The wonders of doing this challenge are absolutely real. I am a witness to the benefits it brings to you as a person. I discovered this concept in 2018 when I believed pornography and masturbation is something you simply cannot avoid as it drives you crazy without doing it. I never thought of this as an addiction that changes a person completely up until that point.
Through the end of 18’ I made it to 4 months clean and just couldn’t believe ridding this addiction would change me this much for the good. My focus was sharp like it had never been before, my confidence in myself was strong like never before. I stopped caring about losing at things & losing people because the toughness of this journey teaches you that. Focus on doing the job right rather than focusing on getting the results right as result is not something that’s completely in your hands and this made me very productive and I had the energy to sleep deep, wake up fresh and excited for the chores I had to do.
Ultimately, the confidence you find can make you overconfident like opening those websites again. I soon found myself being back to stage 1 in coming weeks and I’ve never recovered properly to this day from that.
Eventually, I lost the confidence, energy and motivation and am back to square one. I have endured sleepless nights, frustration, anger, anxiety and blueballs to get to 33 Days today. As I am writing this, I have uneasiness in my heart, the chronic like pain in my testes, frustrated and lack of excitement towards women, this is what everyone calls a flatline.
Despite facing the uncomfortable life 24/7 for weeks, I still believe the end result will be worth it. I know I can end this all uneasiness and pain with just few clicks in incognito mode, but I would rather go through this tough time, face the withdrawals of this addiction because being yourself is more worth it than being an addict.
You’re not the only one constantly resisting. As the old saying, NO PAIN NO GAIN. Stay stubborn my brothers & sisters.