Come on buddy , NEW DAY NEW OPPORTUNITIES, We canāt keep crying over the past , but we can change our future by working . Ur a that same guy who had 150 + days streak ā¦ We all can
Dont sweat it man. All part of the journey like you said. Keep going.
The book is absolutely a game changer. Come back to it, delve deep once again and focus once more on creating an amazing life!
The process of building the life you want is always in progress
Good to see you back man! I always could use your motivation and words, playa!
Maybe you just need to facetime or vent to someone to help, is all, man. Like literally a facetime phone call once a week! Moght be the missing link.
Thank you bro! I appreciate the warm welcome back. Youāre right, those thoughts are absolute lies, and Iām glad Iāve finally realized that. In the past, I let them fester and grow. I even thought they were good for motivation, a reminder to do well and prove myself.
But I realized that only made me sick, constantly looking for external validation, focusing on my self, and being angry when my friends were successful. It rots away at the soul.
Itās funny, because most people assume that caring less about yourself would lead you to naturally be less selfish. But Iāve found it actually only creates the deepest kind of selfishness, a sort of obsession with public image. Learning to love oneself is the key to selfless action.
Thatās been the cause of my depression and my anxiety I see now. I hated myself, and I never fixed it. My high streak of 175 days was only external validation, but when I failed, I lost everything. I plunged back into a darkness I couldnāt escape from, because in reality, I had never truly let it go.
Anyway, thank you for the kind words brother, I felt bad that I hadnāt been very consistent for a long while after that big relapse. But Iāve been very happy to see everyoneās support, itās been really encouraging for me.
Runner or not? Continue brother! Your mind is far away stronger than you think.
Its never about the amount of days in our life that matters mostā¦ its the amount of life we had in those days. The largest daycount for all of us will beā¦ the amount of days after we die.
I failed as well. Itās all good. Just getting back on it.
Weāre all human who canāt measure to Olympian standards.
Hai brother Jouswa
How are you ?
Spelling mistakeā¦ apologize me
@Busyman Iām doing well Deva, thanks for asking bro.
I appreciate all the comments and support shared here.
hey joshua, hows it going? hope all is well, havenāt heard from you in awhile man.
I think he is doing great , he is having a 24 days streak , I have added him as my companion thatās why I know his streak.
Been a while been a while been a whileā¦
Itās great to be free. Thank GOD!
To not have this sense of fear and regret and shame hovering over my head all day. Not feeling that Iām being deprived or missing out by not engaging in PMO. Being able to move forward with confidence.
This is a sense of freedom I didnāt even have when I passed 8 months PMO-free. As sad as I was when I relapsed from that streak, Iām very glad and thankful that it happened. It gave me the chance to grow and dive further into recovery and understanding myself more, and truly break free from that old, dark prison cell we call the PMO relapse cycle.
There are many other things I want to do and achieve in order to get myself on a solid foundation, and Iām very grateful to have the confidence and the sobriety in place to do so. To get my spirituality, relationships, health, career, finances and hobbies to a happy level.
Hereās a poem I wrote back in 2017 about how I imagined life would be like when I was free of addiction. (Itās even better than I thought!) I donāt know what day I was on then, maybe day 10-20. 2 months was an unbelievable milestone back then, and I didnāt even dare to dream about reaching 90 days.
Finally Free, 2017
I made it. Iām finally free.
Iām happier than I ever thought I could be.
Iāve done more than I ever believed.
Now I see how I was always meant to be.
Iām not afraid anymore.
I can speak my mind.
Iām no longer unsure of what life has in store.
Iām excited to discover what Iāll find around the corner.
Iāve never had this feeling before.
This constant freedom to let go.
To live a real life that isnāt a show.
This knowledge of who I am and what I want.
The courage to fail so that I can grow.
No longer having to hesitate before I speak;
no longer worrying about appearing weak.
And though thereās darkness and the futureās bleak,
I charge forward without a doubt or care.
The dayās full of life, thereās no moment to spare.
Thereās so much joy and laughter and love to share.
Every new morningās an opportunity to start again.
The chance to bond with a friend, or to make amends.
The choice to correct rather than complain
Forgive it all and let go of the pain.
I made it. I'm finally free.
I only wish the world would join me.
Never lose hope! Itās possible! Thousands are breaking free every day!
P.S. If you havenāt read easypeasymethod.org yet, what are you waiting for? Thereās a reason why people keep recommending it!
Always thank GOD for everything.
Keep on going. We are with you and yeah I saw your 250 days streak go in vain in the yt video.
Just keep that confidence you will win.
Pray you guys are all doing well out there.
I heard this brilliant quote today, thought I would share it with you guys:
I believe Iām going to suffer if I donāt PMO.
But the truth is, I feel so much stronger when I donāt PMO. I have so much more energy when I donāt PMO. I feel great when I donāt PMO.
Most of the time, I donāt even think that āOh, I have to PMO right now.ā Which means that I donāt always suffer from not PMOing.
The belief that Iām going to suffer if I donāt PMO is the MAIN REASON WHY I suffer when not PMOing.
The belief that Iām going to suffer is what makes me suffer. Thatās crazy. Itās literally just my mind.
Because I believe that in order to have pleasure and get a great release, I have to PMO, thatās why I feel the need to PMO. When I recognise that the belief isnāt even TRUE, itās no longer a problem!
Incredible!
Always thank GOD for everything.
Long time since you visited forum. Where are you?
I am watching your YouTube channel.
The keys are on the inside too!
The best time to change our lives is now - today is the day!
Day 1: 21st May 2021
Rank: Prisoner
Prayers
24 Hour Fasting
Listened to Qurāan Recitation
Watched Informative and Religious Videos
Started Reading NoPMO Book āThe Easy Peasy Way to Understand the Easy Peasy Methodā and Taking Notes
Daily Walking (16.6km)
Mindful Breathing
Kegel Exercises
Household Errands
Applying for Jobs
Conversation with Loved Ones
Gratitude
Recorded Video
Always thank GOD for everything.