Day 12
Meditation
Work out
Studying (3 hours 34 minutes)
Day 12
Meditation
Work out
Studying (3 hours 34 minutes)
Day 13
Meditation (9 minutes)
Work out
Studying (4 hours 9 minutes)
Day 14
Now for studying I will use the Pareto law: 20% of the effort gives 80% of the result, and vice versa.
I plan to use it like this: in the evening of one day I will spend an hour or two superficially studying the topic / solving the task (I will get 80% of the result), and in the morning of the next day I will give it my all to get the remaining 20%.
Day 15
It was a hard day for me, urges were very strong
I relapsed.
It was a good streak, but in the end I failed.
But I wonβt give up. I promise that I will do everything to become stronger everyday.
I will leave this forum for a while, but I will return.
See ya
Surprise us!
You can do it bro!
Thanks! Expect great results from me!
Day 6
Iβm back!
It was a tough month, but I can certainly say, that I improved myself. My emotion control is better, Iβm more disciplined and my lifestyle is good. Iβm ready to improve myself even more and leave all my bad habits in the past.
Day 7
There werenβt any urges today, I was too busy
I failed this nnn multiple times.
To be honest, Iβm starting to lose hope. I feel really bad and feel like the damage I did to my brain is irreversible.
Even when I commit myself fully, I still fail. One bad day is enough for me to relapse. It is often like this: everything goes well, and then a bad day begins, and I fail. I try urge surfing, but it doesnβt help me. I try to do something productive, but either I canβt focus and, because of the frustration, relapse, or I manage to do something good, but the urge comes back and, again, I relapse.
Sounds really sad, right? But Iβm still not going to give up. I will continue doing whatever it takes to defeat pmo.
When Iβll feel the urges, Iβll post about it in this diary. I will write how strong the urge is and what I plan to do to defeat it. I really hope that this approach will increase my mindfullness and help me to cope with every urge.
Day 5
Feeling intense urges right now.
Iβll try to calm down and be busy for the rest of the day.
Relapsed on day 7.
The only good things is that it was without p*rn.
But overall it sucks. I shouldnβt have done it. It was a waste of energy.
I read whole diary in one go this was intresting. Keep going shining_fate , we have fate in u
Bro, thank you! I really appreciate that!!!
I relapsed again, but it was the last time. This shit needs to be stopped asap, before itβs too late.
I always relapse whenever I feel like I donβt do anything with my life. This feeling creates the spiral of shame, which leads to me loosing control and relapse. I need to prevent it. I need to cultivate feeling of proudness within myself. Every single day.
This is why I decided to create a special routine for the next 21 days.
Everyday I will get up early and do some meaningful stuff: I plan to do exercising and then study for 2 hours. I believe this will set a positive mood for the rest of the day, which will help me to control my urges.
The rest of the day I can do whatever I want: maybe even watching a movie or playing a videogame. The most important thing is to do a meaningful morning routine in order to not to slip into a hole of guilt, shame and other negative thoughts.
For these 21 days Iβm also abstaining from social media. The exception will be using YouTube for educational purposes, and maybe listening to the music there. The key point here is to stop mindless scrolling.
This is it guys. The final battle. I canβt afford to fail. I just canβt. If donβt stop this addiction now, it will only be harder to stop it later.
Day 1
exercising
studying
no social media
Day 2
exercising
studying
no social media
Day 3
exercising
studying
no social media
Day 4
exercising
studying
no social media
Today I had almost nothing to do, and as a result, I used social media a bit. From now on Iβll try to fill every day with interesting activities in order to not waste time in social media.