Yeah doctor
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True. These days are quite a dark moments for me. Fight club is like must watch movie especially for men.
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Iโve been planning to update like 5-6 times about the things I feel after joining Mtech. But I always discard my post in middle. But if I dont update right now , things will get a lot catastrophic.
I am not gonna mention what I feel right now , Because that doesnt matter. The only thing that matter is a logical solution. I remember during my last exams of my B.tech days where I used to update my habits on a regular basis. I was an absolute beast that time.
I gonna do that the same here. For a few days , I was writing my goals on Kainaatโs diary , But I came to realise I also need some self reflection (which I dont thinks its a good idea to pour on someone elseโs diary ) like the earlier entries of Samaranjayโs diary . He was a productive beast that time. This is something I notice , A person who are good at updating his diary with his goals on a regular basis along with few lines of self reflection are productive in real life. Its when u stop your entries , things get worse ( I am generally speaking , there are situations were this is not true )
Tiger , Samaranjay (earlier ) , Awaken one , Warrior_ish , Brahmachary are some of the notable ones ( There are many more , forgive me if I forget any ) . I gonna do the same again.
Why this post ? This is my official declaration that I gonna post my goals and few sentences of self reflection till the End of August.
THE FINAL OPERATION TO RETAKE WALL M.TECH WILL NOW COMMENCE !!
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15 AUGUST 2024
Streak - 36 Days
Badge - Army Commander
GOALS *
Look for Device Physics Notes
If no notes present , Make one
Apply for Railways Exam
Attend 9.30 GMeet
Complete 3rd Experiment of Verilog
Look for Deadlines at Moodle
Call 2 people to get ideas associated with Raspberry Pi
DEADLINES *
None
SELF REFLECTION*
None for now
ALWAYS THANK GOD FOR EVERYTHING. 13 DAYS TO GO !!!
*Subjected to change
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Gratitude is Amazing things
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Unnal mudiyum thambi. U can do it.
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Tamil ah ? Happy to see a lot of Tamil friends here. Romba Nandri Anna 
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Vanakkam na
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16 AUGUST 2024
Streak - 36 Days
Badge - Army Commander
GOALS *
Complete 3rd Experiment of Verilog
Look for Deadlines at Moodle
Soak Chia Seeds
Study Introductory Slides of Device Physics
Study Device Physics Module 4
Workout
Go to Gym though bicycle
Meditation
DEADLINES *
None
SELF REFLECTION*
Every time , irrespective of whether I am productive or not , I feel like an absolute trash at the end of the day. Also my anger has increased alot. I am a passive aggressive man in real life , But now it gets converted to active aggression.
Its probably because of I am fed of the trash feel I am getting despite working hard. Yesterday completed 5 / 7 tasks which is decent considering I started my work on evening.
My relation with my mom is getting worse because of this active aggression.
Also Idk but Iโll try to wake up at 4 am despite sleeping near to 11 pm today. Will take a short nap from 1.15 pm to 2 pm.
8.20 AM
I am very scared of going to college.
ALWAYS THANK GOD FOR EVERYTHING. 12 DAYS TO GO !!!
*Subjected to change
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You are right Because i also stuck in this issue
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the angry man is controlled by the man who has controlled his angerGreat lesson to learn
Thanks brother
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I am not physically dead yet. As long as I am still alive , Iโll keep up with this word even if I feel like an absolute trash.
I was planning to write a long rant here but that doesnโt matter. Iโll make it short. Iโll keep moving forward.
I have 11 days remaining. I must give my full potential. God has destined to make my life trash , And I reached a state where I started to accept that. I have been fighting against my own belief system for long. But now I reached a stage where I stopped fighting.
This doesnโt mean Iโve given up. Its just that I am going to fight in a different way. I would like to apologise to @kainaat since I think I was responsible for you to close the diary. I think I am the one who started with those informal talks. Why I take this seriously is that it was a good chance to make my life better.
One of the things I notice is that my performance generally skyrockets when I have an accountability patner. Now I have pissed her off , I thinks its better I fight this battle alone ( I am not at all overthinking when I say this , My brain is still in a logical thinking mode . Its just that I feel bad for losing an opportunity to make my life better )
Thats enough of my rant. Will update the timetable soon.
Erwin with his comrades stood on the peak of Wall Maria. People cheering him for the first time in his life. Erwin raised his hand to show support to his people
Erwin got on his horse with eyes filled with proclaimed victory
Shinzo Wo Sasegayo
PS - I kindly request you to refrain from conversation here for next 11 days. This is my personal battle and I want to fully dedicate myself with that. Feel free to reach out to me through dms.
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17 AUGUST
Streak - 38 Days
Badge - Army Commander
GOALS
Complete an Internship test
Discuss Project Ideas through Google Meet
SELF REFLECTION
Thats all I am planning for now today from productivity point of veiw . Will wake up at 4 am tomorrow.
SHINZO WO SASEGAYO
PS - I kindly request you to refrain from conversation here for next 11 days. This is my personal battle and I want to fully dedicate myself with that. Feel free to reach out to me through dms.
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18 AUGUST
Streak - 39 Days
Badge - Army Commander
GOALS
Study Introductory topics of Device Physics
Soak Chia Seeds
Study Module 4 of Device Physics
Meditation
Complete Advanced Embedded System Module 1
Complete Integrated Circuit , Introductory slides
Soak Chia Seeds
SELF REFLECTION
9.40 pm
There are lot more goals to complete tomorrow. Iโll update that soon 
10.30 pm
Dammit , I cant sleep. I ate so badly today that I kinda experience stomach ache. In these situations , I generally watch useless yt videos. But not now. Iโm gonna study what I was planning tomorrow and continue it till I feel asleep.
I may not wake up at 4 am considering this situation. But still this is an absolute win.
12.40 am
Completed the Introductory Session of Device Physics. Stomach ache reduced. Let me try to sleep now. If I cant sleep , Iโll continue again
9.30 am
Will start studying now. I will be eating breakfast in parallel,
12.15 pm
Completed half of Module 4 topics. Will take a small rest and start on 1 PM.
3.30 PM
Completed 80 percent of work. Will continue from 4,15 pm onwards
5.15 PM
Man I slacked a lil bit. I spent a lot of time singing . Coming back on track.
6.30 PM
Completed 4th Module of Device Physics. Will start on 7.30 PM
ADVANCE GODDAMMIT , VICTORY IS RIGHT IN FRONT OF YOU. DO NOT FALTER !!
SHINZO WO SASEGAYO
PS - I kindly request you to refrain from conversation here for next 11 days. This is my personal battle and I want to fully dedicate myself with that. Feel free to reach out to me through dms.
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Malayali aada๐from malappuram
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19 AUGUST
Streak - 40 Days
Badge - Champion
GOALS
Complete Advanced Embedded System Module 1
Completed Integrated Circuits Module 1
Meditation
SELF REFLECTION
11 PM
Did Meditation today after a week gap. I think its necessary to control my anger and to have a better self reflection. I was fighting with my own willpower for like 20 - 30 minutes to get into this habit today.
12.30 AM
Damn , When I got over PMO addiction , I got another one. Music , Both Listening and Singing. Its a healthier addiction but when it interferes with your productivity and sleep , It piss me off. Need to find better ways to manage it. No more procrastination. Sleep now !!
Planning to wake up between 5 - 5.30 AM
7.30 pm
Late update because of college work and all. During weekends everything is quite smooth by Godโs grace. Its during weekends that require frequent updates to come back on track.
So reached home . Had a talk with my mom . She is suffering a lot mentally. And my father too in a different angle. I must be a shoulder to them. For that I need to be happy first.
Anyway my main purpose of this to keep myself on track regarding studies. Iโll probably update by 9.30 pm or if I complete Embedded Systems Module 1.
SHINZO WO SASEGAYO
PS - I kindly request you to refrain from conversation here for next 11 days. This is my personal battle and I want to fully dedicate myself with that. Feel free to reach out to me through dms.
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20 AUGUST
Streak - 40 Days
Badge - Champion
GOALS
Completed Advanced Embedded System Module 1
Meditation
Soak Chia Seeds
Complete Moore Law Analysis ( 50 percent completed )
Submit Advanced Embedded System Project
Complete Neural Network Assignment
SELF REFLECTION
12.50 AM
There are lot of things that I think I need to address a while ago. But Iโll address it later if that thought process is haunting me again. I want to sleep so planning to update in brief for the time being.
Also now I am thinking of becoming a night owl than an early bird since I think it would make me more productive wrt academics. But in such cases I need to go to gym in evening. But the energy you get after going to gym in the morning hits different man.
But exams are approaching , so I need to be night owl these days. Lets see.
Good night 
8.15 AM
This update is just to push myself to study for next 45 minutes. Thats it
SHINZO WO SASEGAYO
PS - I kindly request you to refrain from conversation here for next 11 days. This is my personal battle and I want to fully dedicate myself with that. Feel free to reach out to me through dms.
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Self Reflection
First of all , I have still not given up with my word. I am not dead and as long as I am not dead , Iโll keep up with this word even if I fail in real life.
I am going to tell one thing I noticed , From a productivity point of veiw , Too much happiness is also not good for you. Its not about suppressing the emotions because it can backfire you. Motivate yourself when ur down , but keep yourself in control when your are happy. Too much happiness is also not good. It makes a complacent , It makes you forget the shit youโve gone through which leads you to repititive mistakes . I noticed this thought process when @CoffeeMan mentioned that in his diary. Amnesia of what happened to you earlier.
I think its also applicable to your PMO journey. Instead of focusing on streaks , taking care of your emotions. Strike a balance between happy and sad. Notice you relapse only when you either too happy to get complacent or too sad to see some hope.
Frequently ask yourself what is your current mood right now . Motivate yourself if you are sad and demotivate yourself if you are happy. If you observe carefully , when you demotivate yourself when you too happy , Youโll reach a state where u are kind of in a balance. Keep at that point.
That means never say bad about yourself when you have a bad mood. Say yourself to control when you have a happy mood.
When I say balance I am not saying to keep a poker face like Ayanokji , L from death note , saitama etc. Its also unhealthy . Iโve tried that.
Iโve reached 100 + streaks 4 -5 times and I away from hardcore P for like one year. I am a vegetarian for 5.5 years after a hardcore non vegetarian now ( I dont want a veg vs non debate here , I just said that I gave up a thing I like in general which I see as an acheivement ) , I stopped playing video games for like 3 - 4 months now. Now why am I flexing myself ? I just want to say that I wont give advice out of the blue. Its these things I tried for myself. All these things require a good amount of willpower. I never give advice associated with relationships because I never had a gf in my life.
PMO , video games , junk food , alchohol and not problems. They are symptoms to the main problem. The main problem is poor mental health or inability to manage your emotions wisely
You ask every men who have failed after 100+ streak , They did not just gave in to a random horny thought they had at that moment.It was the inabilty to manage your emotions well which gets piled up over time till there is no point of return.
Trust me , This is such an underrated habit. I belive this is the reason that makes a man on No fap successful more than making you more masculine , rock hard private part , sex pheromones and other benefits u see on the internet. The ability to move forward in all kinds of emotions.
You see your role models out there. They all have this trait. They might show aggression during their victory but that would be temporary. Their dont show that poker face like people percieve as " cool characters " in anime. If you look closely , there is a sense of grace in their face during in that neutral state.
So thats all I want to say today. I am not in a good mental health to debate with you if you have an opposing thought from what Iโve said. When I say this , this is also an advice to myself so that I wont lose track like these.
Iโll update my habits soon.
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20 AUGUST
Streak - 42 Days
Badge - Champion
GOALS
Workout
SELF REFLECTION
6.00 pm
I will add habits soon
8.30 pm
2 important decisions I gonna take .
Decision 1 : Iโm gonna divide my diary into Habits and Goals. Till now it was like overlapped so I sometimes forget my habits on a regular basis.
Decision 2 : I brought a pocket diary. Iโll do my self reflection there. Important decisions like these or Summary of my day will be mentioned here. Iโll probably update the diary here at the end of the day unlike me who frequently edit this post more often.
SHINZO WO SASEGAYO
PS - I kindly request you to refrain from conversation here for next 11 days. This is my personal battle and I want to fully dedicate myself with that. Feel free to reach out to me through dms.
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