I will use this diary to document every step of my NoFap journey. I am currently on Day 3.
Good luck and stay stromg💪🏾
Day 4- Today was another day full of guilt from past mistakes. I am very impatient. I would like to be at a longer streak already, but this is the price to pay for a relapse. I think my current resolve is strong enough that I can manage a longer streak. My strategy will be to grow closer to the LORD. I think that is the best strategy to approach this matter. I think with Him by my side, I can defeat anything. The most important thing to do here is to solidify my bond with Him. I need to continue growing closer to the LORD and stop letting this guilt consume me. I am a new creation in Him. I am no longer the old me.
Yeah dude , don’t let the frustration take place in your heart!! Read my story about my first month
Forgot to journal yesterday. I went to my class and then did the homework I had left. It was a pretty uneventful day though.
For today I did more. I was out of the house a bit with my family. I do plan to use the remaining free time to rest a bit. I also have some homework I could be doing but sometimes we all need a little rest you know? I am doing better on the guilt. I realize that I can’t change who I was in the past but I can become a new person starting today. Today is day 6 and I don’t plan on relapsing at all.
I had some awful urges. I cast them out in the name of the LORD and rebuked Satan and now I am at peace. Jesus is the answer whenever I feel down or tempted. Fight Satan with the blood of Jesus. Never stop believing in His power. At that point, I thought the urge would never go away and I would be stuck with the guilt, but Jesus casts it all out. Thank you LORD!
Day 7- I hit a week today. I do not intend on looking back. This is a streak I want to keep forever. However the days feel slow at times. I really want to go a year without fapping. I want to experience healing from this addiction. I am still working on removing the guilt. I know Jesus has forgiven my sins and I should not continue feeling this way. It’s just that it upsets me that I was this person in the past.
I know that feeling. I feel like a fool for not knowing any better. Just seeing myself in all those humiliating memories.
I once went to the market with my mom, stayed behind in the parking lot, and masturbated to porn using my ipod nano. I’m happy you’re attempting to leave the madness behind.
Just want to tell you that Jesus forgave us when He was on the cross, but we need to forgive ourselves as well for Him to work in our lives fully.
If we don’t sleep with the woman we have feelings for her it’s all fake, we need to ask that woman from God sometimes.
Day 8- I did nothing today TBH. I went to a review session for my final exam and then just chilled. I posted on NoFap forums. I enjoy motivating people going through this struggle while being on the journey myself.
Day 9- I prepared for my exam pretty much for the whole day. I hit ten days tomorrow. Hoping to never fap again in my life or watch porn.