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debellatorโ€™s Self Improvement Diary

About me

Medical student | College athelete | Musician and author
Christian :latin_cross:
Profile Pic is AI generated image of Baldwin IV
Username is Latin for conquerer


Challenge of the month

  • JUNE : Researcher (complete submission of my first research paper)

I have moved old entries to another thread to mark the new year
Thanks- to everyone who guided and helped me
moving onward to keep improving myself

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Day 1 (tomorrow)

5 am Wake up, freshen up and Quiet Time
5:45 -7:15 am 90 minutes of early morning deep work not on digital devices except for lectures
7:15 - 4 pm University
5-7:00 pm 2 hours deep work at library
7:30-8:30 Cool down and dinner
8:30- 9:30 Plan for tomorrow/check-in/talk to parents and sleep

Goals:
Medicine videos :
Hematology- Intro, Basic approach, IDA, Management of DM
ENT- Clinical anatomy and diseases of septum

I donโ€™t know if I will succeed this time. But I will try again and again till I succeed.

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I donโ€™t see workout or basketball in the routine, nearing exams?

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Damn, where are the other replies?

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just finished basketball tournament so taking rest. Have another tournament coming up soon but before that I need a little break. Planning to re-start gym from May 2nd/3rd though.

archived them

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Moderator hacks

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Oh cool cool.
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Today was a good day. Didnโ€™t get a lot done but got a decent amount of work done. Yesterday I met all my goals so that was good.

Tomorrow is a holiday, so no college. No real goals for tomorrow except:

  1. Complete laundry pending and clean up my room
  2. Complete my next chapter Iโ€™m writing in case I donโ€™t finish it today

The reason I donโ€™t have any other goals is because I have a church picnic tomorrow so will be going for that.

Faced several urges today but beat them with Godโ€™s grace.

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:joy::joy: almost forgot about this Jakeโ€™s dialogue.

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improvements I will implement from tomorrow onwards:

  1. ensure I wake up an extra half-hour early even if I lose sleep so that I get adequate time to spend talking to God; whenever I fall itโ€™s always been on a day that Iโ€™ve not made time to spend with God in the morning
  2. completely avoid high dopamine games especially online games at least until day 21 because my dopamine receptors are not completely fine yet
  3. be disciplined about doing some form of physical exercise at least once every two days

I will rejoin the gym in the end of may. till then I have basketball tournament as well as some other cultural competitions going on so will be busy with that.
need to complete some research work as well.

for the remainder of today, my goals are simple:

  1. complete and set up the new chapter Iโ€™m working on
  2. sleep by 9:30/10 pm so I can start tomorrow early

thatโ€™s it.

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Happiest birthday brother. Keep grinding keep hustling :muscle:
May God bless you and you Stay happy and healthy.

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Oooh happy birthday brother. May this year be full of challenges that makes you stronger and better and happier. You are not just the secret guardian of the forum, youโ€™re part of this big family. Letโ€™s end this addiction once and for all :fist_right::fist_left:

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your wishes are greatly appreciated @Brahmchary @Binocular
thank you for the same.

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Day 2

Iโ€™d gone around 16 days clean, then fell. Not sure of the reason why, perhaps it was just a weak moment. As in, no real triggers, or fights or anything. I mean there were some, but Iโ€™d overcome enough of them before. Perhaps it was just a bad day.

Anyways, a lot of my extra-curriculars are done; dominated in all of them. The good thing about them is that they divert energy. Lost weight due to constant running up and down, I was extremely busy and that had helped me jumpstart a good streak.

Now the only major upcoming thing other than my exams is probably the State basketball tournament but thatโ€™s only in July. Iโ€™ll do vigorous practise for that closer to the tournament, but for now Iโ€™ve rejoined the gym, went today morning as well and it was good to be back.

Not going to the gym tomorrow, have an exam.

Itโ€™s raining almost daily here so the motivation part will be hard. Cause Iโ€™ve to walk to the gym which means if it rains I will get drenched even with un umbrella, but hey, itโ€™s part of the process.

Another thing Iโ€™ve noticed in all my streaks more than 2 weeks is that my voice gets deeper. Itโ€™s a nice change I wish to maintain.

I will be honest, some days I do feel lonely (especially after relapsing) and wonder when I will find the right person for me. I just remember to be patient and keep working on myself. I trust in God and the right person will come into my life eventually. Until then, Iโ€™ve got to work on myself, to be a better person.

I feel a lot better though. With regards to my PMO. Before, Iโ€™d definitely be binging especially given the current situation (stress+moody weather+ more free time). But I find it disgusting and even when relapsing I was wondering what I was doing and I DONโ€™T WANT TO EVER GO BACK.

Keep improving. I may not be where I want to be yet, but Iโ€™m definitely closer than yesterday.

Finally King Baldwin edits are back btw :laughing:

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My testosterone is pretty high. Lots of attraction to girls which I used to not really be bothered by before. Lost lots of fat, more lean muscle now, which may have a role in it (fat loss increases testosterone production). Also deeper voice.

New PR for shoulder shrugs today. 100kg. I know I can lift heavier than that but it was my last workout for the day and I wasnโ€™t trying to go over the limit. Suddenly have interest in developing a good back lol. Improving my current back I mean.

The area I can improve most in is chest though. For me. The rest is pretty good, I want to work on my chest more. Iโ€™m spamming incline bench presses and dumbell presses, hopefully that helps.

Urges were there today, beat them with Godโ€™s help.

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What is PR here?

High time to confess

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Itโ€™s a gym term. PR = Personal Record

Huh?? :eyes:

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Jk. But I am serious. If you are in that phase of your life where you can afford to spend some time on gf and if you know someone whoโ€™s right for you, you can approach her.

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that doesnโ€™t have anything to do with him confessing or telling that here :joy:

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nah. I want to be earning at least before seriously considering it. I personally donโ€™t think men should think about caring and responsibility for others without even being able to take care of themselves. Iโ€™d rather spend money on my girl thatโ€™s my money, not my parents. Another thing that is along the same lines is that my parents have advised me not to date for another 2-3 years. At least till I finish undergrad. Because they say by then Iโ€™ll be more emotionally mature and able to understand people better.

There were a couple of girls Iโ€™ve found cute who recently hit on me, and the relapse also gave me a moment of weakness but thatโ€™s natural. God made man to be partners with others, thereโ€™s a reason weโ€™re wired this way. Just need to wait for the right time.

Gotta lock in. wasted too much time this week.

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