There is one simple reason why I try (and will) quit porn:
I’m bored -> let’s watch a porn
I’m tired -> porn makes me awake
I’ve so much stuff to do -> let’s escape to porn
I’m scared doing something -> let’s escape to porn
my rational decision-making is destroyed by porn. My brain says that it is the solution for everything. But I wanna get my decision making back into my hand!
I’m bored -> let’s do something interesting
I’m tired -> let’s take a nap
much stuff to do -> let’s start it and get it done
scared? -> I don’t care, I do it anyways
That’s why I don’t care about: semen retention, gains at the gym, thicker hair, my look, how long my life will be, super powers, is it a relapse if i …, 90 days challenge, and so on
That’s why, at some point, I will have an amazing life where I can decide what my body does. Because for an amazing life, I don’t need superpowers. I don’t need to stay abstinent from every pleasure. But every source of pleasure has to be in balance with each other. I want a life where I can have sex when it is appropriate, where I can decide to do stuff I was scared before. In general, A life where my CONSCIOUS brain can analyze and tell me what to do.