Today i fell and fapped again 
whereas i almost broke my short streak record.
but maybe because i was doing well until this point, i just forgive myself and don’t feel a negative emotional effect and think like “okay, let’s try again. i can do this”
but the urges came on stronger after that, so i fell again about 2 hours later after that. it shows how one mistake can be dangerous. i’ll write my journey from now on as my attempt to rise and fight againts the urges that will come soon again (maybe you guys called it chaser effect)
i hope this journal can make me more capable of helping myself against the addiction and become renascent. please watch me guys, i need your support.