Day 5/30 
Wet dreams yesterday. Brain is clearing up, very few negative thoughts. Body is also starting to feel healthy. Deleted all games to stop craving for dopamine. Started meditating and working in the morning.
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Day 6💪
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Day 11⚡
Starting to feel confident in myself. I’m getting high urges sometimes but whatever happens, I’m not gonna touch that thang and browse nonsense. I believe in myself. 
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Back to day 0 again 
. I thought I was going strong but I had a gathering at 13th day where there were too many females I interacted due to which my urges increased and I couldn’t stop myself from jerking off at night. After that, I got depressed and browsed the x sites to fap more and it continued for 2 days. I’ve just stopped and feeling mindless and pathetic as I’m writing this. This is so embarrasing. I feel like I’ve betrayed myself and my friends here. Sometimes I feel like I’m not normal. My brain feels like it’s been controlled by something unknown. I haven’t got past even 18 days after failing NNN. Something always goes wrong and there is always an excuse to blame. Maybe my mind isn’t really serious at all to quit porn. I’m at the diet side rather than quitting. I go back to it every N days. This addiction has really changed me negatively. I’ve become a depressed, anxious, stupid, weak-ass, lazy, hopeless, and brain-dead loser.
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Get up @Sherlock221B78 look around you.
This world is not a game, it’s a test. There are hard moments as well as easy ones.
There is no need to complain about pain for it fills you with negative energy. Get up and rise, what determines a man’s valor is how much he gets up after falling way down. Tell the world that I will start again! Give me your best shot and you will see that it is impossible to break an unbreakable spirit.
A spirit that never gives up!
I always knew you as a consistent warrior with determination to succeed and I am sure that you will come back again. Declutter your room and take a shower. You will feel a lot better. All the best my brother.
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Week 1 
Week 2 
It’s been a week without any PMO. Brain can focus clearly but body feels sleepy and tired sometimes. I should fix my sleep schedule and start yoga every morning from tomorrow.
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Why do we relapse?? Why does rubbing a piece of our stinky meat feel pleasurable?? Why we fail despite so many attempts to quit this shitty trap??
Relapses are happening at unexpected times. We are dominated by fake fantasies to divert from the reality and stay addicted to fap until we die. How evil porn is, oh god!! It tricks our brain to tell ourselves it is good, pleasurable, free and easy to get. However far our journey is, be it day 1 or day 100, it still takes one slip to fall down the pit. There weren’t even that strong urges still I fell into relapse. And I’m noticing almost all the relapses are happening at night, laying in bed, while browsing phone, trying to sleep. I jacked three times about 15 minutes ago. People say the relapses are stepping stones towards success but the stones are all at the same distance. More than 5 last relapses have been occuring at 7-14 day mark.
After relapse, there is only one choice: not to stay still but to move forward and start right where we are. It’s day 0 again. Only hope to succeed is there and nothing else.
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Day 1/100
Head is feeling bit heavy. Mind is trying to wander but I’m distracting it by studying for my exam and playing chess. Deleted all the social media apps from my phone except messenger to chat with some friends. I’m using YouTube only for learning purposes. I’m trying to avoid harmful activities which give easy dopamine like games, anime, and binge watching videos.
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Almost 3 days and relapsed again…
I’m fighting myself to break free. My brain’s so childish, not realising how bad this addiction is for me and for everyone, I keep going back to watching whatever nonsense my mind keeps recalling. I destroyed my exam before in this exact similar manner and I have one more chance in a month. I’m not gonna screw this time, I hope god gives me enough wisdom to keep away from this habit. Never f*king giving up!! No matter how many times I fail I’ll fight back harder. I’m not an addict anymore. I’ll gonna have to go beast mode this time. 
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Day 5 
(140+ hours)
My progress is going good but while studying long hours, I face huge urges which distracts me from study so I choose to listen to music, podcast or watch some cool science videos. I’m not making the mistake of giving into these silly urges again.
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Day 8 
(210+ hours)
Last night I had a dream of me relapsing, it felt so real and got depressed in the sleep. When I woke up and found that it was just a dream, I was so happy. I’m facing some high urges at night but I just go to sleep early with my devices away from me. Don’t see yourself as a failure because of your past relapses and mistakes. Just love yourself and keep moving forward.
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Day 11 
(280+ hours)
Urges are less frequent and getting easier to resist. I notice more urges when I mess my sleep schedule. Once I have good sleep, I have time for everything planned for the next day and I stay busy and focused. However, flatline may be coming soon but I’m not afraid of it, bring it ON!! I feel the increase in my energy and motivation.
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Day 14 
(350+ hours)
How to reduce urges? Stop looking at women. The screen doesn’t deserve your life energy. Cut off toxic friends/people who think pmo is normal and who always talk about such stuff. Do not follow lustful social media accounts and have the power to click right away and unfollow such places whenever you see one by any chance. When you think that your mind is uncontrollably wandering deep into the lustful quicksand (before it completely draws you in), just relax, sit down and listen to a guided meditation and start meditating or listen to a podcast (by JK Emezi, Sara Brewer or Dr. Trish Lee) and make notes of the points. Always utilize your time for productive things, urges can only creep into your mind if you don’t do anything that’s making your life better (e.g. mindlessly scrolling through social media, binge watching anime or series, binge listening to dumb songs with explicit lyrics). Remember, the urge can always be conquered.
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Day 17 
(420+ hours)
This is my highest streak since I failed NNN. Brain feels clearer and clearer as each day passes. Don’t aim for a big streak, focus only on TODAY!!
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Relapsed at Day-20
In the morning, I had an argument with mom and got angry suddenly. I went to my table to study but I couldn’t focus, so I had a nap. After waking up, I had too strong urges. I opened my social media app and I didn’t even realize that I was browsing girls images in tight clothing. Then, I kept peeking at them for an hour. I stopped right away in the fear of relapsing, and started studying. I used my laptop to read study-related pdfs. After some time, I again went on browsing similar pictures through google search which led me to the hub. I then relapsed twice…
Please forgive me lord 
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I didn’t have any nightfall till now, but was having quite strong urges after week-2. However, I was not able to resist it today. It felt like an unknown evil force making me do this. I cannot relapse more. I have an exam after 17 days. I’m calming down and accepting my defeat. May I have the power to destroy my urges for longer duration this time 
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Day 1: The New Beginning 
We get two choices after a relapse. The Question is: What would you focus on?
Pain
Keep suffering and Fall 
Lesson
Grow out of it and Rise 
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True so fucking true
- Every-time i get depressed and upset with my self and walk around like a zombie after relapse im right back into it in a few hours or days.
- Where as when i look back on why i relapsed and get straight back into self improvement and learning they are always my longer streaks.
I’m disappointed you relapsed but good to hear you say you realize how to take it under control and better yourself
All the best brother
LETS GOOO!!!
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