Little bit of back story, I’m a 10th grader who made the terrible mistake of visiting a ■■■■ website while I was in 5th. I was around 6th grade the first time I ever beat it. To be honest I’m mad as hell, not at myself back then for following through with it, but with myself now for not having done anything about it up until this point.
This whole thing was my downhill. I’m barely able to feel emotion, I haven’t cried in a long time. I looked at jerking off as my way out when in reality it’s what was keeping me trapped.
I recently got a girlfriend, which surprised me as much as the next person and I feel like jerking off to other women real or animated, 3D or 2D is huge way to disrespect her, heck I wouldn’t even jerk of to her because of how much she means to me. A wonderful person really, doesn’t use substances at all and from what she has told me I’m her first ever boyfriend. If I keep living this lifestyle I might end up losing her and myself overtime.
I downloaded this app on the 5th and I’ve relapsed 3 times already. But today was the last time, I’m fucking done.
As determined, motivated and desperate I am to quit I now turn to the community. If anyone can help me with finding a good but easy on the wallet site blocker or a way to block terms that are even remotely ■■■■ related, please let me know. Any advice would also be greatly appreciated.
This is OFFICIALLY DAY ONE.
