Iām almost there. Tomorrow will be the 35th day, by far the longest streak outside of ramadan. My urges are coming back slowly and I sincerely hope that ramadan will help me with that. I have never experienced more then 40 days without porn and everytime the urges are so bad that I canāt control my self. Iām trying to have no time for other stuff then drawing and painting ( I donāt have a job yet)thereās a part of me who wants to stop this, manly because Iām aware that itās a real addiction, not something that I like to enjoy from time to time and that it impacted my life quit a lot , but the other horny part just wants to have a tons of orgasms because letās be real I have a pretty strong sex drive
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You know what dude, Iām so straight that I canāt watch straight porn, I only watch gay porn, but youāre right thatās manly my urges who are telling me to not delete these videos because Iām going to have to do that process all over again and spend hours and hours
Sister, it is high time you read this book.
It caan be read in some hours or at max 3days if you are not that much into books.
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Fine and you? Tomorrow will be my 36th day
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@luluane sister you are also invited in the āRamadan challenge ENTRIES (Muslims Exclusive)ā Group,. In this blessed month we will go all out against this addiction.
Stay strong 
Yay 40 days!!! Iām officially a champ, and Iām soon entering the never done before territory.
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The only thing that really bothers me is the constant flashbacks, the lines between my urges and my libido that gets blurred more and more, and somehow I donāt know why I have so much trouble speaking and articulating like I just fapped itās soooo annoying, Iāve had a clear mind for quit sometimes but those symptoms are coming back
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Keep going sister, as time passes this phase will go and you will become stronger in tackling the urges.
Maybe it is flatline, try to think positive and stuff.
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42 days yayyyyyy. My longest streak ever was last year and it was 46 days. Iām soon entering the never done before territory
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I would like to thank my periods for completely screwing my sex drive and giving me so much pain that I canāt think of sex or pmo, and I would like to thank the holy month ramadan, because fasting has helped me tremendously to fap a lot less and I hope that 2021 is the year Iāll get rid of this addiction.
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Sister, keep it going! I wish you to be FREE from this addiction forever!
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Thank you very much sir
Day 44 tomorrow. I almost had a heart attack because the charger of my computer wouldnāt work and I thought that all my files (and my file filed with over a 100 porn videos) will be gone. I know I should be ashamed of my self by keeping it but Iām too afraid that during the process of delete it I might relapse
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For now I suggest to prevent any form of action that may cause you to relape but at the same time you can work on how to change that mindset of need for those p* videos.
Best of luck.
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I think your answer may very well be in this
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I ended up deleting them. I donāt know if itās the charger of my computer or my computer that doesnāt work, so either Iād have to buy another charger or get my computer fixed, and I didnāt want the person whoās going to fix my computer to find my huge porn collection. Not having a computer to work with makes me sad like I donāt know if I can stay without painting for an extensive period of time.
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Iām really sorry I canāt show them to you theyāre on my instagram account that Iād like to keep private. I donāt do digital art I paint with watercolors and oils
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Listen I know that the probability that you recognize me because of my paintings is very low but I still donāt want to take that risk, sorry about that
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Good work sister.
Though the reasons were slightly different, use this opportunity. And say Alhamdulillah,
This may be a way of Allah helping you to get rid of those videos.
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Yeah maybe. I found a new charger and my computer is fine now I am so happy
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