When did you realized you were addicted to fapping?

Yes, you read that correct.You must know why you started nofap, but little do we think about why we started fapping in the first place. So here is what we gonna do. Let us all write down the reason as to why we started fapping in the first place so that we know in which area of life we have to work the most to avoid future relapses.
Why I started?
I was a shy guy, an introvert (currently working on it). I used to look at a girl and think she is way out of my league. But I always used to fantasize about her. That made me horny every time. I got addicted when I started fantasizing about the best sex a man can have with the most beautiful woman in the world. I just wanted that. To escape from reality, to get that sex life, I beacme addicted to it.
Share your story.

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Well your reason is kind of how all of us start as kids. Fantasizing. However, that greatly differentiates(at least for me) as to why I currently do it, which is pure boredom. Yes, the fact that I’m a lazy bum majorly contributes to my problem. I do have a job but once I’m off I feel satan all over my ass. Yeah that’s why I do it.

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I started watching porn because it was an escape from the feeling of failure I always got at school.

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I started very young at age 8, used to rub myself in a different fashion than what is classified as normal hand position. Was to pictures of the Poison Ivy Uma Thurman in Batman haha. Then got into the bad habit from there.

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First phase, thumping heart and getting high when looking at sexy girls when I was a kid because of their wonderful body. And I started fapping because it felt good to rub my own wonderful part when seeing hot & cute girls with bikinis on calendars.
Second phase, getting bullied and neglected… isolared life… desperate for talents, inspirations, and girls… all of them… but not getting any… and that’s when depression, boredom, and headache kicked in, triggering more urges to do that. And then NoFap… and then issues kicking in again… and then relapsed…

But it can change. It must change because tomorrow there must be wonderful activities at campus and I shall succeed in everything and every events.

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I was an accident. I played some racing games and got a work to do. Clicked pause.on the paused menu they have like bikini girl… and that is how i started with pmo. My is around 14

I changed the topic head as most of us started fapping coz we were attracted to women and harmonal changes. But, the real and a much deeper question is , when did you realized you were addicted to it?
For me, when I started noticing physical changes like loosing a lot of hair, low stamina, bad sleep, depressed thoughts (sometimes even had thoughts of killing myself :fearful:) etc. Then it hit me that something is wrong and everything pointed me in the direction of fapping as the culprit. It is at that moment, I realized that this is not right and started my journey of nofap (and btw , I am currently on 41 days clean :innocent:)

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Got some magazine from a guy at my school, took it at home me and my nephew where drooling over this magazine but we didn’t even know what masturbating so basically edging like motherfck, from there went on and saw a movie with adult stuff in it, little did I know I was falling into the lust hole without realizing at 15 I was left alone at home and it’s at this time I discovered the internet and shit went downhill until I was 18 or 19 I was badly addicted I discovered no fap THANK THE MOST HIGH FOR THIS! started doing the challenges on youtube until I discovered there where actual dedicated websites for this addiction, tried many times and I failed until begin of last year I watched soo much porn and I sat down with my self and asked my self what do I really want in my life soo here I am on my 300 day of nf looking developing a better me

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I felt disconnected to myself soo bad it got scary and I really had to change myself keep rising brother

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It’s when I was getting into a low point in January 2018. I was legit depressed so I was about to fap again and I was just O-ed to a cute and sexy anime girl wearing tight dress in Youtube, and a person criticized my ridiculous action. That’s when I explained why I fapped but then he showed me NoFap, hence I try it. At first half-hearted trying, and then relapsing within a few days a hundred times for 8.5 months before finally I just decide to just man up and deal with the urges by trying to not looking at stimulating contents or even fantasizing it. And it worked. Now on Day 13 despite no real benefits other than increasing urge and energy.

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When i was 14 in class 8th, i discovered fap by means of my friends.
I tried it one day in summer holidays and something white shoots out of my dick. That feeling was amazing. I had never experienced anything like that before. Soon i got addicted to the feeling of Orgasm. It felt realy good first couple of months

But soon i realized that something was wrong. My body realized in very beginning that i was doing it wrong. I started counting my days along with my friends in 8th class. The liking to Orgasm was so strong that i never crossed 30 days mark when i was 14.

Next year We forgot about it. We made it a part of our life. We didnt know back then that we are chained in slavery. Sadly there was no elder to guide me. If i knew that time that there is a much more strong feeling than orgasm i would have quitted it. The internet & our soceity said that porn & masturbation is normal. So i went on destroying my life year after year.

After 10 years i discovered Nofap community on youtube. My life has changed after that. :fire: A Light of Hope has Risen in me. The chains of slavery have become rusty & old … After nearly 2 years of hammering … I THINK I CAN BREAK THEM NOW. I SHALL GET MY FREEDOM BACK ONCE AND FOR ALL

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Do not seek benefits seek the will to choose not to watch it, benefits will come naturally

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With blind will without foundation and proof? As if it would work.

a life independent of the grip of the addiction where you can choose your faith is a great thing

if you see that, you need no benefits :slight_smile:

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I have had free outlook at masturbation as part of healthy sex life, equating it to how often would I want to have sex with girlfriend, like one in a day sort of.

However, I was crazed for masturbation to an extent that there were days of 4-5 times a day and once 7 times. I was lonely and working stressfully hard for exams, and even due to having free high speed internet at college. So that crossed limits and I knew something had to be done.

However considering it an addiction came with the fact when I had girlfriend. She was like do I ever let go of holding my dick while naked with her. That was quite insulting. Soon, I distanced myself slowly and today I am here. I work out hard, study well, take bath everyday, have good social life, all because I am not into little comfort zone of porn anymore.

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By holding my dick, I mean I was still fucking her only :joy: but while I was not inside her, I would be trying to get my dick hard with hands, I never noticed this but when she pointed out I realized it looks like a bad habit. She pointed it once or twice again, and I was jittered out, first reaction was to fight with her. But then I realized how defensive I had got about my bad sexual routine, and decided to change myself for better.

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So in other words we have to focus on faith in positivity?

I would say so.
I know for certain, that after I’m done with this addiction I will have a lot of spare time to spend on personal fulfillment and that I will be able to accomplish whatever I want because I can fully focus on that task. (because I don’t have to waste time on porn and other things)

If people say that they have more clarity in mind, they got more social or a better hair growth. If i believe in that, I have to hope that these benefits will happen to me too. If not, I will be disappointed.

So, I personally prefer to focus on the things I know for sure will happen and take all the additional benefits as a very welcome addition.

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Yeah. That’s a good point. We’d better use our resources and we’d better do all we got in order to gain the exact results.

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I realized when I started to fail in my life because of it.
Permanent lack of energy.
Severe procrastination.
Not achieving goals or deadlines at work.
Doing it in weird places for absolutely no reason.

So… It was time to stop.

:smiley_cat:

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