You all have seen my worst now see my best and witness my victory!! 2023 is the year of change!
If this habit can’t satisfy you even after doing it thousands times, then how can it satisfy you by doing it one more time?
Back in 2015 i was in class 4 , i searched for haldi ghati (to know about it) , i was watching that video then suddenly i saw a recommendation of an obscene video, then i wanted more so i searched for that kind of girls on google and i opened website and saw girls having DK in their mouth, i was like eww, then i watched video other videos and that day i watched it for more than 3 hours that day . Then my father seen all the searches and the website (idk how he saw i deleted every search, but the website flashing on the top and i used all the net pack of that day or month i dont remember ). After someday my friends told me about a keyword i searched it and i watched photos and started searching my favorite cartoons, actresses with that black word __ (my father has forgot everything now) . Jio sim …
As a result, I started to fap in may(or last week of april) 2019,i was 12 years old and now i am 16 years old .My highest streak is of 16 days which i created in January 2020 , i also have a 34 days fap streak , this habit is getting worse. I fapped 7 times in a day few days ago (broke another record ), relapsing 3-5 times a day is normal for me, my life is fcked up as hell. I have backlogs rn, i have to cover literally whole syllabus. I am a fat guy and didn’t workout since last 20 days. I am not meditating and praying to God daily. I looked at my old pics and i got to know how dull I am looking rn. I sleep late and wake up at around 10 am daily (even though sometimes i sleep early ). I have also applied tapes, tied thread and rubber bands around my d*ck, but those were super painful and not that effective .
I wrote all this because i want my future better version to laugh at my current situation .
I don’t want to be like someone, i am just desperate to find my true self. And i will unlock my true potential , I will improve, I will rise!!! I will make him feel proud .
Inspirations of my name
Idk whether you know me or not
I am gonna strike at it just like the thunder bolt
I am gonna turn up the heat so that the tornado turns hot
My progress was on a halt
I am gonna give it another shot
Cause I know it was all my fault
I am the guy who has always fought
Because I am the guy whose name is Sholt Tenkerrot
That’s all, thank you and have a marvelous & victorious life!
Relapsed today twice and woke up at 9am , got late to wordship Goddess Saraswati and my sisters were waiting for me, i did the same during Durga puja and my family were waiting for me. Watched Dhoom 2 (it took me a week to watch 2.5 hours movie ). Yesterday I talked to 2 random girls, basically I asked questions so can’t say i talked to them, but still i tried . I promise i will improve in every aspect of my life. I will improve. . I relapsed a lot before maybe because i want someone to witness my victory .
Tomorrow goals :-
Wake up at 7:45 am
Study 1.5 hours before going to coaching
Floss at least once a day
Study for 1-1.5 hours after coming from coaching.
Sleep before 11:40 pm.
It’s great that you have plans @NarutoKun but doing only cardio ain’t a good idea. You should also focus on muscle building and always try to do progressive overload (you have to use more weight or more reps than previous you did previous time) ,it will increase your NEAT (Non exercise Activity Thermogenesis) ,means you will burn more calories even when you won’t do any work,so join a gym or buy resistance bands /tubes if you wanna do workout at home ,do fullbody workouts every alternate days (don’t workout until you are completely recovered from your previous workout) and never overtrain and sleep for 7-8 hours daily ,have enough protein ,eat a bit in surplus ,you can also do 5-15 minutes cardio, swimming is a great activity too. You will have a strong and next level physique ,trust me if you will do this consistently ,you will thank yourself later that you started doing this. There are many other things ,will talk about it later let’s keep it simple for now .