Walnes Confession Notes

Walnes · November 22, 2024, 1:26pm

I’ve been on a journey of self-discovery, driven by societal expectations and personal doubts. I studied nursing at a state university while yearning for something more in life. Since 2022, I’ve been practicing NoFap and have maintained a long streak of 196 to 210 days. I’ve also been training at the gym and preparing for boxing tournaments, hoping for a significant change in my life. However, balancing four hours of training with my nursing duties and exam preparation is overwhelming. I don’t want to give up because I feel I deserve better.

As I approach my exams, I hope to become a better version of myself in the new year, aiming to silence those who criticize my boxing pursuits. My dream is to become a professional boxer and serve in the military.

Despite initially following a path influenced by familial and societal pressures, I realized it didn’t align with my true self. Nursing school, with its rigid routine, clashed with my creative and free-spirited nature. Past bullying and poor choices haunted me, but a moment of clarity helped me recognize I was sacrificing my true self for others’ approval.

I decided to break free from societal expectations, embracing my imperfections and unique strengths. I’ve learned to forgive myself, let go of the past, and embrace the future. I’m grateful for the lessons learned, the friendships formed, and the support of those who believe in me. I am no longer defined by mistakes but by my determination to live authentically. I am a work in progress, woven with hope, resilience, and belief in human connection.

Guys any advice? Please help me wanna relapse so bad because it doesn’t feel worth it for me

Covertxomic1 · November 22, 2024, 1:37pm

Keep patience man! Sometimes you have to go through bad time. It’s alright. Remember at the end of the relapse there is nothing just regret.

yadadada · November 22, 2024, 1:45pm

You’ve got everything you need here mate. I can tell from the way you phrase your sentences that you have belief in yourself. Nothing can change your ability to make your own decision to better your life. Keep doing what you do, face the “temptations” head on and trust in your own ability to make decisions FOR YOURSELF. You’ll be fine

Prayer_Warrior · November 22, 2024, 2:29pm

There is a quote from my time in the Navy that made a lot of sense to me after trying NoFap for so long now. I still regret falling after 110 days but I still apply this quote:

Suffer The Pain Of Discipline or Suffer The Pain Of Regret
-U.S. Navy

RyomenSukuna · November 23, 2024, 9:16am

@Walnes, I have a souvenir reciting which gives me strength. Guess what, it came from you.

Walnes · November 23, 2024, 12:34pm

Thanks Brother I have a New One Just for You @RyomenSukuna

A Demon’s Dominion

“Unleash the darkness, let chaos reign supreme.
A malevolent force, a nightmarish dream.
With every bite, a world consumed,
A godlike existence, forever doomed.”

“Shatter the chains of mortal fear,
Embrace the void, let evil draw near.
A king of curses, a tyrant’s might,
Dominate the world, claim eternal night.”

“In the realm of shadows, power unbound,
A force of destruction, fearsome and profound.
With a single gesture, worlds can fall,
A demon’s reign, answering the call.”

RyomenSukuna · November 23, 2024, 2:11pm

Despite being full and cold hearted even I appreciate people worthy of appreciation. I offer you my thanks and most importantly, something that is worth more than gold in this world.

You have my respect.

JohnnyBlaze965843 · November 23, 2024, 2:12pm

Have a read at EasyPeasy. It’ll help remove the brainwashing that you’re suffering.

Walnes · November 23, 2024, 5:14pm

I’m totally fine now. Thanks, by the way. It feels great sharing my experiences with everyone. Hoping to open my Diary in 100 days

Walnes · November 25, 2024, 9:47am

Today marks 85 days of my NoFap streak! I’m grateful for your support and accountability. Without you, I might have relapsed. Together, we’ve achieved this. Thank you!

RyomenSukuna · November 25, 2024, 10:04am

Perfect! You’re unstoppable. Like Sukuna’s Fuuga through Gojo’s infinity.

Stand proud. You are strong.

Imaginator · November 25, 2024, 5:21pm

Bro, your English is amazing, and the way you expressed everything is truly impressive. It’s clear that you have a deep understanding of your feelings and what you want from life. That alone makes you remarkable! You’re doing an incredible job pursuing your goals with all your might, even when it’s tough—that’s something truly admirable.

If there’s something you don’t want to do, but you’re still doing it, give it your full dedication. You’ve already shown that you’re capable of pushing through challenges, and that’s what matters most. Don’t let the pressure of others weigh you down. Keep going—you have the clarity and strength to achieve anything you set your mind to.

Remember, giving in to fleeting feelings will only cloud your mental clarity and slow your progress. So, no matter what, keep pushing yourself forward. If you stumble, don’t hesitate to start again—it’s all part of the journey.

At the end of the day, I just want to say: you’re awesome, man. Keep going, you’ve got this!

“A hero is one who knows how to hang on one minutes longer"

JohnnyBlaze965843 · November 25, 2024, 6:24pm

Congratulations for your path. Keep getting stronger and being an inspiration for us.

Walnes · November 26, 2024, 10:00am

In the Light of a Shining Star

Beneath the vast canopy of a starlit sky,
Where the quiet whispers of the universe lie,
I find myself grappling with words untold,
In the heart of life’s poetry, vast and bold.

Each moment, a marvel cloaked in disguise,
Commonplace wonders before my eyes,
Slipping through fingers, like sand in time,
Yet within their silence, a rhythm, a rhyme.

Oh, to free my mind from the clamor’s reign,
To cleanse the echoes of years of pain,
Let the spirit rise, clear in its perception,
To see life’s hidden power in silent reflection.

For beneath each breath, each gentle breeze,
Lies the universe’s quiet symphonies,
A magnificent force, flowing unseen,
In every moment, in every dream.

So I stand, like a star, shining bright,
In the struggle for freedom, in the fight for light,
Motivated by the cosmos, vast and grand,
To rise above, to understand.

With each step forward, in this quiet grace,
I find strength and courage to embrace,

The poetic dance of life, in all its glory,
A revolutionary leader, crafting my own story.

PrDr · November 26, 2024, 12:39pm

Its amazing man… for the first time here, as I read your diary, I feel like I’m looking at my own reflection of when I joined in here. I mean not everything😅, but the way we talk. I used to write my days in poetic form in my first diary here, though I later got it deleted. I regret that now, but I hope you keep this one. Its a treasure that you’ll cherish in upcoming future.

Walnes · November 26, 2024, 1:10pm

Thanks, man. I’m hoping to get some advice from you. I’m just starting to learn how to use this app properly. If by any chance, can you help me learn more so I can create more memorable moments with you guys?

Imaginator · November 26, 2024, 4:54pm

About which feature you want to know? Also you will get it with time how to use this app

PrDr · November 26, 2024, 5:21pm

Is there anything specific you are hoping to learn? Like @Imaginator said, its a pretty straight forward app, and you’ll get used to it with time. But yes I am here for any help you’d need. Do not hesitate to reach out.

Walnes · November 30, 2024, 10:19am

In the echoes of dreams once pursued, where doubt and determination entwine, lies the heart of my journey. The allure of a path, marked by uniforms and expectations, called to me—a siren’s song amidst the chaos of choice.

On the day of decision, under the watchful gaze of destiny, I stood alongside many, each seeking their own truth. The weight of family, of futures not yet written, pressed upon my shoulders, yet I stepped forward, embracing the unknown.

As I entered the halls of learning, a world both strange and familiar unfolded. My peers, kind and welcoming, shared the space that felt comfortable yet never quite my own. The dissonance within me grew, a whisper urging exploration beyond the confines of my chosen course.

Guided by the wisdom of ancient words, I sought solace in reflections of time—a tapestry woven with threads of wisdom and folly, of laughter and tears. Each verse, a beacon, illuminating paths untraveled and truths yet revealed.

Van Gogh’s echo resounded through my soul, a reminder of the power within to create against the tide of doubt—a canvas to paint with the colors of resilience and hope.

In the dance of seasons, where each moment carries its own weight, I found a rhythm in the work of my hands, a joy in the toil that shapes our days. For in this journey, there is beauty in the striving, a testament to the enduring spirit of the heart.

With each step forward, I embraced the uncertainty, for the future is a canvas yet untouched. In this dance of life, I found my voice, my purpose—a narrative written in the ink of dreams and the light of wisdom.

Walnes · December 1, 2024, 9:58am

Leaving Mediocrity Behind

In the realm of aspirations, where silence meets the stirrings of ambition, we stand at the crossroads of mediocrity and greatness. The horizon calls, a beacon urging us to step beyond the shadows of complacency and into the light of our potential.

As dawn unveils the world anew, it casts aside the veil of the ordinary, revealing the extraordinary within our grasp. Hearts, once confined by the mundane, now yearn for the clarity of purpose—a wisdom born of introspection and courage.

Time, the master sculptor, chisels away doubt with each passing moment, reminding us that the future is a canvas eagerly awaiting the bold strokes of our intent. It whispers of trials and triumphs, of the beauty found in relentless pursuit.

Within the echoes of inner resolve, we find strength. The voice of ego, once misunderstood, becomes a powerful ally, sharpening our focus and defining our path. Here, ambition transforms into artistry, crafting a life that resonates with authenticity and drive.

The essence of creation lies in embracing fear and uncertainty, in allowing our true selves to rise above the noise. As we paint our journey with passion and resolve, we discover the symphony within—a harmony of dreams and reality, forged by the fires of self-belief.

In this odyssey, we leave mediocrity behind, stepping boldly into the realm of possibility. With ego as our compass and ambition as our guide, we transcend limitations, crafting a narrative of power and purpose that echoes through the corridors of time, eternally vibrant and uniquely our own.