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FaithfulWalker · December 11, 2024, 12:02am

IronWill: Still I Rise!

No matter how many times I fall, I will still rise

December 10, 2024 Tuesday

07:02 pm Eastern Standard Time

My Information

Day 23 of 90
NoFap Streak: 23 days
Stage 1: 0 to 90 Days
Challenge: 23/25 days
Badge: Defender

Psalms 119:50 (KJV) This is my comfort in my affliction: for thy word hath quickened me.

To: My Friends
From: Prayer_Warrior
Address: RC Forum

Hello my friends, I am doing well today. I had a wonderful day today nothing exciting though. Now as I mentioned last night I promised that I would share my second journal entry from my other journal. First I want to appreciate @Lord_Inosuke and @debellator for responding to my journal entry last night. Thank you for not judging me for my past. I know that my past was not pretty but I must move on to the next option. That option is to not look at my past but have hope for the future. Now the second entry of my previous journal.

Preachers Dreams (Autogynephilia Files) [38 M]

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September 11, 2024 Wednesday

Day 43

Okay I want to tell you more about me after age 16. In 2007 I joined the Navy and was released 5 months after. I thought during that time I could repress my thoughts. But around 3 months in the Navy I had those thoughts again. I got very angry at another sailor and almost committed suicide. I talked to a counselor during my time in the Navy, but I still didn’t tell them my situation.

So to go a little further in my life, I did sleep with a night gown that (of course) was a woman’s. I enjoyed sleeping in that for about a week. Then I threw it away. Then I bought a bra that fit me but I didn’t make any fake breast. I also bought panties that fit me as well. Then I did something that was also embarrassing I bought a dress (nothing fancy mind you) just a plain dress. Yes and also bought some pantyhose.

To began a little further I tried on these things behind closed doors. Then I knew something was missing. Then I went and bought a whole makeup kit and nail polish. Then I went home to try this again. Then something strange inside of me aroused me. I never did go out in public like this because I was embarrassed.

Then a little bit I further on I went to church and talked to a pastor about this (yes I finally spoke up about my problem). The pastor directed me to Deuteronomy 22:5 and then I understood what was going on inside of me. I went home that day and threw away all of my feminine clothes. I thought it was over.

Then a few years later back I was 32 it all started back over. (Mind you I supposed to have been a Christian since 1996.) so I bought everything again and started looking up sissy schools on the internet. I was excepted at one of the schools as Carrie Leatherwood and then I changed my mind. I seen the stuff that they do there and it grossed me out.

Now at age 36 I found Rewire companion forum and knew that this could help me. So I created a name that was close to my belief and it would have been Believe_100% but the forum wouldn’t accept the % symbol. So I went with Believe_100 that was close enough. Yes during that time at age 36 through 38 I have uninstalled this app several times. But when I got back to this app I found @user1234567890 and he help me along the way alot.

Well just wanted to let you know my life story. We are all caught up now and I haven’t thought about it for at least 43 days now.

God bless y’all and don’t give up hope. Keep fighting and know that our redeemer lives.

As you see my friends this is the deeper story beginning at the age of 16 up to this year. This completes the story of my life and I hope that it inspires other that life can throw a hard punch at some and a light punch at others. Now as I have said before be strong brothers because demons find a way to attack in any form or fashion. My demon has been dealt with so no problems there, but there is one demon still trying to make me fall and that is my imagination (I will tell that story later.) God bless y’all.

Motivational Quote

“We cannot solve problems with the kind of thinking we employed when we came up with them.”
—Albert Einstein

IronWill: Still I Rise!

The grace of our Lord Jesus Christ be with you. My love be with you all in Christ Jesus. Amen.