Wake up (7 am) Meditation Pranayam Affirmation Visualization Soorya Namskar Workout ( rest day) Yogic posters + full body stretching Shavasan (5 Minutes) Vajrasana after lunch Reading (the Rudest book ever) Journal Grattitude exercise Pray + Bhagavad-Gita + Gitanjali No junk food No TV No YouTube Sleep before 11
Only good thing I did today was pray and the worst thing was watched p-subs for almost 30-60 minutes. But, from now on I’ll consider even a look (concious) at p-subs as RELAPSE. And relapse is never an option anymore in life. I can cry, I can pray, crawl or even die but going back to PMO is never an option.
If I relapse I’ll confess everything to my parents and will sent an AUDIO + TEXT MESSAGE IN FAMILY GROUP, COLLEGE GROUP AND ALL THE OTHER GROUPS I KNOW. Then I’ll upload the screen shot of it here and will never come back to forum again.
Now Iam 20 years old, IF I DON’T CHANGE NOW MY LIFE WILL BECOME WORTHLESS. MY DREAMS, MY GOALS, MY PROMISES I’LL GIVE EVERYTHING I HAVE TO ACHIEVE THEM. Death is better than living a mediocre life!
Yeah bro… I’m with ya… We will never relapse again Let’s remove this evil from our lives once and for all.
But do you think confessing to parents and stop using rewire app again is a good idea? Like, what if your parents get deppressed after hearing about this? Idk…
Ok… you can confess. But why stop Rewire app? Rewire helped you last time right? Why remove something which helps you achieve your goals?
Tell me your opinion bud.
Remember what you told me 10 days ago, when I peeked at that sinned content.
Keep yourself busy, talk to your family, discover new routines.
I believe in you. Don’t slip, rather talk to me when you have urges okay? We’ll talk it through and you’ll be happy you overcame your urges instead falling on your knees.
Humans beings can go through any amount pain to achieve their goals. Pain makes us tougher! Greatness never comes from comfort. We have to get out their and fight this battle, push limits and do whatever it takes to get things done!!
Notice the expression on the faces of these beasts when they go through such large amount of pain . They don’t care because they know the power of human will!!!
I will also remember what my brother @anon72572146 said:
I’LL DIE BEFORE I KNEEL DOWN TO INSTANT GRATIFICATION!!!
US NAVY SEAL HELL WEAK CHALLENGE FOR NEXT 3 WEEKS.
There is only two condition in this, if I fail to complete any one of my task I’ll rest my counter!
1 = RELAPSE!!!
And, pushing limits in completing each task, if I run 2 Kms now, then I have to push limits and run.4. If I meditate 30 minutes a day then I have to make it 60.
Fight through extreme pain and discomfort is the aim. Any one aiming to become a beast can join me! In the actual training most people die during it. The one and only legend David Goggins completed 3 weeks in this! He broke his legs, and many bones then still managed to wake up at 3 30 am and workout with plasters sticked on his feet. ANYTHING IS POSSIBLE WITH HUMAN WILL!!!
Wake up (6 am) Start the day with Om chanting Meditation ( 1 hour, 10 minutes) Pranayam on Vajrasan (anulom vilom + bhramri) Affirmation Visualization Soorya namaskar.(5) Workout Jogging (1.6 Kms) Yogic posters + full body stretching Shavasan (5 Minutes) Vajrasan after lunch. Reading (eat that frog) Journal Grratitude exercise Pray + Bhagavad-Gita + Gitanjali No Junk food No TV YouTube (15 minutes, educational videos) Sleep before 11.
I invite @Deadpoolgupta and @_TIGER, 2 very strong brothers to join me in this Challenge! We have nothing to loose. We have went through enough pain, we have had enough!
Now lets push limits and become the best.
Iam taking a break from the forum guys, Iam going monk mode to get my mind back. This September Iam turning 20, I don’t have even a single second to waste on short term pleasures now. I’ll come back after my mind become stable and normal. Today I checked my smart phone use (of August) in the app Stay Focused. I was dumbstruck! I spent 139 hours on my phone.
In that 139 hours, 37 hours ie. 1 and a half day I spent on this app. What I was doing was replacing ■■■■ addiction with addiction on this app. I was addicted to my phone!!!
Now the final and right time has come to take extreme ownership of my life. This time I cannot fail, if I fail, my goals are fucked. My goals got fucked = DEATH FOR ME!!! I cannot live in this world without achieving my dreams. Death is way better than that!
MONK MODE 2.0
PLAN:
No Electronics, no TV, no YouTube nothing.
No social media, no erotic videos or images.
No TV, movies or pictures of girls.
No sugar
No Junk food, cool drinks or alcohol or cigarette.
No artificial stimulation.
Things I can do for happiness:
Read
Exercise
Meditate
Write
Talk with loved ones.
Waking through nature, cycling.
Food made by mother.
Pray, Bhagavad-Gita
Fasting.
100% FOCUS ON PURPOSE!
I pray and strongly believe that all the dreams of our companions come true. Everyone here are not normal people, they all have something really great inside, all we have to do is stop PMO, transmutte our sexual force and achieve real self realization and take extreme ownership of our life.
“The most important lesson that man can learn from life, is not that there is pain in this world but that it is possible for him to transmute it into joy” -RABINDRANATH TAGORE
I respect your decision to take a break from the forum. If it is necessary do it.
Also, my sincere suggestion: reduce the number of companions you follow or are followed by. I guess that keeping in direct contact with many companions takes a huge amount of time.
Anyway, I’m sure this detoxification period will make you stronger. And better.
All the best
Iam sorry brothers. Monk mode didn’t work too. These p*** flashbacks are coming back again and again. Now, Iam touching rock bottom each day. Social anxiety, shyness, fear, low confidence everything is coming back. My mind is baked and numb now. Iam not able to focus, stuttering, inshort touched rock bottom!
I just want to tell one thing, PLEASE DON’T GO BACK TO THIS ADDICTION. God, what kind of addiction is this. There is only one way out of this, everyday we have to improve ourselves, Workout, meditate, focus on purpose, everyday we should be moving in the opposite direction of it. I don’t have much to say, feeling like a zombie now. But I’ll come back! I don’t like this feeling, acting like a victim or a loser. This is so much unlike me! This is not me. Oh God, I know this addiction is making me feel like this! I’ll come back! Iam not making blank promises now, but I must give my all to make a come back this time. I’ll write my diary everyday from now on. I have to be accountable, I’ll also start a new challengs too
I Told u Brother @Tagore, I Told u that this is not the right way to defeat this addiction, I told u it would just put more pressure on u and that gives PMO more power on u than it already had, until that pressure builds up everyday and at some point it will break u. But I am curious, what abt the promise that u made,’ I am not going to come back to this forum again, I will confess to my parents’ What happened to those things ur going to do if u relpase, were they all fake ?
I know I fucked up brother, but I believe I have to give myself one more chance, I know Iam not a hero anymore. Iam among the average few who touched rock bottom. But I have faith I’ll come back. If I confess about this addiction to my parents, their heart will be broken, maybe my mother will cry a lot and will then take me to a phychatrist. I believe that won’t help either.
But I must atleast keep the promise of leaving this forum, yeah you are right!
I won’t come back till I reach 112 days, my last streak.
Ie. I’ll come back by the end of December!!!
Thanks for all the help and support you guys gave me, I’ll pray everyday for all of us.
Wake up (7 am)
Pray + Bhagavad-Gita + Gitanjali
Let’s remove this evil from our lives once and for all.
= RELAPSE!!!
Wake up (6 am)
