I don’t know when i started doing M daily. May be when i was 10y. I didn’t know it was a bad thing or good thing . It just gave me please. When i became 13 year old i realized that after M , i feel low and motivation less. I thought there must be any kind of protein ejaculates. So i strated to give myself one day gap. After then 2 day gap.
Slowly slowly porn strated to ruin my life i spent more time in porn and no time with friends and family. So i didn’t make social life pathways. When any guest comes in my home i usually hide myself bcz i became a shy person and i didn’t have any interest to talk with them.
Bcz of shyness i hesitate to talk with girls so i never make female friend. I had low motivation and had less friends.
Less friend means less enjoyment. I didn’t even traveled my home town city let alone other cities. I am 25 now. I don’t know the name of most of places in my hometown.
I have no gf and no s*x till now.
This porn accepted me as i was. So nothing motivated me to work on me. I had a dopamine jackpot which didn’t let others to come in my life. Desensitized the other things.
Now i know about nofap. This is the only cure. I will fight myself. I promise myself. The day will come soon when i will be posting as a rewired person. I won’t have any pmo addiction. I will be able to enjoy the real juice of life. I would have a lot of confidence. My personality will be so attractive. I will have all the thing what i wished for.