Day-1: I don’t have any goal set for now. coz, i don’t want to hurry just aheading slowly.
My 1st dairy after joining this community. Lets see how long i can resist myself from PMO.
Welcome to this community where we support each other to fight with the PMO addiction.
As you started first time you may not know how everyone should write diary title…
It must be like
22M Spongebox’s Diary
If you have anymore doubts just post it here…somebody will definitely help you (if I’ll not be available)
If you need my help kindly write my username
It will send me notification. Like that you can use @ followed by anyone’s username.
Hope you’ll have great day ahead
Ok. I’ll correct it. Thanks for helping.
Day-2: Morning. Going quite normally. Now i have to make my routine to be more organised. Though only nofap cannot bring me success but at the same time it is the integral part behind every success. Because it is a way of life of reaching the ultimum. I know nofap is not easy i have to struggle for it but my aim is not making it the enemy of my life that i’m fighting with every time because the more you fight the more you become weak. Just be calm & patient, gather energy not to fight but endure the phase when the urge tries to take control over your mind.
Day 3: Morning. Still going ahead. but yesterday night i had some unwanted urges while browsing. Though i hadn’t seen anything arousing. Thanks to this community which reminds me that i have pledged something meaningful to keep. And if don’t keep my words that means i not only let down myself but also the dignity of this platform and many new users’ trust from this platform. Now the real journey begins as three days passed. Being ready mentally for the very coming struggles but as i said earlier we don’t have to be afraid of our struggles but welcome it. Embrace your struggles and make it your strength. All i want to say is i’m not here alone we are all helping each other as your engagement motivate me and my journey may motivate you.
Day 4: Morning. Still in the business. The thing helping me the most is keeping my journey record. Till now this dairy is working as my ultimate motivation. Its like something official that can’t be taken for granted. So thanks them who made this extraordinary platform where words find purpose. And nothing is better than having a purposeful life.
Day 5: Morning. Fortunately 5 days have passed without having any serious urge. But still i can’t feel the inner satisfaction because i’m spending my time idle and sometimes seeing some pics which not inappropriate at all but enough to have some sort of unintentional negetive thoughts. Now the time has come to think about self-discipline and making a productive routine too. Because only following nofap without giving any attention to self-discipline will get you nothing. So, constantly i have to push my limits of tolerance and put myself through pain that my mind always avoids. But as i told earlier we should not fight with our mind. Only we with our mind together can achieve goals. So, i have to befriend with my mind and convince him how important it is to get out of the trap of all kinds of short-term pleasure and follow seemingly the hard path to achieve what we truly deserve.
Day 6: Morning. Did not have much problems throughout the day as i tried very hard to forget about things that get me excited. Though i had a flash of unwanted thoughts through my head and visualisation of these made situation even worse. So i came here and read many posts of many users, their journey, their experience which inspired me a lot and remind me my purpose of nofap. But on the bright side, for the 1st time i felt a bit of positive energy of doing great in life and i think benefits of nofap start showing. So i have to carry my streak on to avail success in my life for that i have to stand straight against the upcoming difficulties and pain which are the thorns of my road to glory.
Day 7: Successfully passed 7 days. Though i had wet dream (not erotic) last night. I know it is natural process still it doesn’t feel good. As 7 days have been passed i want to share my experience.
- Stayed idle not motivated.
- Lack of self determination.
- Always like harnessing myself from thinking obscene things.
- No routine
- Lack of interest in studies
i.e reluctance of doing anything good or produtive.
It’s always like walking on thin rope hanging up and one mistake means i fall in to fire.
I know 7 years of dark phase cannot be just erased in 7 days. I shall not lose my hope. I know i can overcome my weakness or addiction of pmo because the only thing i need is patience and having faith in nofap
Day 8: Morning. I just kept lying to myself. I passed 8 days just being unmotivated. I just kept promising myself that i will be better person but subconsciously keep finding loop holes of my promises all the time to cheat myself. Yesterday i casually browsed hot pics of girls that resulted my 2nd consecutive wet dream. This time it was erotic and i am very much ashamed of myself. From now i will be honest to myself and i will try to follow this routine.
- Waking up at 6:00 am.
- Meditation for atleast 15 min.
- *** Touching phone for the first time only after 2 hrs of study in the morning.
- Again 3 hrs of study at noon.
- 30 min nap in between my 3hrs study.
- Again study for 2hrs in evening.
- Going to bed before 11:30 pm.
Day 9: Morning. I couldn’t follow my routine. I have been getting headache since yesterday. Also I’m feeling feverish. So hoping for my recovery soon.
I think change looks like this,
Hopefully you are okay.Keep going and stay strong!!
Thanks for your concern.
Day 10: I didn’t want to update my diary as my health is not quite well since yesterday. Still i’m posting here to confirm that i am successfully carrying my streak on. Though i can’t even dare to think about relapsing in fever.
Day 11 & Day 12 morning : I was ill yesterday too so i couldn’t update my diary. But now i’m totally fit and fine. Hopefully i will be able to follow my routine from tomorrow. Also i’m continuing streak successfully.
Day 13: First of all my health is completely normal now and for the first time past 1 month i have studied today in the morning even before checking my phone. Its feeling good that i have started to follow my routine atlast. Btw i have passed 13 days without masturbating and watching porn.
Keep moving forward
Day 14: Now i think i have caught cold also. This weather change really have made my life miserable. Nothing else is new following nofap but still struggling to make my day productive.
Day 15 & 16: nothing much has changed. Struggling with my coughing but i’m recovering a bit i think. My health is well enough to engage myself in study. So trying to study atleast for 4 hours today. Btw my nofapping streak is still on.