Man holy shit , I relapsed and feel miserable now. Just keep my guard off for a while i don’t know how does that thing happened things went wrong too far. I was 112 Days clean and it was highest I went after so many years of hell.
Sorry to disappoint you all. I need a better plan from now. Last streak was good man I feel totally shit and feels like I got broken from core.
@Lord_Inosuke @Sampanyo @FaithfulWalker @Ironwill1000.
I know I’m not fully recovered but yeah! There is still a ray of hope first time in my life i crossed 100 Days.
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U r breaking the cycle slowly but steadily
U r increasing your streaks each time
BTW
Can you explain in detail how you relapsed?
What made you relapse
Like what triggered you
And did you watch P to relapse
Etc etc
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It happens, it happens. At the end of the day its a stress reliever.
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First off—thank you for being real. That kind of honesty takes guts.
Man, I hear you—and I want you to know: a relapse doesn’t erase the 112 days of strength, growth, and resilience you showed. You climbed farther than you ever had before. That matters. That still counts.
Right now, it feels like everything crumbled—but it didn’t. You’re still here. You’re still fighting. Feeling broken doesn’t mean you’re defeated—it means you’re human.
Relapse is painful, yeah. But it’s also data. It’s your system showing you something that needs support, something to reinforce. This time, you’re not starting from zero—you’re starting from experience. From 112 days of proof that you can do this.
Let’s make that better plan. Not from shame, but from insight. What cracked your guard? What situation or emotion snuck in? Let’s map it and build a stronger wall there. You’ve already done something incredible. Now, let’s make it last.
One stumble doesn’t define your journey. Getting back up does.
I’m with you.
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Bro 112 days clean is amazing something I dream of reaching myself. You’re an inspiration, so don’t be too hard on yourself. Keep going, don’t fall back into old habits. There’s always hope.
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I don’t know what to say. Listen I’m not disappointed from you, I know how good you are in this battle. As @FaithfulWalker said, imagine yourself to build a wall against devil and any weakness you have, but they found the cracked part somewhere and entered. So instead of allowing them to invade your whole empire, kill them and repair that weak wall stronger than before. And continue the building. Remember, they just broke a part of the wall, not the whole wall. I mean your progress of 112 days is not wasted.
Just try to be easy with your emotions in recent days, you may fall into chaser effect. Devil will whisper lots of sh!t in your ears, but you need to ignore him and restart the construction.
Btw I would love to build my defence wall with your help, as I’m on day 0 too 
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I’m sorry for your disappoint. Lack of proper knowledge was my main reason. I was not utilising my semen properly I was not productive.
I was carrying my phone to bed which was the main mistake. Ego killed whatsover.
I need to overcome failures it’s the part of journey. Sure @Lord_Inosuke let’s do this @FaithfulWalker thank you for believing in me old pathways are still there I accept I will try my best from here.
So true , I learnt from the very best I have to see failures as a part of the journey. I had broke my previous streak of 65 Days after that I made this streak of 112 Days. It was a margin of 47 Days I’m proud of myself.
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I hear you @Covertxomic I can tell this means a lot to you, and breaking your streak after 112 days must feel devastating. But listen, one relapse or even multiple relapses doesn’t erase all the progress you’ve made You fought this battle for over a year, and that strength is still in you.Right now, guilt and shame are probably making it worse, pushing you into a cycle where you feel bad and then relapse again to escape those feelings. But instead of beating yourself up, take this as a moment to reset with a new mindset.
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