i am 22 years and I am not afraid to admit I am the worst possible version of myself. Severe porn addict with the worst anxiety and depression with a lack of discipline which has lead to me being really out of shape and struggling in my college courses. I know nofap/retention isn’t everything but I feel it is the key to everything I want in life. I hope to become a better man at the end of all this because if not I feel I shall be dead soon. I’ll keep going. I am seeking an accountability partner so if anyone wants to help my number is 4789184075 I wanna hear your stories as well.
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@Mrich139 welcome to the community. I’m a 25 Y/O, fighting PMO since I realised that i was addicted when I was 20 Y/O. Anxiety depression and every negative emotion comes only due to lack of understanding of why we became like this. We became addicted but first we became careless. So I started the journey, I tried almost everything. In between broke up with my partner. Couldn’t stay away from porn. It was like masturbating twice everyday for 2 years straight. Then i discovered spirituality and out came guilt consciousness. Quite slowly I realised that the whole world became a trigger playground for me. So can’t avoid the world. That’s when I began to work on my thoughts and perspective while keeping attention throughout the day. Changing habits one by one. Slaying 1 dragon each day. And now I’m comfortably moving ahead with confidence. Being happy and cheerful. There are some days when all of a sudden I get a dream and nightfall happens but i just sit up, take a bath and wash my clothes. Nothing else. No thoughts, daydreaming, fantasies. I work at an Oil and Gas major firm and earning pretty decent. I want to be single for a long time and play my guitar.
When I peek at the past, it’s something which I never wanted to be. But we came in a generation which thrives on dopamine and got caught up in the loop. Just need knowledge to get out of it. 
I wish you all the very best. You can take a look at my blog “Spiritual detoxification for prolonged habits…” for some tips which I realised are really effective. Feel free to connect on personal DM.
God bless you bro and thank you for responding. I’m inspired I’ll definitely reach out soon
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Firstly , I would like to say congratulations because in this sexualised society most of the people fail to realize this poison as something other than part of their own self but being able to realize that it is something we dont want is a huge achievement because porn is literally designed to highjack/overtake minds through our sexuality just like giving some a drug to make them unconsciously, I am not saying a person cant stay conscious after being drugged they can but it takes unaturally strong sheer will
So you are praise worthy for for already strong enough to accept it as something foreign even though this is poison designed to take over our minds by few industries who make profit off it and by ruining our life ,so congratulations for being strong to not be confused like masses and I know no matter how much time may we need to gather our will but life never stop just like exam date will come closer no matter what but dont forget you are too precious to give up , so cheer up and I wish you good luck
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