Day 39: 15th November 2020
Rank: Army Commander 
@debellator Thanks brother, appreciate the support!
Prayers
Water Fasting + Supplements
Watched NoPMO Motivational Video
Reviewed Psychoanalysis
Daily Walking
Listened to Scripture
Mindful Breathing
Conversation with Loved Ones
Gratitude
Visualisation
PMO Recovery Work
Recorded Video
Reviewed Short-Term Goals
Recorded New Video for YouTube
Rewire Companion Entry
Always thank GOD for everything.
Day 40: 16th November 2020
Rank: Army Commander
The discipline is lapsing a bit. I could feel more urges and temptations today. Time to pick up the pace!
Prayer
Water Fasting + Supplements
Watched NoPMO Motivational Video
Weekly Weigh-In
Conversation with Loved Ones
Recorded Video
Reviewed Short-Term Goals
Recorded New Video for YouTube
Rewire Companion Entry
Always thank GOD for everything.
Iām in the same boat as you brother. Recently Iāve found my motivation and discipline to be lacking. What I found that helped me was to keep my vision of my best self. Focusing on what I want to become. I found this gave me motivation to drive with & helped me focus on my goals. Hope this helps you as it helped me. God bless.
We are connected bro! Day 40 too and you know how bad Iām experiencing this lack of discipline.
The more important is to keep doing. Never giving up! Weāre warriors 
We can fall one day, but we never lose on the long term.
Hai brothersā¦ I am on day 28. Letās do this.
I lack discipline to do the real work. Itās time to put that energy into action.
I need to study ā¦I need to workoutā¦ I need to come away from depressive disorder.
From tomorrow everyday I share my work here. I promise that. Help me and Hold me on.
I will be active here now onwards brothers.
As Joshua brother said I will take full responsibility for my actions and choices from now on and work dedicatedly towards my goals and positive desires.
Letās go
My Work Todayā¦Day 29 of nopmo
Studied for 5 hours(Asia and Europe,magnetism,chemistry in every day life)
Type class 2hours 15mins
Breathing exercises 30mins(breath of fire and 3part breathing) and kayakapla yoga for 3mins in morning
Yoga for 35mins
Hand balancing for 1hour 40mins
Watched nopmo videos of forerunner for 1 hour (Thanks soo much brother)ā¦25urge control tips are very helpful
Remaining time i spend in food and family and simply dragging around home and some songs and whatsup,comedy,youtube random surf,one hour sleep in afternoon
Hey bro!
First of all i would like to thank you for these great videos that are very helpful.
Second, i would like to ask you if you have any idea about the easypeasy book. I have heard a lot about it, so if you have read or know about it, do you advise me to read?
Good stuff man! Loving the new videos!
My work todayā¦Day 30 nopmo
Breathing exercises for 20mins(breath of fire)
yoga for 18mins(backbending),kayakalpa yoga for 3mins
cardio for 20mins(203 calories burned)
handbalancing for 1hour 45mins
Studied only for 1 hour
Type class 1hour 50mins
Went to friends sister marriage with a friend. 120km away from home.
watched Joshua bros video
Mistakes:
Had a lazy half sleep in morning 1 hourā¦Absolutely waste of time
While travelling one of my friend showed adult film sneekpeek ā¦by compulsion I sawed.I afraid to say āNOā
Wasting lot of time due to lazinessā¦simply walking, talking and lying in sopa and wasting tons of time.
Not drinking enough water and not taking proper diet
while seeing beautiful girls and aunty in marriage some sexual thoughts raised itself and so the fact is my mind seeing women as just objects to seek pleasure
I think he read it already. He recommended it in one of his videos recently
@Busyman I suggest you make your own diary, and write your progress there. So more people can follow your journey, and motivate you to push yourself harder.
Okay bro. I will do that.
Brother? What happened?
@Forerunner
I hope u are fine , u are not writing your progress nowadays .what happened?
I hope u didnāt relapsešØ
I think he did itā¦
Yes I am wondering where he wentā¦
Might be too busy in his daily workā¦
I knew he wonāt relpaseā¦
He will come soon
It took me a long time to work out why it had been so easy and why I hadnāt suffered those terrifying withdrawal pangs. The reason is that they donāt exist, itās the doubt and uncertainty that creates pangs. The beautiful truth is that itās easy to stop ā ā ā ā . Itās only indecision and moping that makes it difficult. Even while addicted, users can go for relatively long periods at certain times without it. Itās only when you want it, but canāt have it, that you suffer.
Therefore, the key to making it easy is to make stopping certain and final. Not hoping, but knowing youāve kicked it, having made the decision. Never doubt or question it, in fact, just the reverse ā always rejoicing! If you can be certain from the start, itāll be easy. But how can you be certain from the start? Thatās why the rest of the book is necessary.
Thanks for your support brothers. Iām really glad to see the videos helped some of you. Unfortunately I didnāt have it in me to continue recording more.
No, brother @AbishekChopin2 was wrong sadly. I donāt believe anyone is that busy. The activity diary was a part of my routine, even when I was out with friends, I would make a quick update. No, I relapsed and hid away in shame and frustration.
@anon13059885 Thanks brother. I will read this again and absorb its lesson. This journey really doesnāt have to be a battle. There has been so much fear attached over the years, and itās easy to fall back into that fearful pattern again and again. The belief that we will fail as we have in the past is enough to generate the urges that lead us to create the future weāve envisioned. But the same mind that is full of fear can also be filled with love and joy and embrace the freedom we experience every day, to truly believe that we are done and that pornography and masturbation no longer hold any power over us.
@auroraborealisss Yes bro, Iāve read the EasyPeasy book and I urge you to do the same.
When you absorb the teachings without fear, you will truly notice a transformation in your life. For myself, what has held me back is a huge wall of fear I created for myself.
This whole identity that I have tried to quit for many years and nothing has worked permanently, itās a victim mindset that allows me to shed responsibility for taking charge of my life, and gives me permission to relapse again and experience that false pleasure. Itās time for a new identity that serves me instead of imprisoning me.
Truly, there is no reason to relapse after reading that book besides the reasons we give ourselves. It has the tools we need to succeed.
@Busyman Welcome back Deva, long time no see brother! Keep going on your journey to freedom - youāre already there!
Welcome back @Special_Bird! Your diary entry really touched me, those thoughts are very familiar to how Iāve felt about myself so many times. Those thoughts are absolute lies bro. Youāre a highly intelligent, creative, compassionate and lovable human being. Donāt allow that negativity to fester, embrace your good qualities and allow everything else to fall away.
Thank GOD for the journey!
