Happy birthday my dear Aadi bro @The_Ambitious_One Wish you a lifelong no fap bro.
2 Likes
Thank you vm 
2 Likes
Day 265
The last two days were full of joy and refreshment . Went to watch avatar 2 on 25th , breathtaking experience .
Yesterday fulfilled all the missing things in my life . There was something incomplete which was making me feel tasteless .
Had a family party yesterday , full of enjoyment and entertainment . I didn’t feel like hiding in a corner or not talking to anyone , like I used to feel in home and school . Sang , danced , ate and laughed . What a day .
I feel refreshed till now , mood is over the top and confidence like ready to climb the mountain . A beautiful end to the year .
Well , its time to get back on table and work hard . The confidence I needed is back .
I AM COMPLETE
And yes lol , I finally have a new one now
4 Likes
Damn after sooo long 
1 Like
yess 
1 Like
Lmao
After fcking myself , I started overthinking again and felt sad . But came across an old audio motivation saved which was sent by my father . It really helped to come back to present . I meditated 5mins while listening to it and will do more 10mins before going to bed .
I just can’t take things lightly , that’s what I am . I think too much
bye
3 Likes
It’s ok dude 
. Happens.
1 Like
ITS 2023
Damn , the year’s been so fast . I fell down , stood back , lost a lot of things and kept fighting . It feels so far yet near . The first half of the year was bad for me , I barely remember good things from that time . After March , my life became hell , I was all of a sudden in a new place , new school and new class and I messed up quite bad that time which put me on a cycle of self regrets . My only mistake down there was thinking about relapse and losing my self image because of that and broke myself . Slowly , things got clear and I was out of most of the things but it left scars . I have developed many issues which I see are the result of previous mindset .
Well I joined RC around the same time and its been a great journey , I couldn’t have made it without the support of the people here .
Talking about 2023 , I have a lot of things knocking my door . Last few weeks have been crazy asf . I try to take them normally now , its nothing if I come to my real strength and willpower , and I WILL. I have came so far only with willpower and not other methods , and that’s what I can do .
Its time for the rise of the dead .
In 2023 , I will mainly focus on these things -
Boosting confidence
Stopping overthinking
Increasing physical and mental strength
Stopping worrying and judging
Become more mindful and peaceful
Getting out of social media and screen addiction
and
7 - 8 hours study everyday
Overall , focusing on disciplines this year .
AISSE 2023 in less than 60 days . I have to grind hard 2 months and beat all ills . I can do it if I just believe in myself and be consistent .
Lets go boyz
NOTHING IS LOST , NO MORE PAIN
JUST GIVE ME STRENGTH
4 Likes
Stay strong buddy 
You are gonna rise stronger
And you will surely achieve your goals
Happy new year 
Waiting to see more of your memes this year😅
5 Likes
Thanks .
You too bro 
Happy New Year
sure 
3 Likes
Thanks…
3 Likes
Watched porn
I saw it coming … I was having sexual dreams from many of the previous nights and sexual urges + thoughts all through the day . I could barely get it out of my mind , and to burst out , all it needed was one peek and in no time I was already engaged in watching those 
. The thing is I wasn’t feeling bad while doing it and had no idea why was I doing it . Well , that reminds me of last winter , around this time only when I broke my long streak due to similar urge . Which means , my urges increase a lot in winter even when I am doing workout and meditation . Also accompanied my non stop thoughts throughout the sleep .
I could have relapsed if I watched any more , but fortunately it was my tuition test timing and had 5 mins so had to get up immediately .
The main thing here is guilt factor . For some reason , I was not feeling as guilty as I used to do . Even now , I am not feeling so .
Now this could be positive as well as negative . Positive as , it didn’t cause any after-porn urges or brain cloud , maybe because of so many days of mental awareness . But negative because I might not really be in my sense right now and blurred by the thoughts making me feel like this .
Also because , after I gave the test (it was very good although some slight difficulties due to hyperactivated mind ) , I felt grateful for not having relapsed , because if I did so , I would be completely out of my mind and feel completely numb for weeks .
Even after coming home (just now) , I was feeling like watching more because it didn’t cause me guilt and made me feel good…Like I don’t understand the trick of dopamine 
. Last time when I watched in october , I felt the same and the memories erased within a few days and I was back to normal .
But now , after this , I understand this clearer - I feel good after watching and my brain becomes active , due to dopamine obviously . And when it fades away , I feel empty and hollow for many days + nightfalls . When I am getting back into track , another strong urge makes me want to watch it . However , I do not relapse in this process but it keeps me indulged in porn .
I understood all of this just now . So , now I can act accordingly . For me , the P addiction is greater than fapping as even after so many days , even if I do not fap but the mindset towards craving for porn is always there . Its just that , it occurs in several months which makes me feel like I am out of this , but it reappears… and the cycle continues .
Concludingly , what happened earlier in days/weeks , now happens in period of months and to break out of this cycle , I need to find a different solution . I now recognise the problem , but need to work on the solution .
PS: This will certainly cause a bad nightfall because I was on the verge of relapsing . But at least I did not relapse and I can get back soon.
Finally , as it all started after I got on my laptop . No laptop for the upcoming days .
I have got all my notes and SQPs printed and will have to do a complete detox , at least as much as possible . So , might be inactive from here , as well as telegram . But see you guys in a few days . Will focus only on studying and music now .
Seeya
9 Likes
You should not let these things affect you and your life bro. Don’t get into porn also.
1 Like
Demn
3 Likes
great reply
so motivational 
3 Likes
We’ll be careful next time. Remember, the urge might seem harmless in the beginning. But then it could be very dangerous.
3 Likes
99th reply: 
1 Like