Day 18 &19: day 18 was pretty flat for me. But at day 19 i managed to study for 4 hours which is a good improvement.
Day 20 &21: I think benefits of nofapping start showing. For past 2 to 3 day i have been able to focus in my studies and actually i’m studying for 4 to 5 hours daily. Also I watch series and movies for refreshment in the meantime. I couldn’t update my diary regularly as i couldn’t sign in here often in these days. Though i’m having urges sometimes but all is under control. My only concern is consuming web shows that can cause distraction and lead me to the end of my nofapping streak.
Day 22 23 & 24: These days i’m not writing daily because things are going normal and usually (except 1 or 2 times) not struggling to keep myself away from things that might trigger unwanted urges.
Day 76 (21.6.2021): Last time I visited here was 30th Apr on my day 24. and i did not relapse for a single time throughout my 76 days of journey. Yes, I have been able to find positive changes in me for doing nofap. In my initial days i was struggling to make my days productive but after 3 weeks everything started to come along smoothly and i felt a real calmness in me. Then i gradually stop visiting rewire community because i thought, as the reason why I came here was fulfilled, less i would think about porn addiction more it would be helpful and also my online classes were started. But for past few days i’m getting a feeling of falling apart realising i’m not following my self made routine and it hit the worst when i today visited porn site for the 1st time of my 76 days. I will not excuse myself saying I saw very little or I controlled myself at right moment. For me it is the time for self checking myself whether these days I was entertaining unholy thoughts in my mind or not. you have to repeat the same boring routine constantly to stand against porn addiction. Its like holding flood back with a door even a little looseness can flooded you away. I thought if follow my routine i could get rid of this forever as if i would be cured. But what i have experienced is there is no cure of it because it is not a disease rather it is a condition. So you have to follow or practise your own process to not make the unwanted thought coming into your mind. The moment you stop being disciplined i.e you are breaking your rule you are walking inside trap. So no matter what we should keep following our routine to cut the masturbation off our life.
**The things I think we should follow to keep ourselves away from bad thoughts.
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Getting up everyday at 5:00 am morning atleast
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Be conscious when you are allowing unwanted thoughts into you and pray to God to help you out.
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Always respect women and use respectful words to describe their beauty.
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Lower your gaze.
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Reduce the use of social media consumption.
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Don’t let your mind playing around with you.
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Figure out how seriously you want a life with good human qualities that can lead you to the divinity.
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Try to follow the rules strictly.
I think most of the time we fail to follow nofap because of combination of both point no 6&7. we somehow lost the essence of ponit no.6 i.e lack of seriousness or forgetting why we started all these and the mind starts fooling us and eventually we lost the battle.**
These are some things that I realise in this course of time and I think this might help someone who wants to follow nofap very badly but failing everytime.
Don’t forget i’m still in the marathon.
Day 80 (25.6.21): I don’t know if the feeling urges follow any periodic property or not. Because after 80 days I’m feeling urges like I felt at my 1st day. My determination is also lacking. I’m still able to make out my day productive but these urges are not making me happy about myself. My subconscious mind is constantly sneaking for unwanted thoughts. I very much want to get rid off this phase.
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Yes , @spongebox it 's normal to feel this high urges even after 70 days , this journey don’t stop in 90 days and that’s it , nooo , you are a human and it’s normal to happen this because your brain play with you , it plays this game of (WHAT IF I SEND HIM IN THE UNCONSCIENCE SOME OF THIS SCENCES HE WILL WIN OR FAIL WHEN HE WILL WATCH IT ?? 
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YOUR CHOICE IT WILL REFLECT YOUR REAL POWER AND MORE . REALLY YOUR POWER HAVE NO LIMIT YOU HAVE TO BELIEVE AND TO MOTIVATE YOURSELF ALWAYS WITH THIS
what is great that you know now how to face it , how to not give up for this weak part in you …
I REALLY HOPE THAT EVERYTHING IS OK WITH YOUR JOURNEY …
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