work
quick writing in english (again!): a dream of the last night, my morning thoughts, gratitude, feelings,… Every morning, I will write these things here!
Taking a cold shower (It’s very good to reinforce will power)
I woke up at 7:21… I do my best to wake up à 7:00, but I was struck for 20 minutes in a cycle of false awakenings.
It’s been a long time since I dreamed of waking up to finally realize that it is still a dream. And repeat this over and over again.
I’m happy because it’s already a huge victory! It’s 5 hours earlier than yesterday. It’s very pleasant to feel that I’ve already been productive today when it’s only 10 o’clock.
Now, I’m going to a cold shower and a quick breakfast.
Have a good day brothers! And remember how powerfull we are all!
It was a nice day! I woke up earlier and I’m proud to take my life in control like this.
I don’t know why… But today I was particularly sensitive at the level of my intimate area. I’m starting to understand that I’m going to have to show determination to move forward in my NOFAP challenge. The fight against my body may intensify in the next days.
I’m confident! I know that my wonderful life is in the direction of self-discipline and self-esteem. I can no longer tolerate a loser attitude.
I feel very tired as I write these lines, but I know that’s the kind of fatigue you want to have. One that is accompanied by a sense of pride. I’ll soon go to bed for tomorrow get up at 7 o’clock, and have an even more productive day than the previous one.
This is the second day of my miracle morning… I get up at 7 o’clock. This is a new win, even if I feel very tired. I stay strong and I keep in my mind that my best life is about discipline and self-esteem.
Today, I’m alone… All the day! I know the temptation of FAP could be intense. But I won’t give in. I keep my intentions high and keep in my mind the vision of my true potential.
** This is our life and it’s ending one minute at a time !**
I can feel my body reacting to this new discipline focused on energy and meaning production. I’m determined not to succumb to the easy pleasure. I have a strong vision for my future self. I must keep it up!
Thanks to @Karan050, I discovered the DETUMESCENCE THERAPY for hair regrowth. It’s very long, very demanding, but I think it could work! I’m embarking on a 180-day challenge to give the method time to prove itself!
At the same time, I make the decision to stop sodas and fast foods for 90 days.
As you can see, it’s a time for change! I embrace this time with enthusiasm and faith.
Today I saw a lot of women in swimsuits! Soooo much! The very good point is that even if I could feel my sexual energy get excited… I was 100% in control
One more day through this No FAP Journey!
PS: I cancel my No Soda - No Fastfood challenge… It requires preparation. Moreover, I prefer to be focus on no fapping and waking up earlier. They are already 2 big challenges for me.