Idk how many of you guys use tinder. I just deleted mine a couple days ago. I felt like getting rejected over and over on it was one of the things that drove me to ■■■■ so I stopped using it. Plus it was just a waste of time as I’m not that attractive anyway. Weird thing is last night I had a dream that I matched with a guy. And this guy was trying to get me to take an Uber to his house so we could meet up for sex. And I kept stringing him along and was afraid to just straight up tell him no. So I just ghosted him.
Idk Im not even gay so idk why I would have matched with a guy in the first place. I guess it was my way of having empathy towards girls who I’ve wanted to do the same thing to but like have ghosted me. Like maybe they felt the same way. The thing though that I was so horny I was considering it.
But I’d never prefer a guy to a girl. I’m glad that was a dream. I hate my mind on nofap…
I had 3 weird dreams this morning; one I can remember was of a pornstar who I’ve watched for years. She was in my living room, making eye contact with me while she pleasured some other guy.
So like it may just have to do with your body and the sexual response cycle. It’s like our minds have been conditioned by ■■■■ so whenever we are sexually stimulated during sleep for example then our mind trys and paint a picture of that in our dreams based off all our past sexual experiences. Which if most of them have been ■■■■ videos then you’re gonna dream about ■■■■. For me I guess I got addicted to tinder and so tinder became kinda something I went to to try and have sex.
Man I have crossed 3 digit streak but still had a weird sensual dream yesterday and in the dream, I was having high urge to watch P.
When I woke up, I was shocked like how tf after so many months this shit still cameback.
I did had very little urge while waking up but I got back to studying and thoughts went away.
This may even be something to talk to a therapist about. I mean sex isn’t bad and it shouldn’t be a stressful or frightening thing whenever you are horny. I feel like a ■■■■ addiction can make it feel that way and also may trigger a stress response whenever you get horny. So like it’s helpful just to sit with it and acknowledge it as something your body is responding to. It’s nothing bad or nothing to be ashamed about. And you just are going to choose to sit with it instead of going through with looking at stuff and relapsing.