ReloadingSacks Diary [33M] - 2016 old-timer

Hello everyone,

at first some stats:

  • male
  • 33 years old
  • single
  • addiced since I was 13
  • battling with addiction since September 2016
  • max streak - 17 days

Summary:
For past almost 9 years I fight with this addiction. My record was something about 17 days and thats it. Let it be a wake up call for all others. I feel shame.

I learnt a bit what could be improved in my life. However, I feel that still PMO has a big impact on my performance. I believe that getting rid of bad habits and addictions is crucial for better self-being. Without battling my cons first I feel overwhelming stagnancy.

What is my plan then?
Throughout my recovery I will try to use tools which just worked for me in the past to stay on track.

  • keep my phone away from bed - browsing visuals in bed was my habit, yes, was, I dont wanna come back to it!
  • guided meditation - I keep coming back to beginner course, which let me clear my mind a bit
  • morning stretching - injuries while working out come from being nonstretched in most cases that’s why I will try to prevent it
  • cold showers - work better than coffee and current temperatures will alllow to gently come back to this activity
  • doing cardio helped me with suppressing dirty thoughts
  • work on my programming skills
  • intermittent fasting and healthier diet

I think thats all for now. Within time I will try to update my routine.

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0 Day

Nothing much to said here… Lets try this “diary” way.

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good luck buddy we r with you

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0 Relapse

I have to get rid of habit of bringing phone to bed. Its tempting and always end in relapse.

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0 - I have updated this dusty topic as I’m back again.

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Hey, I read you’re struggling with your phone usage, which I totally understand; I did too.

Do you have an Android phone by any chance? Since you have some programming skills, I assume you know your way around the CLI. With the cli-tool ADB it’s quite easy to uninstall unwanted apps from your phone. I uninstalled the browser AND the Google Play Store, so no way for me to install a browser without hooking it up to a computer. This helps me a lot and I hope it can help you too.

Cheers

1 - starting fresh

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2 - I have done some house chores today.

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Back to 0 after 4 clean days. Here we go again..