Making a new diary, where Iโll try to at least check-in everyday.
I have been on nofap for around 4 years now, and I have made some progress, but itโs far from where I want to reach.
However, now Iโve found some new goals and determination to quit. And I think this will help me finally end this addiction once and for all.
I understand it now. I understand it now.
I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me
This is for my future
Congratulations on the new Diary, Brother! Iโll definitely be following you on your journey here! God bless you in your fight! 
2024-12-02T18:30:00Z
Day 7
1 week down.
I wanted to write this post to reflect on one of the main and positive effects conquering lust and follow God has. That is my drive.
Usually when I have a lot of free-time, if Iโve relapsed I just waste time and do nothing productive. But nowadays as I retain, the drive is incredible. I want and feel the need to do more.
I wonder how much I can accomplish as I keep conquering lust and the drive to do more increases. I definitely have urges, but I conquer them with Jesusโ help.
I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me
Romans 6:10 (KJV) For in that he died, he died unto sin once: but in that he liveth, he liveth unto God.
I am trying to memorize this verse and I think that it will help you to overcome these urges. I also am prayer meditating and doing breathing exercises this also helps.
2024-12-06T18:30:00Z
Day 10
Yesterday was cheat day- I allowed myself to eat chocolate.
I will try to record all cheat days on this diary- in which I allow myself to eat chocolate/chips/soft drinks so that I can have an idea if I slip too much.
It was not worth it, eating healthy is always what makes me feel better after the meal.
Dinner was very healthy for me yesterday though.
I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me
2024-12-07T18:30:00Z
Day 0
Today I relapsed. MO.
Did not watch โ โ โ โ . I will never watch โ โ โ โ again after I gave my word.
Will restart.
Tough three days for me. I will rely on God and get through them.
Hopefully my next check-in will find me in higher spirits.
(no I am not sad about the relapse. There are some other things that trouble me, which I have spoken about to my friends. But will see)
I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me
Be strong Brother @debellator. Rely on God each and every day. My method I use the most is Prayer Meditation. I hope that you make a comeback and be stronger.
2024 wasโฆan interesting year for me. I will try to sorta reflect on the same. More for my own thinking, to allow me to process.
Jan and Feb I was busy with exams. March to May was just basketball season. May to Jun was where I was really in top form- on the grind. July I had emergency surgery and had to stop. Post that was when things started to go down.
I was getting pace back in August but it was not good. September was when I was really starting to get back on track. Again, it stopped in October due to my injury.
After that. Things sorta seem undulating. No real highs or lows. Definitely not trying to sound ungrateful, there were a lot of great things God did in my life even in these past few days. But personally my mindset is not the best.
Start of 2021 is a time I still remember. I was staying up late. Reading fanfiction. And relapsing.
Though Iโve made some progress since. I definitely am not going to go back to that. But Iโve still got miles to go before I reach where I want to be.
Today marks the end of a year.
There were so many ups and downs this year. I have learnt a lot this year. This year, whether others consider it good or bad, has molded me into who I am now. And Iโm not done yet, Heโs still working on me.
Last year, on 1st Jan, I relapsed.
I wanted to start a new streak in the new year, and failed.
But thatโs not the end of the story.
Sure, till April this month, my average streak was 2 days. It was a vicious cycle. Desire, relapse and guit. Again and again.
Then came Rewire Companion. And Iโm glad God showed it to me. It literally turned my nofap attempts around.
Looking back, I am so grateful, for everything. All the failure, the success, my friends, companions and everyone that made me who I am today.
I know that gold fears no fire. Whatever happens this upcoming year is in Godโs hands. And He has a plan for my life.
But while Iโm here, wondering about what will happen next year, I strengthen my resolve. I will:
Whatever happens this new year, I am going to do my best. 2021 is MY year. 2021 is the year of the flame. Whatever happens, even with all this uncertainty in the world, I will pass through the flames, and be refined.
All the best, my companions. Thank you for being with me on this amazing journey called 2020. Hereโs to an even better 2021.
Love you all 
So remember, whatever happens in 2020, stays in 2020. 2021 is a new year, a new chance, a new start.
Why is there a difference?
Because itโs not the year that makes the difference, itโs you. Be harder. Be better. Be faster. Be stronger.
Be strong. Be kind.
Good is always hard. bad is easy. Rage? Anger? Intolerance? Easy.
But we do hard things here. Weโre the noFappers.
So, for the last time in 2020,
Stay awesome, and
Iโve definitely improved a lot this year. I didnโt have any significant experiences regarding love life etc. this year but Iโm fine with that. Happy, actually, considering Iโve had issues with that since 2020-2022. Hope I donโt jinx that by saying it 
Itโs crazy the progress Iโve made. But Iโve still got far to go.
When I first joined in 2020 I was one of the newest and youngest forum users (I was around 17 then). Itโs been 4 years and Iโm 21 now. Iโve not obliterated this addiction completely yet. But God is teaching me the tenacity I require and soon I will be free.
Anyways, here are the things I will learn behind in 2024-
Never again.
Iโm still working on myself. And Godโs still working on me.
Thank you all for joining in my journey with me.
Keep going, keep growing
Flame on
2025-01-14T18:30:00Z
2 weeks clean.
Have been a bit too distracted of late. Must head back and remain focused.
Exams begin tomorrow, so have to do them well as well.
2025-01-15T18:30:00Z
I just want to say: it feels so good to be clean.
God is helping me and Iโm able to do lot better. Bounce back from setbacks way faster.
Still have some habits that need ironing out but staying pure especially away from โ โ โ โ really has a beneficial effect on the spiritual side.
Still definitely get urges, but my resolution is that 2025 is my first โ โ โ โ -free year. That I am set on accomplishing and with Godโs help I shall do it.
I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me
2025-01-18T18:30:00Z
Have some free time, so thought Iโd post.
Nearing the 21-day mark of freedom.
2025 is my โ โ โ โ free year. 2025 is the year I reclaim my masculinity.
Past two exams were good by Godโs grace. Final one is tomorrow, then practicals next week. Iโm not really finding the mood to study today, so hoping some self-reflection will help me out here.
Staying pure is definitely important, because it has a lot of effects even though they may not be consciously noticed by individuals. But all the same, they make a huge difference.
I am back to being more outgoing. I enjoy othersโ company genuinely. For some reason several girls who Iโd lost contact with randomly all started texting me on the same day (Iโm not saying this has to do with nofap, just pointing out an interesting coincidence). I think it has to do with the confidence and self-respect one gets when they are not wanking to pixels like a loser.
The only thing Iโm not happy with right now is my discipline. The main deal for me is that physical discipline, early morning runs and gym sessions, are what get me going to be productive the rest of the day. So far, due to my injury rehab and exams I havenโt been able to be consistent- but that will change tomorrow. After my last exam Iโll immediately restart my gym membership and start the following day along with getting back to basketball as well as our local football league with my friends.
This isnโt so much of an update post as it is my just getting my thoughts out and clearing my head. No need to read so much, disclaimer.
I definitely do notice my desire to get a girl. A really loving girl who Iโd want to be in a relationship with. But these feelings are getting in the way right now. Like the Bible says in Song of Solomon,
do not wake up love until the time is right
So I will wait for some more time. Keep the feelings a bit more laidback, focused more on my masculine energy and embracing my singleness. Though for that I need to have less couple content in my intake- things like Instagram couples etc.
Instagram is such a deadly weapon. Not even for sexualization for me, just the quality of people (and especially women) there. All degenerates- makes god guys see the app and get appalled at the filth women do and think they donโt want to date anyone, there are so many examples of guys like that in this forum who think all women are bad like that.
But thatโs a skewed view. Itโs those type of women whoโll tend to post more on this app. That doesnโt mean there arenโt real good women out there. Theyโre there, just in a better places. Thereโs a reason Lamborghini doesnโt advertise on television ads- their target audience wonโt be wasting time on the TV.
High value women nurture their quiet femininity without trying to garner their attention. That will attract the right high value men to them- these type of people simply rise about the noise that is the stupidity ephemerality of the general populace and their dogmatic beliefs in their small worldview. So many people think their perception of life is the right one, forgetting that perception is unique to every individual.
Again, getting side tracked.
Just gotta stay focused, and keep working hard. Praying for my future spouse- and working so I can be the right person for her.
Funnily enough, when I first joined this forum I was 17, anxious about my exams and about whether I would ever be able to join medical school in this horribly corrupt country, where the percentage of students who can enter medical studies in a government seat is less than 1%.
Somehow, by the grace of God alone, I got in.
And soon, in another 2 weeks, God willing, I will be entering my final year of medical school. What a crazy and wonderful journey life is.
Remember,
2025 is my year.
2025 I am โ โ โ โ free.
2025 I reclaim my masculinity.
I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me
Oh daymn, seems so soon 
, who am I to say that though I was trying to somehow pass 12 days streak, preparing for gate and I had already effed up in preparation for that yearโs gate exam, and now I have not watched โ โ โ โ since last yearโs Feb or March, I have been in the job, which I wanted to get in when I first started to prepare for GATE, for more than about 1 and a half year, and I am getting married in about 3 and a half months. . How the life has changed, definitely Godโs grace.
exactly brother 
I was thinking the same thing. Life definitely has its ups and downs but as long as we stay consistent and trust in God eventually things turn out for good, just have to keep working hard and trusting God. I remember when we first met you were still finishing bachelors I think, and I was preparing for NEET.
2025-01-21T18:30:00Z
Going good by Godโs grace.
This full week is holidays after the last week was theory exams, and next week we have practical exams. What I really enjoyed this week is that I can go back to my physical activities, both playing basketball and working out in the gym.
It feels amazing. My entire body is so sore, but itโs awesome, I havenโt felt like this in quite a while! Itโs so nice to have a few calm days where I can just hit the gym, get back slowly, prep breakfast and then meditate before getting to work rather than the rush for college.
Sometimes I still do get urges, especially when there are triggers that connect to my old life, such as names or people talking about sensual things etc. but I just commit my way to God and trust in Him.
And I donโt know if this is a real effect of no-โ โ โ โ but for me itโs true. My connections with people has greatly improved. Significantly. Iโm not sure why but Iโm definitely more outgoing nowadays.
Iโm happy with the improvement Iโm making but far from where I want to be. This year and the next are going to be critical for me so I canโt afford any lapses. I commit it all to Jesus who knows better than me.
Flame on
Nah, I had already passed out in 2019, I was at home preparing at that time
