On valentine’s day this year , I was jerking off to some wierd porn shit and after I was done I was going through my Instagram feed. All of my mates were uploading photos with their girlfriends and others were just enjoying the day , while I was the only one who was lying down on my shitty apartment. Some of em even called me out but I rejected their calls and ignore their messages. I know I was fucked, few days after , those calls stop coming , it’s like nobody cares about me at all. Then I realised something :
" I wasn’t living , I was just dying. Days were going and I was approaching my death ."
What did I do in my whole life - NOTHING !
One day I just stood up and told myself that this time no matter what, I will change , I will have a better income, better car , better lifestyle and a beautiful family!
Today is my day 8 , whenever I feel those urges I always remind myself the reasons why I m suffering. I will suffer now but in the end it will be worth it. That’s my motivation!
HOPE YOU GUYS GOT SOME INSPIRATION. ITS YOUR LIFE, LIVE IT TO THE FULLEST !