Hey everyone,
I’m a 25 year old guy living in Germany who’s been struggling with ■■■■ addiction since my early teens (around 14). It’s led to some deep issues, like ■■■■-induced fetishes which i also started living out in Real Life (some of them) that mess with my head and keep me from building real confidence or relationships. Also Stuff like PIED or the Loss of my Morning Wood completely for the last 3-4 Years and loss in Errection Size. I’ve hit rock bottom feeling like I’ve achieved nothing in life – no real progress, stuck in the system I hate, dreaming of becoming an actual self made Man, an entrepreneur but held back by this cycle. Science on ■■■■ addiction lags behind, but rates are skyrocketing worldwide, and I want to be part of the change.
That’s why I’m starting a 1-year NoFap journey, and I’m thinking of documenting it publicly on YouTube/TikTok. Not just the usual “Day 365 recap” – I’d take people along weekly/monthly: raw updates on withdrawals, feelings, relapses (if they happen), and real changes. Starting from Day 0: Incorporating fitness (home push-up challenges, jogging with Garmin-Sportswatch tracking), self-development (reading 1 book/week), looks/hygiene (mewing, Gua Sha, oil pulling, pelvic floor exercises), wealth mindset (side-hustle tips, budgeting), and confidence (social experiments, public speaking practice). Plus, blood tests every 2-3 months to track testosterone, cortisol, etc., and compare baselines – proof of brain healing and no lingering urges.
My fear? That the fetishes and addictions stick around post-NoFap, trapping me forever. I want to show it’s possible to fully heal and become the man others look up to. Have normal, natural, man like insticts, sexual behaviour. Now i don´t want to discredit every Fetish out there, i am talking about/against ■■■■-induced fetishes and in my opinion fetishes, more like “mental illnesses” in my Opinion like Findom and paying fucking Money to get mentally and financially abused. But Findom is a different Topic. I want to show that you can get rid of your (■■■■-induced) Fetishes that are making you feel sick, sad, angry, especially after relapsing to them and thinking to yourself “this is NOT the REAL me”. But is this overkill or redundant? Are there tons of TikTokers/YouTubers doing exactly this (1-year vlogs with bloodwork, fitness progress, book reviews)? Would it motivate people, or feel like just another generic journey? What do you think – go for it, tweak it, or scrap the public part?
I’m incredibly motivated to start this NoFap journey (ADHD says hi!) and I really hope to get a lot of support that will keep me pushing forward. My goal is to help build a real movement—one that inspires science to take ■■■■ addiction seriously and research its causes, effects, and possible solutions. I know so many people, especially younger ones, are struggling with it. I’ve also noticed a growing number of women dealing with ■■■■ addiction, which deserves more attention too.
At the same time, I’ll admit I’m a bit scared. The online world can be brutal—there’s so much toxic nonsense out there, and things like shameless OnlyFans content get normalized instead of criticized. But what if I’m the one who ends up getting hate or shame for being honest about my struggles with ■■■■, femdom, or findom addiction? Especially since in the beginning i will be exposing my dead, soulless ■■■■ addicted Face, unhealthy Body, and so on. I’m ready for the negativity and judgment that might come with being open about it—but what if it becomes too much and overshadows everything positive?
Has anyone else gone through this? How do you deal with the fear of judgment while sharing your journey?
Looking forward to your honest thoughts – thanks for being part of this community!
