Today’s work…
studied 6 hrs
Type class 2 hrs
Breathing exercises 10mins
50 mins audio book
Realized that I hurting people for fun unknowingly and also realized I am getting closer soon and I also get hurted due to that…I need to know my limits and stay there for good
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Not worked out, laziness is not at all a proper reason I know. I correct it, where my discipline to workout have gone nowadays? … become poor in this area and weak, I feel that way
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Poor diet only past two days. Surely gotten vitamins,minerals(not sure), had more junk also, very less protein
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Concentration is lagging soo much, mind wandering here and there. But I know it comes back and develop with trying to focus again and again. So I don’t need to worry that much.
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Dude math teacher? seriously?
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She is my crush …
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One of the obvious impacts of PMO addiction.
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Masturabated twice in morning then very low through the day… just studied 25mins. I cannot concentrate at all today and had almost zero interest for anything
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You’ll be alright bro. Just a few bad days.
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I dont know is it worth spending 5400rs on yoga mat for Handbalancing,yin,ashtanga yoga. Anyway made a decision to buy koshayoga mat. Maybe atleast after that purchase I may start working out sincerely.
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I falling again and again bro…way to depressing. Anyway I hope I will get better as always but maybe I again fail. Losing many days it was frustrating, I dont know I am capable or not to study itself. How am I going to succeed in exams and life?
Start again bro. New year is coming. We have four days. We can start again together. Don’t let these relapses hold you back. I know you have been through worse times and came out strong, and I am sure you will do it this time too, bro.
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What the heck?! You’re not new to fighting this addiction. Take a lesson from your relapses. Use all urge avoiding tricks that you know. Tea, pushups, affirmation and go study! Even if it’s just for 30 minutes. It’s 30 minutes more than nothing. It’s 30 minutes of you not relapsing. Call your family and talk about nice things and then back to studying. You’ve got it brother!
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Thanks @PrDr and @Hubinho .
I feel very low now. I start again and be very serious to quit this time. I will win this.
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U can do it buddy , 4 days still left for 2021 . Quit this shit PMO . Stay strong 3rd day is the real testing day , when brain starts craving.
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Okay bro thanks for supporting me in my low times. I appreciate it
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28.12.2020
No work at all. Very low day of the year. Depressed vulnerable frustrated headache …
Not interested at any work.
Type class 2 hrs
Had a good diet
Slept well
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Yesterday(29.12.2020)
Type class 2 hours
Studied 4hrs 30mins
Exercise 30mins
Had a good diet
Slept well
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Todays work
Studied 3hrs 30mins
Type class 2 hrs
Exercise 30mins
Had a good diet
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Having many plans,goals,big big dreams none of them matter if you dont put it in real work. A Daily labour who work harder is soo much happy,content even if he has no plan,big big dreams. Work gives much more happiness than anything. Here I am fucked up. All are my laziness,procrastination,mobile addiction,masturbation,porn addiction only gave me depression, unhappiness, reduced my confidence drastically,very less energy,low value relationships,less manliness,less attraction less motivated towards work and life,lots of regrets etc etc.,
Where I am going in life ?
Where it all takes me?
Always I keep saying happiness is my goal… but am I?
Am I really on track? Working dedicated?
Having seriousness towards work?
Why I am thinking what others think of me?
Here I am eating my own food,my own money,my own dress,my own work …why the fuck I have to be nice to people for proofing i am really really good. Why the fuck everytime wherever I go thinking what that people think what this people think? What sir say about me?why begging people to validation,approval? If someone scout in public like mad with or without reason what I am worried about it what others think, even if I know it was not in my hands…they think there own garbage…
I wish I want to free of this others shit. Being really as me. Me everywhere I go, Me everywhere I laugh, stand, eat, sing, speak, dance,run,sleep,sit,study,exercise…Everywhere I am thinking about others, it drastically reducing my work and happiness. Going into the mode of overthinking shit
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