π™Žπ™ƒπ™„π™‰π™„π™‰π™‚ π™π˜Όπ™π™€β€™π™Ž π˜Ώπ™„π˜Όπ™π™” ✨

Day 12 :white_check_mark:


Meditation :x:
Work out :white_check_mark:
Studying :white_check_mark: (3 hours 34 minutes)

2 Likes

Day 13 :white_check_mark:


Meditation :white_check_mark: (9 minutes)
Work out :white_check_mark:
Studying :white_check_mark: (4 hours 9 minutes)

2 Likes

Day 14 :white_check_mark:
Now for studying I will use the Pareto law: 20% of the effort gives 80% of the result, and vice versa.
I plan to use it like this: in the evening of one day I will spend an hour or two superficially studying the topic / solving the task (I will get 80% of the result), and in the morning of the next day I will give it my all to get the remaining 20%.

2 Likes

Day 15 :white_check_mark:
It was a hard day for me, urges were very strong

2 Likes

I relapsed.
It was a good streak, but in the end I failed.
But I won’t give up. I promise that I will do everything to become stronger everyday.
I will leave this forum for a while, but I will return.
See ya

2 Likes

Surprise us! :muscle:

You can do it bro!

2 Likes

Thanks! Expect great results from me!

2 Likes

:sparkles:Day 6 :white_check_mark: :sparkles:

I’m back!

It was a tough month, but I can certainly say, that I improved myself. My emotion control is better, I’m more disciplined and my lifestyle is good. I’m ready to improve myself even more and leave all my bad habits in the past.

1 Like

:sparkles: Day 7 :white_check_mark: :sparkles:
There weren’t any urges today, I was too busy :sunglasses:

1 Like

I failed this nnn multiple times.
To be honest, I’m starting to lose hope. I feel really bad and feel like the damage I did to my brain is irreversible.
Even when I commit myself fully, I still fail. One bad day is enough for me to relapse. It is often like this: everything goes well, and then a bad day begins, and I fail. I try urge surfing, but it doesn’t help me. I try to do something productive, but either I can’t focus and, because of the frustration, relapse, or I manage to do something good, but the urge comes back and, again, I relapse.
Sounds really sad, right? But I’m still not going to give up. I will continue doing whatever it takes to defeat pmo.
When I’ll feel the urges, I’ll post about it in this diary. I will write how strong the urge is and what I plan to do to defeat it. I really hope that this approach will increase my mindfullness and help me to cope with every urge.

2 Likes

Day 5
Feeling intense urges right now.
I’ll try to calm down and be busy for the rest of the day.

2 Likes

:sparkles:Day 5 :white_check_mark: :sparkles:

2 Likes

Relapsed on day 7.
The only good things is that it was without p*rn.
But overall it sucks. I shouldn’t have done it. It was a waste of energy.

3 Likes

I read whole diary in one go :joy: this was intresting. Keep going shining_fate , we have fate in u :grin:

3 Likes

Bro, thank you! I really appreciate that!!!

3 Likes

I relapsed again, but it was the last time. This shit needs to be stopped asap, before it’s too late.

I always relapse whenever I feel like I don’t do anything with my life. This feeling creates the spiral of shame, which leads to me loosing control and relapse. I need to prevent it. I need to cultivate feeling of proudness within myself. Every single day.

This is why I decided to create a special routine for the next 21 days.
Everyday I will get up early and do some meaningful stuff: I plan to do exercising and then study for 2 hours. I believe this will set a positive mood for the rest of the day, which will help me to control my urges.
The rest of the day I can do whatever I want: maybe even watching a movie or playing a videogame. The most important thing is to do a meaningful morning routine in order to not to slip into a hole of guilt, shame and other negative thoughts.

For these 21 days I’m also abstaining from social media. The exception will be using YouTube for educational purposes, and maybe listening to the music there. The key point here is to stop mindless scrolling.

This is it guys. The final battle. I can’t afford to fail. I just can’t. If don’t stop this addiction now, it will only be harder to stop it later.

3 Likes

Day 1 :white_check_mark:


exercising :white_check_mark:
studying :white_check_mark:
no social media :white_check_mark:

4 Likes

Day 2 :white_check_mark:


exercising :white_check_mark:
studying :white_check_mark:
no social media :white_check_mark:

4 Likes

Day 3 :white_check_mark:


exercising :white_check_mark:
studying :white_check_mark:
no social media :white_check_mark:

3 Likes

Day 4 :white_check_mark:


exercising :white_check_mark:
studying :white_check_mark:
no social media :x:


Today I had almost nothing to do, and as a result, I used social media a bit. From now on I’ll try to fill every day with interesting activities in order to not waste time in social media.

5 Likes