I relapsed after like having 100 + streak. Explaining how it happened doesnt make sense. But I learnt one thing - screw yt ( or whatever that is called social media) no matter what. Its like my 8th time , I am relapsing after a 100 + streak.
I am just writing this so that I can move on. Nothing more. Nothing less. Majority of the time I go ghost mode when I relapse and that never helped.
I must be accountable for my action. Along with my good deeds , my sins should also come to light. Though it feels like a life force drained out of me , I am not dead yet. As long as I am not dead yet , I will fight.
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You are right brother… the guilt of using social media a lot increases exponentially and stomps me on the ground one day. No fap ignites fire of achieving something in life but when I ignore this and keep wasting time, I feel disgusted. Self hatred increases and devil attacks at most vulnerable time.
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But the problem is we are bound by the system to get trapped into social media. Every school, college, job require you to use social media.
I miss my school days when I did not had phone. When I take my pleasure from reading books, playing cricket volleyball, kabaddi , ploughing the field, playing chess, ludo, carrom with friends. Just living in present.
And now everything is gone. These sophisticated technologies , AI is really making life complicated. It is making me restless all the time.
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Sometimes just confessing immediately and being able to tell people you failed is a hard move to make. Well done for being so honest
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