What can be improved: Stop the pain and keep fighting
What lead to the relapse: Thinking about it and relapsed on an urge
I believe that I can overcome this obstacle. I need help to not do this anymore. I have failed myself and my family. I believe in Jesus but it is hard to stop. I am 38 years old and still masturbating and sometime give in to the urge. I want to be able to keep myself clean and not relapsed at all. I want self-discipline and will power to overcome this morning urges. Mostly I masturbate in the morning and everyday I always think about doing this. Any advice you can give me will be helpful. Thanks for listening and please leave a comment.
Bruh this will be one of the most important motivation i get in this journey, i was feeling depressed (because of my age) that i am still in it , but now i could say i am not late
What Can Be Improved: stop and think about what I am doing. Motivate myself to self-discipline and believe it can be done.
Day 3 is the hardest because I have started afresh again. I need comfort and motivation from this forum. I know God will forgive me and I know that I am not perfect. My U-turn is what I will do. I have started a new journey to cleanliness and hopefully make it through. I ask anyone who prays that they will pray for me. I am an addict to masturbation and I never look at ■■■■. I always fantasize when I want to do this. I hope to remove these thoughts and antagonizing pain to daily masturbate. I need directions on how to stop and I will also ask my Lord for help. God bless ya’ll.
I can definitely relate to that! Whenever I’ve masturbated, that’s been what I’ve done, too.
I noticed in your other post that you said that you have trouble with it especially in the morning. I don’t know what part of the morning that you’re having trouble with, but if it’s the first thing in the morning when you wake up and you’re still in bed, there’s an app that I used called Alarmy that gives you a few tasks to do when you wake up when you turn off your alarm. It helped me out. I don’t know if that will help or not, but I’ll leave you a link to it!
Benefits seen: I feel better a little but not much
What can be improved: stop motivating myself to do it
Day 4 the longest step to cleanliness and the hardest to overcome. I am 4 days clean and plan to keep it that way. I have the option to either do it our not do it. I will choose not to. I wake at 4:30AM in the morning and I study the Bible then I exercise then I take a bath. After all this I listen to music and write on this forum. That is my morning schedule but during the day I sometimes am busy but sometimes not. It is all according to my schedule during the day. Jus like today I have nothing to do but think and pray. I have an option to pray and think about my mistakes that I have made in my life. I will talk to God about my situation and I will not give in. God bless ya’ll and thanks for listening.
Benefits seen: strong resistance to urges and not relapsing
What can be improved: not fantasizing and not giving in
I feel like I am a zombie at this moment. I feel the urges but the hard thing is not to give in. I know that cleanliness is next to godliness. I want to draw closer to God with every milestone that is accomplished. I don’t want to give up because I want self-discipline and I want to be worthy of God. I will set an example to this world and let them know that God is good. The devil is tempting me at this moment but I will say that my God is real. I have to tell the devil that the battle is not mine but Gods. Thanks for listening ya’ll and God bless.
What can be improved: snapping myself back to reality
This is the day that the Lord has made. I will rejoice and be glad in it. Thanks be to God that this a day that i must remain clean. No urge is spontaneous at the moment. I will not give up because I know that my redeemer lives. This is not my fight I surrender all to Jesus. I don’t have much to say today.
Thanks for listening ya’ll and please leave a comment.
I am closing the preachers dairy because it is a daily reminder of the addiction. I am sorry for the inconvenience of this so forgive me. Thank you for being understanding.