Bro…you read Bhagvad Gita daily…and now your words are like Arjun before the battle…
I think you should read Chap 2 with focus…
BG 18.14-16 has your answers…
There are many factors causing things to happen…
So I understand you are sad…depressed…but what are you doing about it…
Did you ever reward yourself for your efforts?
Even if you work like a machine, you are still a human with emotions…
So every work needs a reward…all animals work that way…
So apart from routine…do something you genuinely enjoy…and if you have nothing like that, spend some time in Nature…we are bound to Nature…so it will feel good!
Why are you judging 50-1L as small job?
See that’s where you are going wrong…
Dream doesn’t necessarily correlate to money…
Its not wrong to be rich…but your direction of thinking is not correct…
There are lots of people…earning less than you mentioned…and more peaceful than us!
Also…ask yourself this question…why are you doing all this?
For whom are you doing this?
Is it for happiness, peace, money, family, the caring girl…?
If you are not happy in your journey…you won’t be able to get happy in your destination as well…
What is the definition of this?..
What’s wrong in getting excited?..
If you are referring to sexual thoughts…can you really control your thoughts?
Is your mind in your control…that you can get no sexual thoughts…
Its not in your hands…what you can do is…let the thoughts be…just don’t heed them…
Become human my friend, you can’t work like a machine forever…reward yourself appropriately…otherwise you will indulge in PMO like a machine…
Take care bro…get some rest and bounce back to work!
Also focus on your journey, not the destination…
Its better to be process oriented than being result oriented…coz we have limitations in predicting results or the future…
Always thank God for everything!!
Hare Krishna!
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, I am aiming to reach this level one day.