It’s been 8 years of me addicted to ■■■■.
Ever since I feel like I lost my true self.
Enough of this pmo taking control over my life.
If I hadn’t discovered ■■■■ back then, my life would’ve gone in a different direction.
But what’s gone is gone, no time for regret…
The time that I can only change is NOW which will change the future…
So if I leave pmo today, I will be one day closer to enlightment and purify my soul…
It’s now or never…
This is my first diary. I’ll be posting the benefits I got, the strategies I’m applying, how I’m travelling in this journey of never PMOing again.
@Sherlock221B78, best of luck buddy.
I saw your progress these last few days, you got passed 2 weeks before and thats awsome!!
Glad that you started a diary, continue without holding back!! I wish you a life pure from PMO.
These urges are so funny. Dancing around in my mind to divert my attention so that I fall into the same shi*ty trap again. But I’m not giving a damn to any of them and are fading away by itself after sometime.
It’s Day-16, I gave into these urges last time but not this time. I’m in control of myself.
The Key🔑 is Self-Consciousness. Don't need to act to the negative thoughts. They'll die of hunger on their own.
I’ve been inactive to this diary lately. It’s October 6th and I relapsed after 24 days of good streak. The only reason I relapsed is that I let my thoughts get control over me. After urges rise, I start feeding them, thinking of it to be just for some moment (by just browsing pictures and clips on youtube or google which will eventually lead me to the hub)…that’s the real mistake which I’ve been committing for multiple past relapses this year. I’m really done with living like this…whenever I feel like I’m starting to get some benefits, I relapse and I’m soon back at the starting square.
I’ll now be trying to be free from porn for at least 150 days upto 5th March, 2023. This time, I’m inspired from the legend Salil Jamdar on YouTube.
Today is day-0, everyone having high streaks have gotten past this day. So will I…
150 days #NoPornChallenge#Pornkimaaka
Day #3 (of 150)
I got wet dreams. This is the first time I’ve got them so early. It’s just the third day. Mind was just starting to clear up:relieved: and blaaabbmm:sweat_drops:, it hit me. Feels kinda like a 50% relapse.
I wonder if there was a way to stop wet dreams forever. It might hamper my progress as it also releases some amount of energy:dizzy_face:, just like a relapse would. Other than that progress is going perfectly fine.
Today there were some huge urges. I got them through facebook reels and stories watching stupid thumbnails and booty shaking stupid women. No social media site is safe. Hopefully I was able to resist and click away from that nonsense.
Relapsed Day 36
I peeked little bit since 35 days but stopped after getting exposed from stupid facebook reels and videos. I again found myself peeking something from discord channels at day 36 so I decided to reset my counter. I need to be more conscious and awared of these urges. This has been a great streak for me after failing the NNN. I can tell that I can go farther than this. Nofap is the way to live life. Failures do happen but do not stop there. Don’t aim for streaks, aim for every single day progress.
Brain is starting to clear up. My thoughts are becoming positive.
But today my exam results came and I failed. The reason was that I fapped during the preparation time. This makes me hate PMO even more so I’m throwing it out of my life. These bad situations can occur anytime and may cause relapse so, I won’t stress about the result. I’m also not fixing my sleep schedule properly. I’m playing games to get dopamine. So I have to work on it and prepare for my upcoming exam.