Predic96's Diary - Nofap Hard mode #2

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Positive :

Better ability to concentrateMore depth of understanding and attentionMore socialized and more talkative, ready to get in and start conversations with people.No more social anxiety. I can calmly look people in the eyes and not feel guilty or feel some shame.Better confidence (this is a double edged sword, i will explain later).I have much better acceptance from people around me, i receive more attention and looks from females, and there are some periods, when i have huge magnetism and i attract a lot of attention.I have much more presence and i am not just the guy that no one sees/notices

(Used to be, when i was in high school sometimes)Bigger mental strength and ability to push away urges/temptations.More devoted, motivated, serious and persistent in other spheres and aspects.Nofap gave me the strength to go and try to abstain from other things, such as giving up fast food, trying to cut back on some processed foods, trying to live healthier, and engaging in other activities.More prone to start trying new and different things in life.After the depression from the rebooting starts to go away (to me it was somewhere at day 130-160), you start to feel more joyous and appreciate life much more.Feeling more calm and collected.

Physical benefits:
My voice has changed, it got deeper, i am a little more hairy, my beard have grown a little more, but i still have a poor beard, i am feeling and looking more masculine (i even think my penis got bigger), my face got a little better, my eyes are not looking empty and void, more energy, i got a little more tenacious, i can walk up to 20-25 kms a day and i don’t feel tired, but i feel like i can walk even 10 more. Better performance in sports (i play basketball, not a pro, just for fun).

Negative things:

Wet dreams - sometimes they happen very frequently, and it’s not cool at all, they can even make you lose some benefits for a day or two, shake you off and knock you out of balance.

I expected my lost hair to regrow, but instead it receded even more, so this expectation is broken. After 12 months i didn’t see any improvement. I saw some very little regrowth in the first 60-90 days, but these hairs fell off. So for me, Nofap didn’t regrow my receded hair, but i have a lot less hair shedding.

When your male friends find out about you not fapping and you are not in a relationship, you start to look kinda strange to them, even some of them start to think you are not normal. So i try to explain as i can, but some of them just don’t seem to understand.
Things you should be cautious and careful about : - Much confidence is not always good. It can trick you and make you slip, it can make become prideful of your success and think: “OOH, how far have i gone, now looking at these girls and talking to them won’t do no harm. Or looking at this woman on the street, no big deal.” NOW STOP ! DON’T ALLOW THIS THING TO HAPPEN, IT WILL MOST PROBABLY FAIL YOU. This happened to me and at one point, somewhere at 260 days, i was so tricked, that these lustful thoughts started hitting me and i thought that i would fail, but thank God, i didn’t. And it’s not only once, even recently, this happened again, i know i shouldn’t look, but i looked, and guess what, this thing ruins your progress, and it makes it seem that your days of fapping have not been so long ago, and you can return, and you can have some pleasure again, your mind starts playing with you again, no matter your progress. DON’T ALLOW THIS TO HAPPEN AT ALL. PROTECT YOURSELF AT ANY COST. Now the hard part is, that once your brain has been stimulated, it’s hard for you to forget about it, and you keep seeing this, and you get reminded about it, and you get tempted to lust, and fall. Thank God again, that i didn’t fall. I had to do a lot of praying and trying to cleanse my mind, and forgetting. Just be very careful, when you reach a lot of days on Nofap, lest you fall, because your mind has mislead you. Don’t listen to these voices that tell you: It’s not that big deal. YES IT IS ! Get humbled.

Now here are some of the things that helped me abstain and resist, and some things that could help you too.

Run away when the temptation comes.Praying and reading the Bible.Going outside and walking.Keep saying NO multiple times, until you come to your senses. Sometimes when saying it doesn’t help, scream it in your head. If it doesn’t help, scream it with your voice if you can.Exercise.Remind yourself who you are, and what are you doing, and ask yourself do you really want to do this. Realize the situation, realize the mistakes you could make and what results would it bring. Tell yourself this : You are in NOfap . YOU DON’T FAP OR RELAPSE, YOU GO AHEAD WITHOUT THESE THINGS !Tell yourself you have come this far, it’s not worth it to lose your progress, you can not allow yourself to fail this easy for some stupid pleasure that will make you hate yourself and regret after it’s over. Remember the regrets you had after your relapses.Try to imagine yourself and how you look like if you would fap, but from a side point of view. This really shifts your perception.Go drink cold water. Sprinkle your face with cold water.Try to overcome by any means. exclude the relapse thought of your mind, and DON’T SEEK WAYS TO FAP !!! Don’t rationalize and find excuses, show some discipline and will, dont allow a failure to happen !Start doing something immediately, get busy with some job, concentrate on something that will take you away from the lusts and the urges.Finally, i want to say thanks to God for helping me cope with this. Then, thanks to the whole Nofap community.I think i wouldn’t have made it this far if it wasn’t for you.I would have failed if there was no Nofap. I got big inspirations and determination from here. Then i want to send special thanks and props to my big friend from Nofap - 2may2015, who is one day behind me, and in fact, he makes one year today (now it’s my 366th day). He helped me move through and not give up, since he always told me to keep the distance of one day between us. So i did it, and will do, and i know he will too ;D

I want to send some encouraging words towards the people who are struggling with this vice: keep trying hard, even if you fail. If i did it, you can do it too, although it may take time. I have been into PMO for 6 years, struggling for 3 years to quit it, now i got 1 year off and away from it. I don’t plan on returning back. These things don’t go away easy. That’s why you must be hard. And remember, that it always comes to you, if you allow this to happen, it will, if you don’t - it won’t. Its a matter of decision and will. So be careful. Peace and have a nice time !

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#2

Congratulations man your progress is amazing and motivational, thanks for sharing your experience, I will keep fighting as you did, never again!

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#3

Day 263 here! A couple days ago I also experienced an inner lust to throw everything I achieved away by fapping. I fantazised a lot but now the sexual thoughts declined.

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#4

Wow man a whole year, that really takes will and perseverance!
Keep up the good job, as well as the one day distance with your friend lol.

Stay safe and strong bro

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#5

Nice diary :slight_smile::pencil2: nice work

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