Hey! I’m new here. Day 1 on here. I’m actually day 18 though.
So, From like day 10 or 11 onward, minus a day, it’s been incredibly challenging. Almost everyday has had some sort of intense temptation. Before I started this my pattern would be I would masturbate usually once, sometimes twice a week. With a rare occasion of 3 times.
Before this I was tackling looking at porn less and I’ve mostly succeeded at that. Done long stretches without it and have been making continual good progress in that. It’s gotten a lot less, I’m starting to hate it in general. Which is good.
But, I’m surprised how hard the past week has been. It’s surprised me. When I’m getting tempted to I can hardly thing. I can tell my eyes are darting to boobs when I’m on public. I don’t stare, I move on and pray. But, it’s a lot more now than it was before I started this streak.
I mentioned I pray. I’m very much a follower of Jesus. I have a lot of reasons to not. For a while I struggled with the topic of if masturbation is a sin and I’m deciding that even if there is a possibility where sometimes it’s not, I don’t want to walk that line and challenge that. I want to be a good example to lead others out of this. I want to be free and full of life.
I have a small guys group every week, of 4 guys. 3 of us struggle and 1 doesn’t and he’s married. I want to set an example and grow in this. I want to be a leader and set a precedent and lead the way for myself and others. I really want to have success not just for myself, but others, especially for a future wife or kids.
Anyway, this is a long post but wanted to get this stuff set as a foundation. I found this and am hoping it helps! Do your best everyone!