Well I guess this is a breakup, rammed my head into the drywall in my bedroom throwing a tantrum. Porn really does kill love, no urge just sadness
Day 2, Last full day before I drop the ex home, relived an old date and chilled out in a park. Began to reflect on myself, my addiction to porn made me liar and a horrible partner. Even though it’s really quick to access porn I should of thought first more instead of facing the consequences later. No urges
Day 3, Well it’s life alone for a while. Came up with an idea to have a journal to plan what I should do day to day, use this forum to diary my porn addiction and make a private instagram to visually and verbally document my days. This should keep me occupied with overcoming my breakup and addiction. No urges yet
Day 4, started first day of a ‘routine’ and it wasn’t that bad actually. Keeping myself occupied really has really not made me have any urges at all. Listened to the hotboxing with Mike podcast featuring terry crews episode 1 during my cardio session. Starting to look for some self improvement podcasts to listen to on during my commute, cardio or walk with the dog.
Day 5, had my first day back at work so I’ll have to try and plan all the things I promised to do for myself around commitments. Urges are definitely there, mostly when I stop being productive.
Day 6, kept myself as busy around the house as I could. Thought about wanting to visit some temples around my local area to get in touch with the spiritual side of myself. Starting to meditate with 10 mins and increasing by 10 seconds a day. In about 3 months I should be able to meditate for 30 minutes at a time.
Did lots of cooking today, made dumplings, pasta and some airfried potato crisps. Just exploring things to pick up to keep me occupied
Day 7, went to get my car serviced and shopped before going to work. Not really getting urges for anything because working with a mask is exhausting.
Day 8, went on a drive to a scenic coastal location, visited this hindu temple which was majestic, the atmosphere inside and the shrines inside were inspiring. No urges just busy