“Forsake the flesh, let desire wither and die.
Embrace the void, let your spirit soar high.
Like Mahoraga, adapt, evolve, transcend.
Shatter the chains of the mortal world, ascend.”
“Purge your mind of earthly desires, let purity reside.
In the stillness of the soul, let true power abide.
Temptation’s whispers, a fleeting dream,
Seek enlightenment, a cosmic supreme.”
“The path to divinity, a solitary quest.
Sacrifice the self, for the ultimate test.
Conquer the darkness within, let the light ignite.
Rise above the mundane, claim your divine right.”
“Like Mahoraga’s wheel, turn endlessly,
Unbound by limitations, eternally free.
In the crucible of suffering, forge your destiny,
A divine being, eternal and mighty.”
I never want to be complacent again. I don’t want to take my freedom for granted because it is an opportunity that is quickly fading away. I must work for my freedom; fight for it in my every waking moment. It’s strange that i don’t appreciate how far I’ve come considering how it was so difficult for 6 months to get back on track and maintain discipline for a sustained period. Maybe I’ve focussed too much on the benefits that are associated with external approval and material gain. I must not base my self-worth on what comes from without, but i must base it on what comes from within. I remind myself now how blessed I am for how far I’ve come.
Thanks a lot for your kind words and encouragement, brother. I’m still happy about the progress I’ve made so far. I might have lost the challenge, but I haven’t lost the hope within me. I’ll keep moving forward with this new perspective I’ve gained. Wishing all the best to the rest of the warriors on their journey!
It is not the outer storm which has buried your peace but the inner ones. And the greatest step is found when one realises that these storms are created by ourselves.
There is an inner conflict going on in ourselves. The enemy lurks within, in the form of greed, anger, hatred, jealousy, ignorance, comparison, lust etc. If we are mindful, aware and awake, we can be liberated just here and now.
Let’s keep fighting for our freedom guys, even if it means we have to come out of this addiction bruised and dirt smeared. Things are far from going smoothly: the desire to PMO has been growing and the last few days have been more of a struggle with comfort-seeking thoughts and urges than usual. I feel like I’ve sown seeds of doubt or made dirty an otherwise clean streak. But maybe i shouldn’t seek perfection. Maybe what we need is to accept the inevitable struggle that comes with pursuing progress.
We are slowly conquering the challenge. It is after a whole year I have crossed the mark of 20 days fully clean, thanks to this challenge and the community’s continuous help. We are still failing after long streaks, what are the reasons we are relapsing. We need to find those. It’d be great if yall who relapsed share the reasons and thoughts that ultimately lead you to reapse. Also, all who are still in the streak share the benefits and positivities you are feeling because of the abstinence.
I’m getting fun from simple activities like watching movies, reading novels, taking walks and my emotions are deeper than in my zombie phase of continuous relapsing. I didn’t even have minimum amount of dopamine from these activities then. I actively did home workout and loved all the sessions of it throughout the streak until my sinusitis sickness. I’m looking forward to starting it again.
Thanks for inviting me and sorry i was away for a while.
hope everyone here is going strong.
I havent fully overcome my addictions but i have grown a lot stronger
im happy but not yet satisfied
Stay strong brothers…
