I used to write Feb 9 in general a few years back. But my mom used to get pissed off by it telling its wrong format . But still Feb 9 looks cool tho .
But everytime I write in that format , it get an inner voice of mom shouting at me .
I used to write Feb 9 in general a few years back. But my mom used to get pissed off by it telling its wrong format . But still Feb 9 looks cool tho .
But everytime I write in that format , it get an inner voice of mom shouting at me .
Thatโs cool
16 FEBRUARY
Goals
Workout
Pranayama
Meditation
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Journal
8 : 30 AM
Woohoo ! All the exams over atleast temporarily. Next exam can be expected at the end of the Month.
Our IV spot changed from Goa to Coorg ( Tourist place in Karnataka ) . People say the weather of Goa now is trash. Also our seniors who visited Goa this month a year ago experienced Diarrhea and food related illness. So Coorg then . Iโve already visited that place some months ago. So I know the tourist spots there in general . But I believe trip with classmates would be different in general.
My beard has been growing like an Amazon rainforest for past few days. My parents told me to clean shave since I have to take a passport photo. Now I look like a gigantic man with a baby face
After the exam got over , I got notified by my professor that my activity points are low. So need to do courses to boost my CV.
Also planning to join BYJU classes for GATE 2025. Our college from Mathematics Department provides tuition for GATE too. So thinking in that direction.
I got cold , headache and body pain for the screwed up lifestyle for the past few days. My sleep was not good yesterday. I slept early like 9 PM but didnโt get sleep properly associated with illness.
Woke up at 5 AM. Went to Gym. My performance was not good. I experience explosive headache when I did weightlifting like Chest press etc. Also its been a few days I went to the Gym. Iโve lost that flow . Anyway replaced weightlifting with light cardio like cross fit , bicycle , inclined cycle and rowers.
So yeah , Thatโs my update for today. Planning to leave college after lunch to take Passport photo
Coorg is a actually nice place. Goa is also nice, but the current weather is very challenging. Goa is nice for Nov, Dec and Early Jan.
Typical Indian family dialogue
17 FEBRUARY
Goals
Workout
Pranayama
Meditation
Bring the Medical certificate to college
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Journal
4 : 45 PM
Ok so continuation . Reached the passport office did all the formal stuffs there. After that reached home. By Mom showed her childhood certificate boasting how much studious student she was and why she gave birth to a crap like me ( In a joking way )
Then I had with her a 2 hour long chat regarding life in general. But turns out , me and my mom have a lot of in common regarding our mindset. The only thing we are different is that she is super Studious and I am ? Eh ? Not that much !! ( Got that skill from Dad I guess )
Then a perfect chill day . Chatted with RC bros and talked some strange stuffs. And I slept at 1 AM just scrolling YT. I need to control that.
Since I slept late , I didnโt have stamina to wake up early. So planning to Workout after college.
I forgot to bring that fake medical certificate to college. It must be done asap otherwise Iโll lose attendance. Then basic stuffs , college lectures , project work , Sleeping during free period etc.
So yeah , on my way to home now travelling in a van rn. My next plan is to get my workout clothes ready and head to gym once I reach home.
9 : 30 PM
Just a small update I would like to make. After the exam my mind has gone blank. Like nothing to look upon. Just introspected for a few moments. I have two works I can do right now.
Apply BYJU Gate Course - Obviously Byju is a good choice . But the thing is it cost like 44000 INR till next gate 2025. Its a decent fee but its still its a high fee for a middle class family like me . I need to enquire more about this. There is a women in our class who have joined this thing . I need to ask her more regarding this like how is it , is registration closed etc. But the thing , I am not much in company with her. Ideally it would be best if I contact her thru whatsapp and get more info. Otherwise I will meet her in person on Monday. But I will choose the former one. Suits well with my introverted vibe
S8 Topics - This is simple , I have to start studying on a daily basis. My mind gives me some random excuse to prevent that. Need to stop it.
I dont have her number. I ask her boyfriend for her no and told him its for discussing GATE. He said she dont like sharing noโs and suggested me to talk in person. Is that a real reason or he is just being possessive ? Idk . I want no problems . Hence Iโll talk in person on Monday.
Only 7 days to go for entering 90s zone.We are waiting for you.
Bro got balls of steel.
I guess her boyfriend might be somewhere camouflaged in the environment so be careful.
F 90s. Me, @ncubeanelem @RiftCha waiting for you to enter the century zone.
Let us be 4 now, instead of 3
Yeah we need to make our team heavier.More people the better
19 FEBRUARY
Goals
Workout
Pranayama
Meditation
Bring the Medical certificate to college
Complete App Building Course of MATLAB
Ask that women regarding GATE stuffs
Iron clothes
Apply Spray before college
Apply Deodorant before college
Register for BYJU Classes
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Journal
8 AM
Before I continue with my regular update , I must accept I am going on a downward spiral these days. Tho I was happy after finishing all exams 1.5 months straight , I lack purpose. And what does a man with lack of purpose do ? He distracts himself with pleasure.
There are times I had urges to peek but I remember debellator words " Start over or stop peeking ". I hate to start over. Iโve said , If I peek I more time , Iโll reset.
Saw 2 movies with family. Completed a course on MATLAB which is related to Machine Learning .
Earlier Iโve set only like 3 goals to myself. Now I am increasing that.
So yeah , Thatโs my update for today.
nice. good progress
man I remember that. I hated learning it for enginnering.
Me too . I am just doing it to boost my CV
Engineering ? You mean u dropped it and joined the med ?
No bro. During my NEET counselling, there was 6 months delay in results. Bad administration by NTA. Hence even though I wrote the exam well I wasnโt sure about college. Cause results havenโt come out yet.
I got just enough marks to get govt seat but at that time I wasnโt sure about it. Till results came, by Godโs grace.
Since half a year was free my parents said join engineering just in case. I got into VIT Vellore via their entrance exam for computer science. Did 2 sems hated it so happy to be able to study medicine
2 sems in 6 months ? Not sure of vellore scheme since its an autonomous college but in general it takes a year to complete 2 sems.
Or you dropped it when you just reached 2nd sem ?
Yes. Got confused.
I left my seat when medical counselling began. Which took around half a year.
20 FEBRUARY
Goals
Workout
Pranayama
Meditation
Iron clothes
Apply Deodorant before college
Complete Introduction Topic of IOT
Complete Classification of IOT
Buy a new spray
Buy a new set of Earphones
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Journal
8 AM
Not a good day , But better than yesterday. Sometimes I just go to a Kabir Singh ( Hindi Movie ) mode when I am angry and do some stupid things.
I was going very well till evening. All the ticks in my goals yesterday was completed before night. Then I just slept too early. Then woke up like 11 PM , then scrolled random things in phone till 12.30 AM. Then slept again. Didnโt go to the gym today morning. I admit my pure Laziness.
This is where my Kabir Singh mode turned on. My mom was like shouting at me to go to the gym. I jumped up from the bed. Generally I do pick up my dad to go to the gym.
This time I didnโt , I didnโt even ask if he is coming with me or not. I took my bike drove at high speed. Reached gym. Stared at the gym outside 10 minutes straight and came back to home. My mom asked why I reached home so early . I didnโt reply
I admit , the actions Ive done cannot be justified by any means. I just get dumbfuck sometimes. This happens when I am really angry. I reflected upon this for a moment. The thing is I was really pissed off by myself , It was just that my mom shouting was just a trigger to burst out all my anger. But I cant get angry at my mom. She have some BP issues. So Ive released my anger in this way.
I said sorry to her later. Downloaded Digital Detox app again and did all the stuffs so that loopholes of the app can be removed .
Appreciate that you reflected yourself and said sorry to mom, we all have shortcomings and you are brave to acknowledge and correct it
Damn, this is an interesting goal.
One day @Binocular was also doing that when he used to be Sharbat Singh.
Press clothes (เคชเฅเคฐเฅเคธเฅ เคเฅเคฒเฅเคฆเฅเคธ) is a better phrase.
Still remember that