Current streak - >1 day
Highest streak - 19 days (recently), ~300 (old times…)
Age - 27
Gender - M
Why I want a companion - like, good grief… I’m an old soul, I’ve been in this swamp for way too long. There was a time when I thought I’ve beaten this demon. I had a reason to keep it at bay. Now the reason has been gone for a long time, but I’m back to believing that maybe there are more reasons than the ones I lost.
Ah shit dude. The time you used to write a diary here you were almost free, I can relate to you though, beat this addiction, do one mistake and get back to where you were, this has happened with me as well like 2-3 times, it’s a vicious loop.
But we shouldn’t be giving this addiction that much value, just live your life the way you actually want to and it will automatically be taken care of.
Thanks for advice, man! But I think it’s not a challenge that I need a challenge right now, rather a single person that would say “alright, I hold you accountable, if you hold me too”. But bless you, brother, for the good advice!
I hate to say it was a mistake, because life lead me to a place that was too hard, too many things happened all at once and I feel into the swamp again under pressure of changes. I don’t want to kick myself - there’s no glory in this. I want to push myself forward now!
On the other hand, I’m living my life, and hell I’m a successful man in this world. But then, nobody in my waking life knows of my addiction. Not gonna lie - it sounds as if I was living a double life, and maybe there’s some truth to it. Hereby I declare - this is the beginning of the end of my hidden life!