I am doing nofap because i want to search & know if the masters are true !! Is there bigger pleasures in life than pmo/sex/orgasm.
For this i must endure this journey and steer my ship upto some months/years to find out the truth. Yes. This hard mode journey is the biggest adventure in the world and i must show courage and perseverance.
This is INSANE. Right ?
I am happy. I relapse. I am depressed. I relapse. Is this necessary ? Is Hell necessary ? Relapse is Hell. Yes . It is torture. Soul burning. Soul crying. No Help is coming. Lying in bed. Staying at this house like a prisoner of my own. 4 walls. Eating, drinking, breathing, talking, sleeping, walking. Same shitful life. Daily. No meaning. This is Numbness. This is Hell.
Countless diaries made. Burned. Countless streak wallpapers changed. Messaged people. Sorry ! I relapsed again !! Like what . Clap for this coward. He deserve some … Here we go again. Damn.
Can’t just bitch here all the frustration because the pain is too long. Believe me. Pain is Real. I am writing this, it means i am still alive. From this moment onwards i am writing again.
Success story Part 2.