Nothing about past here idiots, learn to move on.
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So, hereās why Iām starting my diary again-
- I have to become successful asap and at any cost.
- I really have to heal myself.
- I have to become the best version of myself.
Simple things to be achieved-
- Keep myself busy most of the time.
- Study a lot and apply them wisely.
- Stay humble, respectful and kind towards everyone, no matter how I am feeling.
- Work out, run, etc to lose weight.
- Learn new skills.
- No procrastination.
Tools required-
Books (+ laptop) , digital detox, mental will power, meditation.
From tomorrow, Iāll be updating the following-
- My day in terms of hours
- Mobile phone usage (outside of study hours)
- Self study
- Exercise routine
With that note, I should say good night for today.
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Hell yeaah broooo 
. Awesome title, I guess my words from yesterday did inspire youš
Welcome back to the forum mate 
. We are gonna level up together.
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Bruh 
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PrDr you are my BrDr (brother)
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Bruh 
. Wishing you speedy recovery .
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Well, it seems long since I was last seen hereā¦ 20 days! I didnāt realize the passing of so many days. Time seems to be flying quick and hard. In between these 20 days however, a lot of things happened, some good some bad, the usual life. Unfortunately for some reason I slipped after 80 days last week. Not much affected by that though, I can get back to that pretty quickly. For some time now, Iāve been forming a habit of running every morning and do some light exercises. Iāve been trying to focus on my work and studies more seriously, so I reckon thatās a good thing. I still lack focus and consistency but at least Iām serious and working continuously to get a bit better every day. Somehow for somedays, Iām getting flashbacks of so highly debated topic of 1% rule, maybe because Iām working on 0.01% rule, lol. But hey, progress is still a progress, as a wise man once said āif you canāt run then walk, if you canāt walk then crawl. Just somehow keep moving.ā I canāt remember who said it, canāt even remember if I am repeating the exact same words, but it doesnāt matter. Iām hopefully doing the most important part right now, i.e., to live it. I hope one day my crawling will turn into a distance run that will take me to the top of my life. Another thing Iād like to share is that for a few days, Iāve been reading and trying to interpret the meaning of ShrimadBhagvadGita, and I find it hilarious how have I been able to keep myself away from such a beautiful piece of philosophy. Its a pity that humanity today associates such scriptures with a certain religion or something. In my opinion, every person irrespective of their religion or belief deserves to read and learn the teachings from such books, that still hold mighty relevance in todayās world.
Also, I have gone back on my ways of staying silent most of the time, put my phone on digital detox for days and months, facing problems by keeping myself busy and sleeping lol . Iām doing everything to turn myself into a person who is truly unhurt from the most saddening truths and truly unmovable by most pleasent news.
I can go on and on, as I love to write , haah, but Iāll end it here. I hope whoever reads it and whoever doesnāt read it, they all have a good time living this life.
Take care.
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Bruh same here 
. We are becoming stoics .
And yeah I am crawling myself, but not stopping 
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Youāre lucky to fail in things you know you will get a second chance at ā¦ there are certain things that come once in a lifetime and if you fail, you will have to live for the rest of your life with that failure. But be gentle, be kind. We should learn to keep our pain to ourselves, and fight our own battles. Tougher the man, tougher the tests and more devastating the failures. Train your brain to become impervious to defeat, which doesnāt translate into being invincible but into being someone whose defeats cannot deviate him from the path of righteousness, love and compassion. One who never backs down from performing his duty, no matter how bad the pain is.
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Heyo, guess who is back ? Nietzsche said and I quote, " during tough times, those emotions attack us which we have conquered long ago". Canāt be more right.
So, starting with where was I? To be honest, I got busy with my college work and forgot about this place. Past 10 months have been quite tough. A lot has happened, but lets not discuss them here right now. Maybe Iāll see tougher times in the future. But I know that there are few things which are in my control, and that I can change quickly.
First thing to overcome is the past. Its already 11th month now, come on. BTW that girl recently blocked me because Iād keep irritating her by dropping a message every 30-40 days. Ridiculous.
Second thing to overcome is my inactivity. Its been nearly 40 days since my college has gotten over, and I have been too lazy, stupid and weak to study a single day.
Third thing is kinda surprising and stupendous, as I thought I had conquered it already. Its PMO. I not only broke my streak, I was watching it deliberately with consistency for days. Since June, I have had many relapses ā¦maybe over 40-50. Last of them happened on 31st July and I was on a clean streak till today, when I searched for something immoral on the net. Fortunately, I didnāt stay long, and didnāt relapse. But I need to get over this habit of seeing anything of that sort either.
And oh, Iām currently in the worst shape of my life. Even got a beer belly now. Hairfall is taking its toll too. I have been falling ill quite frequently as of late. Also, I got viral conjunctivitis in my both eyes a few days back , and I still have a blurry vision, though doctors clame itāll become clear in a few more days. So I need to better my physical health as well.
So my current goals will be a few:
- Daily meditation
- Study
- Exercise
- Skill upgradation
- Getting rid of digital media addiction.
I know many other guys in here want to do the same, so Iāll be posting a challenge soon which will encompass all these points.
Remember, persistance and consistency is the key.
For me personally, this is only a start and hopefully Iāll keep improving everyday until I reach where I want to be.
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Good to see that you built up the courage to write about everything and take action.
I have also stopped journaling here and it has done me no good, I have done things which I donāt relate to at all, I am also here to journal about all that today even when I decided I would never share those things, but it will do me no good.
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Bro let me give your topic a name -
Heartbroken Desperate lover 
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26th Aug, 2024
Oh its been long, hasnāt it?! Iām posting after like an entire year. That makes me feel good for some reason, idk whyā¦ But should it really make me feel that way?
Anyways lets restart. A lot has happened since my last post again.
I do realize the limited amount of time and the uncertainty of this life. Its,s true, I have suffered a lot of setbacks, hardly any positive news in past 3 years at all.
But I choose to not give up. I choose to work hard and succeed.
Donāt get me wrong, I couldnāt stay true to my words since my last post either. But I have been trying.
First I tried to continue in the same field of environment via corporate jobs or something, but I was rejected. I understood that this was not for me.
So, begining this year from Feb, I began to focus back on government recruitment exams. I havenāt succeeded yet, but I know that I will.
The thoughts of becoming a civil administrator has not left and will never leave my mind. But my focus right now is to get a good and stable job so that the family pressure and all the voices go away. Once I get there, with a clear mind and single line focus I intend to atleast clear UPSC prelims in 2025 and become an I. A. S. officer in 2025 or 2026. And I feel that way because now I feel that I am complete. The feeling of completeness in me makes me really strong, powerful, and dangerous.
Most importantly, I realize its always our decision, about how we choose to be, that the world around us changes as well. I choose to be happy today, I choose to be strong today, I choose to be successful today, I choose to be the best today, I choose to be the hardest worker everyday.
A great man once said, āour levels of success will rarely ever exceed our levels of self-improvementā. This is why you see that all the really successful people are so humble, patient and easy with their success, because success is not an accident, it is an accumulation of what we do everyday, and how we choose to feel everyday.
If you have seen that movie " Rocky(1975) ā, Mr. Balboa tells little Mary, " If you want to be a yo yo person, you live with yo yo peopleā. Yeah, become that yo yo person, because there are resources, internet, books, apps and what not to be around these yo you people. I will just give you a few well known examples.
- Dwayne āThe Rockā Johnson has been waking up every morning at 3 and working hard, even when nobody knew about his existence.
- Elon Musk was working the same way even when he did not have anything including his hairs.
- Christiano Ronaldo, even at nearly 40, trains harder than any other athlete on the planet.
And there are so many such examples. Do you see something in there? They never worked to succed. They never worked for an outcome. They just worked harder than anyone else they knew. The hardest that they could. And they didnāt relax or began resting because of anything. They have been working the same way for past 25-30 years. That is why they are the best. And that is why they know how to be successful.
A simple spotboy turning into a major superstar, a labourer at tea-stall becoming the leader of the largest democracy, a bonded labourer turning into the President of the worldās wealthiest country. The world is filled with examples of such men who did it and we all can too.
The major problem and the reason why most of people never become so successful is because they want to be like one of them, but they do not want to be a person as hard working and dedicated as them. Even when they do, they stop if they donāt see the results. And that makes all the difference.
That is why, when I say I choose to be this today and choose to be that today, I always end it with I choose to be the hardest worker everyday and be the one who is committed to do everything to achieve my goals
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And the goal can never be a post, some money, a woman, a family, a position, an exam, but to be the man you want to be, a man who can bring that positive change in this world that you want. The man who can change everything and make this world a better place. That is exactly who I am and who you are.
Never ever doubt yourself. Work without expectation. Live beyond limits. And never ever give up.
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I know most of you donāt have the patience to read through such a long journal entry, especially one written with typos, grammatical mistakes and incoherence.
Here is what I have said, in one paragraph:
āWhile circumstances and starting points vary, adopting a mindset of hard work, resilience, and unwavering dedication can significantly improve oneās chances of success and personal satisfaction. Itās about maximizing oneās potential and striving to be proud of oneās efforts, regardless of the outcome.ā
No matter where you are today, starting today will make it all better for you. Just wrote it in short, for everyone to read it and start working.
Good luck, champs.
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Your post hits deep brother. From the last points , u said reminds me of a quote
" Losers focus on winners , Winners focus on winning "
And regarding research papers , I really feel bad for that person B. 5 years from now , I am planning to take a Phd from a reputed institutes like IIT. Till now I was naive to think its all u and ur works. But its more than that,
Despite u being 28 , I really respect u that you still keep your dream of clearing UPSC with high hope. I always get some kind of anxiety whether I will lose my drive to improve after 25 +. Because majority of the times , when I see the society , People who are 25+ are either successful or got complacent with their lives or got burdened by family problems
They have no drive , just allowing life as it is. People say its maturity. But I hate that kind of maturity bro. For me its better to be immature as long as Ib have a fire in my belly like a curious kid.
Happy to see there are exceptions like you. Take care of your mom bro.
God bless u to acheive your dreams. Action is necessary bro. I pray all the wish you mentioned get transformed into actions.
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Good to see you back and fighting, all the best.
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Bro so sorry to hear that your work got stolen, the world is largely unfair with good innocent people, you have to acquire a tinge of cunningness and cleverness in order to maintain yourself in this world.
I guess you told me once about you and your mother getting ill but I didnāt know how serious it got. Thank God everybody is safe.
All the best for your preparation mate, you know Iām always there for you. Take care.
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Its ok bro, when life takes something from you, believe in its plans. It probably wants to have you something bigger. Now, I will get far ahead in my life from where I could have reached via research and corporate jobsā¦ Plus those paths would have never given me that level of satisfaction or completeness. These are all life lessons, valuable for me. Everyone has their time.
Iām really blessed to have a friend like you, bro. Talking to you, even though about things other than this always made me smile, even in toughest of times. Thank you. 
Iām glad weāre always in touch.
Feelings are mutual brother. So glad to see you again, my OG Warrior.
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Brother, thank you so much for all the applause and best wishes.
Iāll tell you something very simple, if you want to pursue research, be very careful and always keep your eyes and ears open. Do not trust anyone. Most professors just give all the amenities and advantages to the scholars who can be their literal slaves, this is the sad reality of R&D system in India. To most professors it wonāt matter what you can do in research and how much you can give to this country, what matters to them is how many of their household chores can you do, how frequently do you lick their feet, how easily can you make connections and help professor publish max papers in minimum time, involving least amount of learning. There is a term in Hindi, āJugaduā, and I donāt mean it in the good sense here. I have seen so many talented researchers leave research just because of this rampant corruption and malpractices, and if you want to know, most of the researchers I am talking about are actually from IIT, NIT, IISER etc.
But do not even be pessimistic. What I just mean is that you should be very careful. Choose your supervisor after thorough research and if it requires then fight for him. A good supervisor can really take you to new heights. And fortunately, it is because of these few researchers that our country is still holding up, or just know that most of our secrets would have fallen in foreign hands already.
I wonāt comment on whether 25+ are like this or that. I have seen all sort of people. But I can tell you about me. I have never been more hard working, energetic or focussed as I am right now. In fact I used to be way complascent when I was younger. Something that might make you feel good though is that I also started my self improvement journey at 22 and changed it all around from there. So keep working without expectations. I saw your journal. Youāre on right track. Hopefully youāll achieve what you want soon.
May God Bless you.
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I was partially aware that R&D is quite corrupt but never thought it would be the case for IITs and NITās. They are the premier institutes of the India ryt ? Like whom are they competing. I am quite young so I dont have that much experience in life . So just asking
Sorry if by any chance you took this as if I am generalising people based on age. I get this kind of anxiety because whenever I express my dream to my parents , they say like " Its normal to have fire in your belly during this age. It will calm down once u get mature enough "
Even though my parents tell this in a light hearted way , I give a feeling as if the dreams all I am having is just a temporary thing like a kid dreaming to become a police officer because he saw some action scenes in movies.
Also there is a poem by William Shakespeare called " 7 stages of life " , in which he says these are the stages were a man (20 - 30s age ) wants to become a warrior and all then at next stage ( 30 - 40 ) , he realises all his mistakes in previous stages and becomes a family man.
These kinds of stuffs irritates me quite a bit especially when I am down.
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